Claudiu's Journal

OK but warning… long post incoming :grin:

The initial few years of applying the method I made very good progress but then it seemed I hit a wall, and I remained on that plateau for a year or so. Things changed initially with the news of Richard’s death, it was a wake up call and it re-ignited the desire in me to become actually free of the human condition in this lifetime.
I did exactly as @Vineeto encouraged, I turned any sadness and shock into a deep and abiding appreciation for Richard, then I allowed this appreciation to ‘spill over’ into appreciating this universe and my fellow human beings. So it seems this is what set things in motion initially.

The next ‘push’ came from @claudiu going ahead and entering out from control virtual freedom, I wrote then that I was never good at going first but I am very good at going second haha. It seems I needed to know that it was possible.

So around that time I began allowing pure intent and going into excellence more often but still each time I returned to that same plateau, back into ‘my’ cage.

Then the below post from @Vineeto to @JonnyPitt highlighted something very important :

Ha, what a brilliant cynical put-down of an actual freedom from the human condition, by someone who likes bluffing [link ], because in reality he is afraid to leave his seemingly safe cage when the doors are wide open, and he could instead enjoy and appreciate this moment of being alive.

This “the doors are wide open” stuck with me but funnily enough I went right back into ‘normal’ and from there tried to figure out how to step out of the cage :joy: :

This is the tricky part, proceeding without knowing with certainty what the destination is like, it’s stepping into the unknowable. It seems ‘I’ am instead searching for 100% certainty before ‘I’ dare to step out of the cage, which is of course an impossibility as this can only be had upon actual freedom.

And so the next ‘push’ came from @Vineeto’s reply to me - This moment has no duration - #103 by Vineeto Specifically the below :

It seems as if in the meantime this possible in-between step between ‘normal’ and actually free has slipped your mind?.. Once you allow yourself to be out-from-control and the actualism process is set in motion, the brakes no longer work and you are in for the ride of a lifetime not to be missed. I can highly recommend it

I was determined to find a resolution to this experientially and so over the next couple of days I set the intention to continue allowing pure intent each moment again, come what may. And that is exactly what I did, I extended myself like I haven’t done before. I eventually had my experiential answer which I wrote here - This moment has no duration - #111 by Kub933 :

Yes thank you @Vineeto it seems you stopped me right in the tracks of a habit of mine - of hanging back in the ‘normal’ and from there trying to throw some kind of a Hail Mary towards actual freedom. It never works because the distance is too great and from that ‘normal’ place ‘I’ am not advised by the perfection and purity, instead ‘I’ resort to theories. It’s like ‘I’ am hanging out in the cage (with the doors wide open) whilst coming up with the next ‘great escape plan’ :laughing:.

So I could see that the doors are already wide open and that I don’t need a formula in order to step out, in fact that very searching for formulas was doing exactly the below :

It’s like ‘I’ am hanging out in the cage (with the doors wide open) whilst coming up with the next ‘great escape plan’

So I was revving up that engine over and over, allowing pure intent each moment again come what may. Eventually I noticed that the breaks no longer worked, it’s like the cogs of the machine just continued spinning, I wrote the below (Claudiu's Journal - #188 by Kub933) :

I noticed this yesterday driving to my hen party jobs and it was a very precious experience, noticing that the breaks no longer work was the culmination of a lifetime of dedication. ‘I’ was stuck in that cage of ‘my’ own making, carrying the burden of being an identity for so many years. And it’s a funny situation because deep down ‘I’ yearn to be free of this burden and yet it is ‘me’ who stubbornly refused to step out of the cage. Knowing that the breaks no longer work allowed ‘me’ for the first time in so long to say a resounding YES! To being alive, what ‘I’ secretly wanted all along.

And those breaks haven’t worked since, that momentum continues of it’s own accord. Even when various emotions come up it’s like the whole mechanism is crippled, they cannot stick and turn into a mood, rather they are immediately worked on by the perfection and purity.
At times this can be somewhat intense but always with the background knowledge that all is well, there can be an affective current active in all its ‘glory’ :laughing: and ‘I’ cannot turn either way, ‘I’ am simply left exposed.

