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Yes I was going to reply to this one too but at the same time being careful as not to go into unnecessary theorising.

What I can tell with certainty is that I couldn’t have made it even this far if it wasn’t for the assistance of others. ‘I’ always saw ‘myself’ as a kind of proud overachiever but ‘I’ definitely met ‘my’ match with Actualism :laughing:.

It is actually incredible how Geoffrey seems to have done it, relatively unaided and so quickly.

But before the events of this year I was somewhat stuck, I was on that same plateau for about a year or so and things just weren’t budging any further.

Richard’s death provided the initial impetus and @claudiu proceeding to step out from control gave me something repeatable to aim for.

But the other big aspect was @Vineeto posting on this forum. I always wanted to be able to interact with an actually free individual but for what ever reason Srinath and Geoffrey took a more hands off approach.

But the way things have been proceeding for me since Vineeto started posting here is indeed like being ushered forward as if by a maestro conducting an orchestra.

The very cool thing to note is that Vineeto does not have any power, it is not like ‘I’ could be manipulated by her to move in a certain direction. This being ushered forward is only possible because of ‘my’ concurrence. Ultimately this is possible only because ‘I’ have given way to pure intent.

When I first noticed this it was shortly after I stepped out from control and I noticed this incredible way in which things were proceeding. Where Vineeto would write something that seemed like the next step for ‘me’ to proceed to, surely enough the next day I found that things were happening in exactly that way. It made me wonder whether ‘I’ was already “there” so to speak, and so whether she wrote something or not I would have ended up in the same place anyways. Or was the acknowledgement of what she was writing somehow ushering me to proceed in this new direction, or was it a mix of it all :laughing:. But this is where it gets kind of mind boggling trying to suss out the cause and effect relationships.

So yes in the end I am left with this word synchronicity and the realisation that ‘I’ clearly cannot do it unaided. It feels nice writing this out and letting whatever is left of pride disappear. After all even Richard needed Devika to “crack the code”. It is so obvious that human beings are so very intertwined with one another and ‘I’ cannot do it in a vacuum. Perhaps this is partly why it took so long for the first pioneer (Richard), to be the first certainly took something exceptional. Well each pioneer has to be exceptional but let’s say Richard was exceptionally exceptional :smile:.

There is also something quite sweet in giving up this pride and seeing that “we are in this together”, as in that human beings have to work together to extricate ourselves from this mess that we have landed in. Because in admitting that I cannot do it unaided I also realise that I am not only doing this for myself. That indeed every time I inch forward, I am bringing others with me and vice versa, and that this is happening not only by the words written but more importantly through the ‘psychic network’, the effects of which are clearly visible on the forum.

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And of course it goes without saying that those effects apply not just between Actualists but inevitably affect all of one’s fellow human beings.

That when ‘I’ am ‘being’ felicity and innocuity and ‘I’ am ‘being’ naïveté, that ‘I’ have already affected others.

As to how others are affected by the existence of actually free fellow human beings I am not too sure.

Of course there is the negative aspect, and what I mean by that is that the absence of sorrow and malice will of course have a beneficial effect, essentially 1 less sorrowful and malicious entity in existence.

But I wonder if there is a positive aspect, that just like when ‘I’ am happy and harmless ‘I’ inevitably bring others with ‘me’. Is there something intrinsic to the existence of actually free humans that pulls others closer to perfection and purity.

This would certainly supply motivation to proceed. It would be so very worth doing.

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Yes I had a sense that as I naively proceed forward it’s like I leave naive ripples in my wake, ripples in the psychic web that others can ride! All said without any self-aggrandizement whatsoever, it’s not that I am doing it consciously, rather an observation of what appears to be happening.

There’s certainly a question of like, can ‘I’ actually do anything to proceed further? Do I actually do it, enable it, or would it happen the same regardless? Ultimately I put it down to, I do what I can. I definitely appear to have some influence over whether I am proceeding or not – but then there’s just serendipitous moments like the PCE I wrote about recently, that happened unplanned, I was just naively curious about this sensuousness thing and boom, there it happened!

Ultimately maybe it’s just about setting the stage and being willing, and then the universe does it.

