Hi @Kuba,
I think you understand what this caring meant in ‘Vineeto’s’ situation which lead to ‘her’ ‘self’-immolation in contrast to what feeling beings usually experience as caring for another but I would like to recapitulate the distinction for everyone’s benefit –
Richard: 4. This moment-to-moment experiencing of a caring which is not self-centred/ self-centric provided ‘her’ with the experiential convincement that actualising such caring, via ‘self’-immolation, was the only solution to the human condition; this ‘hands-on’ understanding as a dynamically present feeling-being – an impressively distinct contrast to having been abeyant during PCE’s – left ‘her’ with absolutely no choice (lest ‘she’ be forever “rearranging the deck-chairs on the Titanic”).
5. Since a near-actual caring is, of course, epitomised by a vital interest in the suffering of all human beings coming to an end, forever, as a number one priority, then ‘her’ single-minded focus was essentially centred upon the most immediate way of ensuring this long-awaited global event could begin to take effect the soonest … to wit: bringing ‘her’ own inevitable demise, at physical death, forward into a liminal imminence.
6. Because the means ‘she’ elected to utilise towards these ends was the near-actual intimacy which goes hand-in-hand with a near-actual caring (per favour that afore-mentioned absence of self-centredness/ self-centricity which typifies being out-from-control) … [emphasis added] (Mailing List ‘D’ Srinath)
Kuba: Am I correctly understanding that in the text you included the “one I cared for most, the one I was closest to” was referring to the flesh and blood body called Vineeto? As in when ‘I’ care enough to give to another what they want the most, ‘I’ am ready to gift it to myself, to manumit this body of ‘my’ bondage. [Link]
Yes, you could put it that way. This piece of writing occurred shortly after becoming free so I was not necessarily precise in my choice of apostrophes. The “one I cared for most, the one I was closest to” applies to both the time before and after becoming actually free, so could also been written as: “one ‘I’ cared for most, the one ‘I’ was closest to”. In fact, it was ‘Vineeto’ caring to give Richard what he wanted most – a female becoming actually free*) – which engendered the necessary altruism for ‘self’-immolation to occur – and thus give each what they wanted most – and give every body even more confidence that it is doable.
*)Richard: Incidentally, her words “to give them what they want most” refers to my oft-expressed emphasis on the necessity of a female replicating my condition … (Mailing List ‘D’ Srinath).
Kuba: But the point is there is this deep caring for a fellow human being to be free, something that is so precious and which ‘I’ care for sincerely. It is this very same caring which can allow ‘me’ to set this body free. [link]
Yes, Kuba, such sincere deep caring can indeed become powerful enough to be actualized into a near-actual-caring and consequently engender the necessarily altruism so that you care for the other’s actual well-being to such an extent that you are willing to give up ‘your’ own precious ‘self’ to help facilitate it, sooner rather than later.
And you are spot on when you write –
Kuba: It is easy to downplay the effect that becoming actually free can have on the rest of human kind. But let’s propose a world where ‘Richard’ and ‘Vineeto’ never proceeded towards self-immolation, then it quickly becomes clear just how important it is. No less than actual peace on earth, and no less than human beings living life in full meaning, each moment again. [link]
Each single person becoming actually free, especially in this early pioneer stage of actualism, has an enormous and unforeseen influence on the spreading of peace on earth and popularizing the actual world.
Cheers Vineeto