So to sum it up, regarding the barrier to entry, I think it is ultimately what I wrote yesterday :

As to how accessible this is I agree, the only thing it requires it seems is that one sees that the doors of ‘my’ cage are wide open, what keeps ‘me’ inside is nothing but ‘my’ own perversity

And this is something that I can observe all around nowadays, this perversity which keeps ‘me’ in ‘my’ cage is just like what Richard wrote - “it is impossible to combat the wisdom of the real world”. In a similar fashion ‘I’ have weaved the most elaborate worldview in order to justify remaining in ‘my’ cage. The psychological and psychic gymnastics that ‘I’ get up to in order to remain ‘trapped’ inside the cage are legendary haha.

So in short it was seeing that the doors are already wide open and that there is nothing to do but step outside. The thing to bear in mind is that one cannot be stepping outside whilst at the same time hanging back and making the ‘next great escape plan’, this kind of activity has to be seen for what it is.

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Found this photo that reminded me of this :smile:

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Ah haha that is perfect! I was actually thinking around that time how cool it would be to create some artwork to demonstrate the comical nature of ‘my’ dilemma, of being ‘stuck’ in the cage with the doors already wide open and plotting the next ‘great escape plan’.

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Things are fantabulously fantastic :)) It is difficult to construct words to adequately describe how amazingly wondrous life is when living this near-perfection. A busy workday is no longer something that causes any stress, but is just a delightful opportunity for the already-existing and well-developed cognitive faculties to become engaged. Situations that initially feel like they would be stressful, I think about whether there really is any reason to stress about it, and I see that it’s just like any other situation, a matter of steps to take, one after the other, each bringing the situation closer to a resolution.

In a way I would describe myself as experiencing emotions more than before, not less. There is no filter, or suppression, or backing away from experiencing them fully. Yet when I find myself taking actions in the world even while experiencing such intensity, I find that they are caring and considerate actions that are for the most part unaffected by what I’m feeling. It’s just something to experience and then the experience of it shows there’s a better way, i.e. that the non-felicitous feelings are redundant and not necessary.

Yesterday night while driving home from the gym I experienced how what actual freedom is actually literally perfection! It is the way I always wanted life to be – actually perfect, as in, thoroughly, 100% of every possible aspect of being alive is perfect, there is no need to compromise on any aspect of how I experience myself. This is now just very straightforwardly something I want and am actively pursuing of how to cross the finish line at last, rather than something that in the past I would be encouraging myself to pursue – if that distinction makes sense :))

It is all truly wonderful and I directly experience it now that my days are very numbered indeed!

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Being out from control really is superior!

I can still get upset but the quality of it is so different. I automatically allow myself to feel it fully. And there’s no question of “whether” to stop being upset, and also no question of “how” to do it. I can just see automatically that it’s a choice. I can explore it fully. And I can easily see that there’s just no reason to continue being upset. Whatever it is about the world that is upsetting me — that’s how the world is. It’s just a matter of accepting it.

And there’s no stickiness to the upset. I don’t get in a mood that lingers. It immediately evaporates and I find myself enjoying whatever it is I’m doing or talking to whomever I’m talking.

I can highly recommend this course of action, to allow pure intent to live your life, knowing it will ultimately lead to self-immolation :slight_smile:

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Claudiu: I can highly recommend this course of action, to allow pure intent to live your life, knowing it will ultimately lead to self-immolation :slight_smile:

James: This last sentence says it well as to exactly what ‘out from control’ is: “to allow pure intent to live your life which will ultimately lead to self-immolation.”
I need to tune in to pure intent and stay with it and not keep using excuses like pain. I got a small taste of pure intent yesterday and didn’t stay with it. The way you said it here helps me to focus on it. I appreciate you keeping us updated on your journey.
For my own remembrance: Out from control is allowing pure intent to live your life which leads to self-immolation.

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Haha yes it is exactly like this, I am yet to get stuck in a bad mood since the initial shift, how odd but how wonderful! Feelings do come up but it is exactly as you describe.

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I wonder if it may be helpful to point out that in my case it was definitely about allowing pure intent to live my life but this “allowing” was not a once and done thing. It wasn’t that ‘I’ as the doer decided to allow pure intent and that was it. The allowing was done obsessively and persistently each moment again, as you said “allowing it is not a lacklustre approach”.

So ‘I’ commit to allowing pure intent each moment again come what may, it is an experiential choice that is actively made over and over until a momentum begins that is not of ‘my’ doing, then the breaks are off.