Pure intent is with us all the way. Vineeto is helpful because she is pure intent, personified! She is actually the universe experiencing itself as a flesh-and-blood body called Vineeto, doing whatever she can to assist others. She cannot do it for us – but I agree that @Vineeto your participation has been wondrous and magical here! Everything is unfolding rather delightfully all-in-all. I get a sense once in a while that something much bigger than I am consciously aware of is happening, and I am only directly experiencing a small part of it, my own perspective. It will all be cleared in hindsight I am sure – rather than try to suss and figure it all out now, it seems most sensible to proceed as full speed ahead as I can, have it all happen, and then once free or even fully free, we can reflect on what happened and piece it together, if not already obvious by then.

Otherwise it’s putting the cart before the horse, trying to figure out what role I am having in people becoming free before anybody new actually did it haha, this would be silly.

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So when I wrote the below :

It was not so much that I am concerned with what ability this body would have in assisting others in becoming actually free. It’s more that I can see the positive aspect that ‘I’ have on others by being happy and harmless, it is an active effect, those ripples are actively doing something beneficial.

So I guess the ‘fear’ is that once I proceed all the way to actual freedom that any ‘link’ will be cut. And so any active benefit will no longer be possible. The only benefit will then be that others can likewise go all the way by knowing that it is possible.

But I guess what I am trying to get at is will there be an active benefit for others “in the meantime” whilst I am actually free. Will the existence of this flesh and blood body free of the instinctual passions and the identify formed thereof actively benefit others “in the meantime”. And yes furthermore will it assist them ultimately by pulling them forward in a way that is more than just the fact of another person having done it.

Well at least I have pinpointed another objection haha.

Edit : It seems the best way to find this out is to go and interact with others whilst in that utterly delightful place

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You’re not a bodhisattva. :grin:

But on a more serious note, I think it’s far more beneficial to have more actually free people.

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This is funny although at the same time it’s not a laughing matter as that is the reason humankind is in the mess that it is in to begin with!

It seems what I am circling is the fact that ‘I’ cannot do it for ‘me’, but now it’s clear that ‘I’ cannot do it for ‘humanity’ either. So there is that jump from ‘humanity’ into actuality and it means leaving all that behind. Which means there has to be utter confidence that this course of action is ultimately beneficial for all, and not just in an intellectual manner but as an overall experiential seeing, this is what I seem to be circling.

‘I’ will not give ‘myself’ permission to allow self immolation without this confidence. Which is one of those ‘frustrating’ things. That this utter purity and perfection is at the fingertips and ‘I’ am not willing to give ‘myself’ permission to exit the scene and allow it irrevocably.

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Vineeto: PS: As for the “Maestro” in this quote “thereafter an analogy akin to that of a maestro conducting an orchestra is suggestive of the actual in action” – it did give me an existential jolt of puissance reading it – perhaps you do vaguely (?) perceive something which I cannot, as I do not act according any ‘plan’ other than furthering peace on earth as well as I can. Felix’s Diary

Kuba: Yes I was going to reply to this one too but at the same time being careful as not to go into unnecessary theorising.
What I can tell with certainty is that I couldn’t have made it even this far if it wasn’t for the assistance of others. ‘I’ always saw ‘myself’ as a kind of proud overachiever but ‘I’ definitely met ‘my’ match with Actualism . It is actually incredible how Geoffrey seems to have done it, relatively unaided and so quickly.

But before the events of this year I was somewhat stuck, I was on that same plateau for about a year or so and things just weren’t budging any further. Richard’s death provided the initial impetus and Claudiu proceeding to step out from control gave me something repeatable to aim for.
But the other big aspect was Vineeto posting on this forum. I always wanted to be able to interact with an actually free individual but for what ever reason Srinath and Geoffrey took a more hands off approach.
But the way things have been proceeding for me since Vineeto started posting here is indeed like being ushered forward as if by a maestro conducting an orchestra.

Hi @Kuba,

Thank you for explaining further how you perceive the role of the “maestro”. You first clearly delineate that there is/was a “kind of proud overachiever” of doing things successfully on your own without having to acknowledge/ appreciate the beneficial input you received from others. Whereas with actualism, being something entirely new to human history, you had to mainly rely on Richard’s reports / descriptions/ explanations to learn about it until your own PCEs gave you your own loadstone. Even then you needed information /encouragement as to how to put actualism into practice most efficiently.

Now that I know what you mean by the role of the “maestro” I can tell you how the modus operandi writing on the forum works: I am primarily interested for your sake as you are a fellow human being, to aid your goal of becoming actually free. I am secondarily interested and aware of all other active members to aid with information, and thirdly I am interested for everybody’s sake (for the sake of flesh and blood bodies in general) as another person being actually free increases the possibility of setting a chain-reaction in process, and also people naively being happy and harmless increases the likelihood of an equivalent ambience. There is nothing special, it comes with the territory of actual caring. It is not always crowned with success as Richard’s writings to several hundreds of correspondents demonstrates.

Kuba: The very cool thing to note is that Vineeto does not have any power, it is not like ‘I’ could be manipulated by her to move in a certain direction. This being ushered forward is only possible because of ‘my’ concurrence. Ultimately this is possible only because ‘I’ have given way to pure intent.

Yes, it is in ‘your’ hands alone to the very end.

Kuba: When I first noticed this, it was shortly after I stepped out from control and I noticed this incredible way in which things were proceeding. Where Vineeto would write something that seemed like the next step for ‘me’ to proceed to, surely enough the next day I found that things were happening in exactly that way. It made me wonder whether ‘I’ was already “there” so to speak, and so whether she wrote something or not I would have ended up in the same place anyways. Or was the acknowledgement of what she was writing somehow ushering me to proceed in this new direction, or was it a mix of it all . But this is where it gets kind of mind boggling trying to suss out the cause and effect relationships.

I am always amazed how you, after relinquishing your first scepticism around your image of ‘Vineeto’ (link), were very perceptive and receptive of anything anyone on the forum wrote, which might give you a lead forward to becoming actually free. You could call it serendipity which requires actively recognizing and taking the opportunity presented –

RESPONDENT: On the other hand, by serendipity (luck) I understand the moment when preparedness meets opportunity.
RICHARD: There is no such thing as luck here in this actual world: there are, however, opportunities that occur (happenstance) which either may or may not be taken advantage of … for example: even though Peter describes meeting Richard as being a serendipitous event there are those who also have [met Richard] who do not (more than a few would probably not even remember it). (Richard, AF List, No. 25i, 19 May 2005).

Kuba: So yes in the end I am left with this word synchronicity and the realisation that ‘I’ clearly cannot do it unaided. It feels nice writing this out and letting whatever is left of pride disappear. After all even Richard needed Devika to “crack the code”. It is so obvious that human beings are so very intertwined with one another and ‘I’ cannot do it in a vacuum. Perhaps this is partly why it took so long for the first pioneer (Richard), to be the first certainly took something exceptional. Well each pioneer has to be exceptional but let’s say Richard was exceptionally exceptional .

I am with you that only “exceptionally exceptional” people can become actually free unaided, and for those who do there is a track record. Even Geoffrey reported how much he appreciated the help received when Alan and Donna (link) collected questions from Zulip members for answers from Richard and Vineeto –

Geoffrey: I am Geoffrey, a French man of 42 years. You might remember me asking quite a few questions when Alan and Dona were in Ballina last year, including a few about self-immolation… Thanks again to you and Richard for your answers, which were invaluable. (the first free french :slight_smile: Private email, 5.10.2018)

And feeling being ‘Vineeto’ understood from the start that in no way ‘she’ could become free of ‘her’ own. There never was this kind of ambition either.

Apart from the words written, the felicitous vibes/currents on the forum are certainly influential. However, given that the word synchronicity has much currency in the real world (rightly or wrongly attributed), it may not apply for every situation where you perceive it so, and this is because ‘I’ will grasp any opportunity to explain away and control any experience, even when it is outside ‘my’ capacity to do so, such as the magicality of the actual world –

RESPONDENT: How can you explain synchronicity events then?
RICHARD: The way I can explain the simultaneous occurrence of events, which appear meaningfully related in the real-world but have no discoverable causal connection, is quite simple … in a word: happenstance.
RESPONDENT: I can understand synchronicity explained in regards to the human/ animal world by the existence of the collective unconscious, but I can’t explain the seeing/ forecasting of future events exclusively related to inanimate matter as the work of the human/animal psychic web. Synchronicity in regards to the inanimate matter can only satisfactorily be explained if matter has ‘psychic’, aka ‘electric’ properties (I can’t find a better word).
RICHARD: Matter, be it either in its mass phase or energy phase, has no psychic properties.
For what it is worth: even though I use the term ‘psychic currents’, to refer to the extrasensory transmissions conducted via affective vibrations (colloquially known as ‘vibes’) … (Richard, AF List, No. 25i, 19 May 2005).