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For me there was a definite lead up to deciding to allow pure intent more, and particularly to remain in the scintillating enjoyment and appreciation rather than constantly going for self immolation all the time. A decision to sort of “stabilize” in that baseline, although I dislike that word a bit as it has a dynamic quality.

Doing this more and more, at one point I found I was able to allow myself to have the controls be let go of — and that was a definitive moment after which I have been out-from-control the entire time.

So by making the decision I’m referring to that last part, that only had to happen once. But leading up to it there was definitely a concerted effort to bring myself on board enough to have it happen — and the rich magicality of the purity shining through reliably and wondrously, definitely made it an easy choice!! :smile:

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Yes I think you might be right here, there is that initial concerted effort to continue allowing pure intent until the possibility opens up where ‘I’ can make the decision to remain in that place indefinitely i.e never go back to ‘normal’.

I think I was so focused on obsessively allowing pure intent that I don’t remember making a separate decision, yet a decision was made by virtue of my obsessive commitment haha.

I remember I was thinking to myself (actually it was more like I was voicing the fact that the decision has already been made) that I am simply never going to go back to ‘normal’. Around that time I tried to see if I could go back to ‘normal’ and then I noticed that the breaks were already off.

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Well two night ago I had an interesting experience that I thought might have been IT at first.

I had just gotten off the phone with someone that had wished me a happy birthday, and was eating a delicious pork rib dinner. They wished it to me in a very fun, intimate and personal way – and it struck me just what a caring and considerate thing it was for them to do. There was nothing forcing them to do it in the way they did, they just chose to do so because it was something they thought I would enjoy. This was all more of a “striking me in an instant” kind of thing rather than a thought-out explication as I’m writing now.

And together with that realization I experienced something happening, of a sensation or feeling disappearing from what I felt was my ‘heart’ area, or sternum.

It seemed very clear at first where that sensation was which disappeared, but then I realized I could no longer feel it out! I kept eating and the sensate experience was greatly enriched. The pork was now lusciously toned with an infinite variety of subtle colours. The succulent flavour was lip-smackingly delicious. And normally I would finish the entire meal when it was so good… but instead I found that I was full, and I stopped eating it! It just wasn’t sensible to over-fill myself. The tomato salad that came with it, I also tasted the flavour far more than before, and although it was more enjoyable and I tasted it much more, I realized it was actually not very good haha. It was a bit too vinegary – which I hadn’t noticed before. Throughout all this, the purity of actuality was strikingly evident.

There was no immediate feeling or sensation of disappointment which I had experienced in the past when entering actuality-mimicking ASCs. So there were no clear red flags and apparently all was well!

Reactions I’d normally have in conversations just weren’t even happening. I was automatically far more caring and considerate than before – just for the sheer fun of it!

However it was not perfectly clear and perfectly pristine. I was actually very physically and mentally tired so wondered if it had to do with that… and then I was experiencing sensations which I’d normally attribute to emotions, although they didn’t feel quite the same… however, eventually later while watching TV I gradually came to see I was now experiencing myself the same way as I was before the event happened.

I realized after that it must have been a PCE! It fits the bill quite perfectly. Yet it was different than past ones because it was much, much more stable than others I have had in the past. And the added stability of it was actually far more mundane (as in unremarkable) than before. In that I didn’t perceive it as an extra-ordinary quality, but rather an ordinary one.

The other interesting thing is that the difference between out-from-control and this PCE was somehow not very different – which I put it down to out-from-control itself being closer to being actually free than normal, as I wrote earlier:


What I put it down as now is this was a preview of what being basically actually free will be like – yet I know it will be even more so than that.

And, above all, what was evidently and abundantly clear was that it would not be ‘me’ doing it, it is not ‘me’ who will actually self-immolate. The PCE did not come by command or intention – it just happened. I had no inkling it was about to happen. It was entirely out of ‘my’ control – and I see that becoming actually free will happen in a way that is of the same nature as that.

Cheers,
Claudiu

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Ahh I wonder then if the decision to allow self immolation to happen has already been made by virtue of stepping out from control.

This poses an interesting question of what ‘I’ can do in the meantime to ensure it happens sooner rather than later, if there is anything that is. But ‘I’ don’t seem to be able to locate any tools that could be used at this point to do any ‘speeding up’ , as it’s all happening already anyways.

It’s like ‘I’ am riding down a steep hill on a bicycle but ‘I’ am still trying to pedal ‘my’ feet to help the momentum :laughing:

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Well there must be something, else it would have happened already.