Richard’s ambience-atmosphere-milieu effect may be a more apt description –

Richard (to Jon): If you have already read my previous email to Srid you will now be aware that No. 25 has arranged to spend the month of July in Australia. As such it makes for an extended basis upon which to co-ordinate the timing of your anticipated visit so that it can overlap, by a few days or so, with whatever time-period Srid can arrange.
As I wrote about the ‘ambience-atmosphere-milieu’ effect, in that previous email of mine, I need not repeat it here but will encourage you to follow-up the URLs, and their associated posts before and after, so as to better comprehend what it is I have in mind as an experiment.
In short, by virtue of that effect there is a possibility that pure intent, nowadays personified as both a male and a female, may become more readily apparent. (Richard, AF List, No. 25i, 4 May 2013).

Kuba: There is also something quite sweet in giving up this pride and seeing that “we are in this together”, as in that human beings have to work together to extricate ourselves from this mess that we have landed in. Because in admitting that I cannot do it unaided I also realise that I am not only doing this for myself. That indeed every time I inch forward, I am bringing others with me and vice versa, and that this is happening not only by the words written but more importantly through the ‘psychic network’, the effects of which are clearly visible on the forum. (link)

Yes and no. It is wonderful that this insight gives you a solid reason that becoming actually free is not only for your benefit but for everybody. And yet this self-sacrifice is still the decision ‘you’ have to make of ‘your’ own accord, by yourself.

Just beware so that this motivation for altruism does not transmogrify into a feeling of belonging and thus pull you back into humanity (as you already demonstrated in you next post.

Cheers Vineeto

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Kuba: And of course it goes without saying that those effects apply not just between Actualists but inevitably affect all of one’s fellow human beings. That when ‘I’ am ‘being’ felicity and innocuity and ‘I’ am ‘being’ naïveté, that ‘I’ have already affected others. As to how others are affected by the existence of actually free fellow human beings I am not too sure. Of course there is the negative aspect, and what I mean by that is that the absence of sorrow and malice will of course have a beneficial effect, essentially 1 less sorrowful and malicious entity in existence.

But I wonder if there is a positive aspect, that just like when ‘I’ am happy and harmless ‘I’ inevitably bring others with ‘me’. Is there something intrinsic to the existence of actually free humans that pulls others closer to perfection and purity. This would certainly supply motivation to proceed. It would be so very worth doing. (link)

Hi Kuba,
First the obvious reasons which everyone can understand.

*You would not be writing on this list if Richard had not discovered the actual world and written about it extensively. Tangible?
*The Direct Route was opened by Richard and Peter and Peter became actually free one day after. Peter thus confirmed that Richard is not a freak of nature and that no-one has to go via enlightenment to become actually free.
*Vineeto benefitted from the Direct Route, confirmed after Peter that it is safe and confirmed that an actual freedom is as available for females as it is for males (of course!)
*Justine became actually free (later withdrew the publication of it) on another continent without having met Richard – proof that it is possible anywhere in the world.
*Grace and then Pamela became free – confirmation that women are as keen to be actually free as men.
*in 2011, a person of Indian birth and upbringing came for a visit and “was actually free of blind nature’s instinctual passions/the feeling-being formed thereof less than 24 hrs after landing.” (Richard, List D, Rick, 31 Dec 2011). They demonstrated, to many people’s astonishment, that the rapid (and sudden) way is indeed possible for someone with sufficient pure intent and urgency. (Richard, List D, Rick, 3 Dec 2009)
*2015 to 2018 three more people became actually free, and forum members reported they have benefitted and drawn inspiration from their reports and correspondences (to an extent they would not have, if the persons had been not actually free).
*Also Bub and Scout recently lamented (and many others before them) that actualism isn’t very successful because only so few people (sic! 10 people in 26 years of its inception and publication) have had success – and for them virtual freedom does not count as success in that it would inspire them to get more confidently involved).