I can still experience the purity more sometimes and less other times, and I seem to have some say in that, in terms of how much I am allowing it.

I would say the way to “ensure it happens sooner rather than later” is to continue allowing the purity, welcoming it, embracing it, being percipient of it, contemplating the actual world, and as always, identifying triggers when enjoyment and appreciation has diminished and investigate what they uncover about ‘my’ identity such as to get even another bit of ‘me’ on board.

Yeah I was going to write something like “put as much energy as possible into allowing it”, but that doesn’t convey the quality of what I’m trying to get at. I don’t think the way, at this point, is an effortful thing in that way. But allowing it definitely remains something ‘I’ can actively do.

Cheers,
Claudiu

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And yet all these things are already being done. Allowing purity, contemplating the actual world, identifying triggers, uncovering about ‘me’ are all aspects of riding down that steep hill which seem to happen whether ‘I’ am still pedalling ‘my’ feet or not.
It’s as if the momentum happening of it’s own accord begins to blur the lines of agency. As in ‘I’ cannot see much of a difference between ‘me’ doing all of those things and them being done anyways. ‘I’ couldn’t stop those things from happening, so am ‘I’ the agent behind them happening in the first place? And if they are happening anyway, how could ‘I’ possibly speed them up?

This is a fact - if nothing else needed to happen then I would be actually free already. And yet bearing the above in mind can ‘I’ do any more? I guess it’s helpful for these apparent paradoxes that ‘I’ don’t actually exist in the first place.

Ah how wonderful, the below quote summarises this apparent ‘predicament’ perfectly! :

Becoming free of the human condition is a result of making a curious decision to ‘do it’ – whatever it takes – and once one sets it all in motion a momentum takes over where one realises one has embarked already … and once one has that impetus going one cannot ‘un-set’ the pace. An alacrity takes over and one finds that one has already been doing it and one has no choice in the matter (fascination is almost like ‘I am not doing this – this is happening to me’). This means one is already committed to finding out – it is not that one makes a commitment as one can always break a commitment after a lot of soul-searching – and this commitment one cannot break. There is no pulling back – which is why most people do not want to start – because once one has started one cannot stop. It is a one-way trip … that is the thrilling part of it. With application and diligence, born out of pure intent, it will happen …one cannot help but become fascinated, for this is the predicament that humankind has been agonising over for aeons. Any reluctance to become fascinated is because of the ‘no turning back’ aspect. After fascination comes obsession wherein you cannot leave it alone any more – or rather it does not leave you alone – and that is when that tempo picks you up – an eagerness grips you – and you feel alive, vital, dynamic. Things happen of a serendipitous nature. One can no longer distinguish between me doing it and it happening to me. They happen simultaneously – cause and effect are left behind in the Land of Lament – and it is absolutely thrilling. Then one is fully doing this business of being alive – doing it here on this earth in this lifetime as this body – and it is all happening now. This moment is happening and I am doing it and the doing is happening of itself and I am the experiencing of the happening. Then one is in this propitious state of being able to say: ‘I am the doing of what is happening’.

This aspect of them happening simultaneously (‘me’ doing it and it happening) is what I am finding fascinating, as in it becomes progressively more meaningless to differentiate between the 2.

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Ha this is fascinating too, because looking from the vantage point of ‘I’ it seems to be some zombie like state when it is stated that I am the doing of what is happening. It’s as if the agent is removed and there is now a void left.

But this is not seeing it clearly, because it is that the boundary between it happening and me doing it is rubbed out, they are referring to the same thing, so this is not a zombie state, this is total involvement and yet it’s all happening of it’s own accord - cause and effect are left behind in the land of lament.

Also :

After fascination comes obsession wherein you cannot leave it alone any more – or rather it does not leave you alone

I see now that the way in which Richard used the word obsession is exactly what obsession is referring to, exactly the same way it would be used in a case of pathology. As in it is no longer in ‘my’ control, this thing will not leave ‘me’ alone :smiley:

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Being out-from-control is funny. When I have the appearance of being ‘stuck’, I reflect on it and see that I’m not stuck. Then I reflect on loosening the reins to proceed further and I see the reins are already loose :smile:. Then I wonder what the next objection is and I have trouble finding one – or in other words like there isn’t really one. Although there must be something else it would have happened?

Might be more about finding additional reasons and/or motivation to take the final step. A huge one was identifying the pattern I have to withdraw and go into a complete “not caring” anymore, just turning away from a situation or a problem. I saw in a flash just how deeply depraved that actually is, and how I don’t want to do that anymore in my life – and it appears to have disappeared entirely!

Also for the longest time there was a little actualist voice in my head (that was ‘me’ of course) telling me that I should proceed, coaxing me along, imploring me, giving the feeling or appearance of this being an ‘important’ (as in ‘serious’) thing, essentially making a drama out of it – and now I see that that’s silly, totally unnecessary. Maybe it helped in the past but it just doesn’t seem to be a useful thing anymore!

So with no drama or moral obligation it’s clearer it is simply about wanting to do self-immolate because it’s a wonderful and perfect thing to do, and that it’s the best thing for this body and every body, rather than being compelled to do it by some force from within the human condition.

And yet even though it is not ‘important’ as in ‘serious’ – and there is no feeling or ‘rush’ to do it in a real-world time-pressure sense – it is clear it is important as in having a large and meaningful impact on this body, the bodies of those closest to me, and the world at large. And I was about to write that the sooner it happens the better, but even this does not seem to convey it exactly, is there really a “sooner” as opposed to a “later”? It is always just now anyway, after all…

Fun times :smile:

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Yes it is a funny one, this is exactly what I was attempting to convey here - Claudiu's Journal - #238 by Kub933 :

And yet all these things are already being done. Allowing purity, contemplating the actual world, identifying triggers, uncovering about ‘me’ are all aspects of riding down that steep hill which seem to happen whether ‘I’ am still pedalling ‘my’ feet or not.
It’s as if the momentum happening of it’s own accord begins to blur the lines of agency. As in ‘I’ cannot see much of a difference between ‘me’ doing all of those things and them being done anyways. ‘I’ couldn’t stop those things from happening, so am ‘I’ the agent behind them happening in the first place? And if they are happening anyway, how could ‘I’ possibly speed them up?

It’s interesting how closely our experiences match up in the general proceedings.

The other funny thing I noticed just a few mins ago driving back from the gym. Because the past couple of days marked the end of one of those “parenthesis” periods which lasted about 10 days, I think. The funny thing is that I can’t for the life of me remember what it was that got me apparently stuck in the first place haha! It’s like I cannot resurrect that part of the human condition which was behind it, and it’s almost like it was all over nothing or that it never happened it the first place! :laughing:

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Claudiu: Then I wonder what the next objection is and I have trouble finding one – or in other words like there isn’t really one. Although there must be something else it would have happened?
Might be more about finding additional reasons and/or motivation to take the final step. A huge one was identifying the pattern I have to withdraw and go into a complete “not caring” anymore, just turning away from a situation or a problem. I saw in a flash just how deeply depraved that actually is, and how I don’t want to do that anymore in my life – and it appears to have disappeared entirely!

Hi Claudiu,

This is a significant pattern to have identified and it’s a very common reaction (strongly conditioned and upheld by society as well) mainly for males and a lot of females too. And it is not easy to talk about it because when you withdraw, you naturally don’t communicate.

The “not caring” is of course only a defensive front because if in such a situation you really didn’t care you would not have to withdraw from feeling hurt. It is indeed “depraved” not in its moral meaning (bad, sordid or wicked), but in the sense of “depraving you” from being able to resolve the problem and not get triggered again in a similar situation. It is also “depraving you” from experiencing intimacy with your fellow human beings each time it comes into play.

So it is really wonderful that you say “it appears to have disappeared entirely” – just be attentive if/when a habitual reoccurrence wants to manifest.

Claudiu: Also for the longest time there was a little actualist voice in my head (that was ‘me’ of course) telling me that I should proceed, coaxing me along, imploring me, giving the feeling or appearance of this being an ‘important’ (as in ‘serious’) thing, essentially making a drama out of it – and now I see that that’s silly, totally unnecessary. Maybe it helped in the past but it just doesn’t seem to be a useful thing anymore! […]
And yet even though it is not ‘important’ as in ‘serious’ – and there is no feeling or ‘rush’ to do it in a real-world time-pressure sense – it is clear it is important as in having a large and meaningful impact on this body, the bodies of those closest to me, and the world at large. And I was about to write that the sooner it happens the better, but even this does not seem to convey it exactly, is there really a “sooner” as opposed to a “later”? It is always just now anyway, after all…