You can see, when you look more closely, that the whole forum only exists because so many people have dared to care and cared to dare to go all the way to self-immolation. Furthermore, by coming out of enlightenment Richard most likely destroyed the possibility for anyone to become fully deluded –

RESPONDENT: I would describe it as the top of the pyramid.
RICHARD: The capstone of that pyramid – The Absolute – having never been, upon the extinction of ‘Being’ itself (aka the grandiose identity/ the aggrandised affections indwelling via having possessed this flesh and blood body) in 1992, only remained apparently existent per favour an anti-actualism/ pro-spiritualism blockage/ diversion created by my second (de jure) wife’s ‘presence’ … as in ‘her’ very ‘being’ (which is ‘being’ itself).
RESPONDENT: I can’t electronically discuss this any further as the matter is much more complex and contains extremely sensitive issues.
RICHARD: Okay … I might say this much, though: did Mr. Franklin Jones’ physical death in 2008 signify the last of fully enlightened/ fully awakened (as in fully deluded/ fully hallucinated) ‘Beings’ to bestride the real-world … to be meddling in human affairs, to incredible ill effect, for all these millennia now past?
Put differently, why are the subsequent crop of so-called enlightened/ awakened beings of the just-add-water-and-stir variety? (A Long Awaited Announcement)

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Kuba: It was not so much that I am concerned with what ability this body would have in assisting others in becoming actually free. It’s more that I can see the positive aspect that ‘I’ have on others by being happy and harmless, it is an active effect, those ripples are actively doing something beneficial.
So I guess the ‘fear’ is that once I proceed all the way to actual freedom that any ‘link’ will be cut. And so any active benefit will no longer be possible. The only benefit will then be that others can likewise go all the way by knowing that it is possible.

Ha, how skilled ‘you’ are to downplay the magicality of paradise on earth, and to increase the possibility for peace on earth for many more people to come and for future generation.

Kuba: But I guess what I am trying to get at is will there be an active benefit for others “in the meantime” whilst I am actually free. Will the existence of this flesh and blood body free of the instinctual passions and the identify formed thereof actively benefit others “in the meantime”. And yes furthermore will it assist them ultimately by pulling them forward in a way that is more than just the fact of another person having done it. Kuba: Well at least I have pinpointed another objection haha. Edit : It seems the best way to find this out is to go and interact with others whilst in that utterly delightful place 1 (link)

You are right, Kuba, this is really an objection coming from the one who wants to stay in existence as in “look, ‘I’ can still be useful”. It must be feeling-backed because it looks so silly (or gullible) to me, after all the processes you have undertaken in order to become actually free.

It’s all right, of course, for ‘in the meanwhile’ but on sensible dispassionate, if not PCE-inspired, deliberation, what do you reckon which benefits outweigh the other? And remember, being out-from-control is not a safe and stable condition – either one keeps going forward or falls backward. That was Devika/Irene’s lesson for ‘Vineeto’.

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Emp: You’re not a bodhisattva.
But on a more serious note, I think it’s far more beneficial to have more actually free people. (link)

Kuba: This is funny although at the same time it’s not a laughing matter as that is the reason humankind is in the mess that it is in to begin with! It seems what I am circling is the fact that ‘I’ cannot do it for ‘me’, but now it’s clear that ‘I’ cannot do it for ‘humanity’ either.

I don’t see how “it’s clear that ‘I’ cannot do it for ‘humanity’ either” because ‘your’ ‘self’-sacrifice will manumit your body from its dominator and will allow you to report experientially how wonderful it is to live in the actual world. Ah, rationality without common sense just cannot see the bigger picture! Can you at least see the limitation ‘me’ is bestowing on your perception?

Kuba: So there is that jump from ‘humanity’ into actuality and it means leaving all that behind. Which means there has to be utter confidence that this course of action is ultimately beneficial for all, and not just in an intellectual manner but as an overall experiential seeing, this is what I seem to be circling.