It is amazing how often the cunningness of the identity is in operation – here ‘you’, the identity, is masquerading as an “actualist voice” urging you on, whilst the very fact that there is an identity urging you, veils or distracts or even puts you off from what you actually want to bring about! The aim of ‘me’ is to literally create a diversion and drain the energy of going forward by putting you in conflict with your own aim. And then, as a result of not enjoying the conflict created by this “actualist voice” you give in and ask if “there really a “sooner” as opposed to a “later”? And that “It is always just now anyway, after all…”

This is a copout, a semantic trick, to stifle your intent to become free now, and if not now then at the next opportunity to present itself.

Only a four days ago you wrote –

Kuba: This persistence of the guardian after self immolation means that really there is no excuse not to do it right away.

Claudiu: Yes I thought the same after reading it! (link)

‘Vineeto’ called these occurrences ‘furphy’ [(Austral. Slang): a false report or rumour; an absurd story] each time ‘she’ successfully exposed one of those cunning diversions. It became a fascinating game for ‘her’ to discover them as quickly as possible.

You may need to arm yourself with fascinated attention, charged up with pure intent, to unveil, decode, disarm and unmask all these ‘little’ diversions and furphies created by a very cunning ‘self’-preserving identity, presented in a last-ditch effort to prevent you from reaching your destiny.

Claudiu to Felix: Oo is it that we have another joiner of the out-from-control club? (link)

Just for the record - being out-from-control is not a stable condition but a transitory stage of a more or less ongoing excellence experience in the process of becoming free. As such it is not a “club” to leisurely hang out in forever. Look, here is the history of virtual freedom so far – Richard had to inadvertently veer off into Spiritual Enlightenment after about six months of “dynamic virtual freedom”, whilst proceeding towards an actual freedom (because at the time it was the only possible way due to a marked lack of precedence in his unmapped adventure new to human consciousness); Devika backed out after 13 months, due to ‘stage fright’. She consequently gave way to love and “chose for what she says is ‘True Love’ (‘Matrilineal not Patrilineal’)” (link) and eventually “died a lonesome spinster” (link), while ‘Vineeto’, who, forewarned, had vowed never ‘to do a Devika’, went out-from-control the day Devika/Irene died (14 Nov 2009), and after about six weeks took advantage of the newly opened Direct Route and became newly actually free on 5 Jan 2010. One can’t stagnate, either go forward or backward.

Here is how ‘Vineeto’ described this period in the Direct Route –
“I experienced an ever-increasing pull to move forward into what I clearly and unambiguously recognized as my destiny – an irrevocable freedom from the human condition. It set in motion a process that was to undo all of my remaining bonds to humanity, my residue of inhibitions, my last hesitations and any and all lingering doubts. Having finally arrived at being out-from-control, living the ‘beer’ rather then being the ‘doer’, filled me with a previously unknown confidence and certainty that ‘my’ redemption was indeed nigh.
To step out from control was a step deliberately taken, after sufficient clearing of the ground, so to speak, and after sufficiently ascertaining that what I wanted was indeed what I was aiming for (the genuine article of an actual freedom). Taking that step ‘I’ then willingly and with intent gave myself permission to allow the universe to pull me forward ever more strongly into the hitherto entirely unknown territory that lay between me and the ultimate goal. […]
The other observation from this period of being out-from-control […] I remember clearly one day sitting in a circle of 5 friends, utterly relaxed despite the fact that I had never met one of them in person, and I noticed that I had no personal agenda whatsoever, no plan to stir the conversation into a particular direction, nothing to emphasize or hide, no self-centredness or favouritism, no shame, shyness, embarrassment, no power or drive – I was just being myself as I was. I sat in this group, as one of many, and my sole interest was that everyone present (including me as one of those present) enjoyed themselves/ obtained the maximum benefit from our meeting. I experienced myself as being unreservedly at ease and utterly benign and wasn’t driven to say anything unless it contributed to the overall quality of the conversation.” (i.e. no ‘self’-centredness whatsoever). […]
“During the period of being out-from-control the identity (being the ‘beer’ as opposed to being the in-control ‘doer’) gallops ahead closer and closer to her/his destiny.” (link).

Just to emphasize – it’s not a membership-club, it’s more like being a fast-running tide carrying you inevitably towards your ultimate destiny.

Cheers Vineeto

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