The “overall experiential seeing” happens when you are either in a PCE or in an outstanding excellence experience where pure intent is allowed to flow freely. Presently you seem to be arguing from a non-engaged, almost dissociated, intellectual position. For comparison –

Richard: […] 3. Due to ‘her’ naïve intent to be as intimate and without prejudice as possible – which, in conjunction with the absence of self-centredness/ self-centricity that is part-and-parcel of being out-from-control had resulted in the actualism method segueing into the actualism process – ‘her’ cheerful and thus willing concurrence allowed pure intent to dynamically pull ‘her’ evermore unto ‘her’ destiny. (Hence the “dynamic, destinal virtual freedom” nomenclature).
4. This moment-to-moment experiencing of a caring which is not self-centred/ self-centric provided ‘her’ with the experiential convincement that actualising such caring, via ‘self’-immolation, was the only solution to the human condition; this ‘hands-on’ understanding as a dynamically present feeling-being – an impressively distinct contrast to having been abeyant during PCE’s – left ‘her’ with absolutely no choice (lest ‘she’ be forever “rearranging the deck-chairs on the Titanic”).
5. Since a near-actual caring is, of course, epitomised by a vital interest in the suffering of all human beings coming to an end, forever, as a number one priority, then ‘her’ single-minded focus was essentially centred upon the most immediate way of ensuring this long-awaited global event could begin to take effect the soonest … to wit: bringing ‘her’ own inevitable demise, at physical death, forward into a liminal imminence.
6. Because the means ‘she’ elected to utilise towards these ends was the near-actual intimacy which goes hand-in-hand with a near-actual caring (per favour that afore-mentioned absence of self-centredness/ self-centricity which typifies being out-from-control) it is apposite to defer to what Vineeto herself wrote on the 20th of January 2010, only fifteen days after her pivotal moment/ definitive event, as its refreshingly simple directness speaks for itself. Viz.:
• [Vineeto]: “(…). Further it was obvious for me that it would be Richard who would facilitate and trigger my transition into an actual freedom because he was the most obvious person with whom a near-actual intimacy would change into an actual intimacy – simply because Richard had been my guide and mentor for the last 13 years and particularly so for the period since I stepped out-from-control.
As I have written to No. 5 recently –
‘The final clue was again about caring, a caring as close to an actual caring as an identity can muster. Only when I cared enough to give all of ‘me’ to another person, to give them what they want most, was I then ready to give it to the one I cared for most, the one I was closest to, and then I was able to leave all remnant concerns and inhibitions of my identity behind.
And that’s what happened”. (Direct Route, No.20, 20 Jan 2010).
(Incidentally, her words “to give them what they want most” refers to my oft-expressed emphasis on the necessity of a female replicating my condition – for those oh-so-vital ‘core of civilisation itself’ reasons spelled-out elsewhere on my portion of the web site – and it speaks volumes, to those males having reservations about going all the way due to the popular wisdom that what women want is loving relationships, that in the handful of daring pioneers women out-numbered men by a 4-to-1 ratio). [emphases added]. (Richard, List D, Srinath, 13 August 2016). (to access tooltips go to the original).

Kuba: ‘I’ will not give ‘myself’ permission to allow self immolation without this confidence. Which is one of those ‘frustrating’ things. That this utter purity and perfection is at the fingertips and ‘I’ am not willing to give ‘myself’ permission to exit the scene and allow it irrevocably. (link)

I do appreciate your honesty Kuba, it allows to discuss your latest objection point by point.

Cheers Vineeto

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Kuba: When I first noticed this it was shortly after I stepped out from control and I noticed this incredible way in which things were proceeding. Where Vineeto would write something that seemed like the next step for ‘me’ to proceed to, surely enough the next day I found that things were happening in exactly that way. It made me wonder whether ‘I’ was already “there” so to speak, and so whether she wrote something or not I would have ended up in the same place anyways. Or was the acknowledgement of what she was writing somehow ushering me to proceed in this new direction, or was it a mix of it all . But this is where it gets kind of mind boggling trying to suss out the cause and effect relationships.

Claudiu: There’s certainly a question of like, can ‘I’ actually do anything to proceed further? Do I actually do it, enable it, or would it happen the same regardless? Ultimately I put it down to, I do what I can. I definitely appear to have some influence over whether I am proceeding or not – but then there’s just serendipitous moments like the PCE I wrote about recently, that happened unplanned, I was just naively curious about this sensuousness thing and boom, there it happened!
Ultimately maybe it’s just about setting the stage and being willing, and then the universe does it.

Hi Claudiu,

Yes and no. The ‘universe’, i.e. pure intent, can only have it happen when there is not a single objection left. By moving as close as you can to make ‘self’-immolation an actual event, ‘you’ bring out in the open any objection which might be lurking in the depth of your ‘being’. As you know from your previous explorations, this is not a dispassionate affair. And in the meanwhile you are ‘being naiveté’ and as sensuous as you can be.

Kuba: So yes in the end I am left with this word synchronicity and the realisation that ‘I’ clearly cannot do it unaided.

Claudiu: Pure intent is with us all the way. Vineeto is helpful because she is pure intent, personified! She is actually the universe experiencing itself as a flesh-and-blood body called Vineeto, doing whatever she can to assist others. She cannot do it for us – but I agree that, Vineeto, your participation has been wondrous and magical here! Everything is unfolding rather delightfully all-in-all. I get a sense once in a while that something much bigger than I am consciously aware of is happening, and I am only directly experiencing a small part of it, my own perspective.

And isn’t this wonderful, both the ‘glimpses’ of “something much bigger” and the magical mystery to be revealed on arrival in the actual world!

Claudiu: It will all be cleared in hindsight I am sure – rather than try to suss and figure it all out now, it seems most sensible to proceed as full speed ahead as I can, have it all happen, and then once free or even fully free, we can reflect on what happened and piece it together, if not already obvious by then.

Yes – and as much as I am the universe experiencing itself as a conscious sensate human being sans identity, so is your flesh-and-blood body and you can experience this when you invite sensuosity and naiveté and allow what happens next. It will give you more and more confirmation that this is where you want to be for the rest of your life, no matter what the cost.

Claudiu: Otherwise it’s putting the cart before the horse, trying to figure out what role I am having in people becoming free before anybody new actually did it haha, this would be silly.

Ha, you just shot Kuba’s last objection to pieces. :blush:
He did resurrect it, though.

Cheers Vineeto

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Yes indeed this is what happened. What I can see now is that ‘I’ took the below and turned it into a beast :

I always wondered if there wasn’t such a thing as an existential network based on actual common human consciousness, and the psychic web simply piggy-backs on it and might atrophy at some point in history. However, there is far too little known to speculate any further.

So ‘I’ invented a way for ‘me’ to continue belonging AND become actually free! Of course this cannot work as it leads ‘me’ in a nice circle right back to ‘humanity’.

So then in order to make this work ‘I’ had to put the spreading of vibes via the psychic currents on par with an actual freedom from the human condition. In fact ‘I’ began inventing ‘actual freedom’ equivalents to belonging.

So then ‘ultimately benefitting all’ really meant keeping ‘humanity’ alive, that in actual freedom ‘humanity’ would also get to win. So the focus shifted from the motivation being to end suffering once and for all to continuing to ameliorate the suffering of ‘humanity’.

Although I am not quite sure I understand what you wrote below :

Because what I was referring to here is the fact that ‘humanity’ will end along with ‘me’, so ‘I’ cannot use any motivation coming from ‘humanity’ to end ‘myself’ as ‘I’ am ‘humanity’ and ‘humanity’ is ‘me’. I was using the term ‘humanity’ specifically to refer to what exists in reality vs humankind referring to actual flesh and blood human beings.

I will try to make sense of the rest and reply in following posts as it’s a little tricky doing this on a mobile.

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Contemplating this today it started to become clear that the motivation has to come from outside of the human condition. Otherwise I will continue trying to ameliorate the suffering of ‘humanity’ and thus ensuring continued suffering. It started to become clear that this would be a second rate ‘solution’.

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Kuba: Although I am not quite sure I understand what you wrote below :

Vineeto: I don’t see how “it’s clear that ‘I’ cannot do it for ‘humanity’ either” because ‘your’ ‘self’-sacrifice will manumit your body from its dominator and will allow you to report experientially how wonderful it is to live in the actual world

Kuba: Because what I was referring to here is the fact that ‘humanity’ will end along with ‘me’, so ‘I’ cannot use any motivation coming from ‘humanity’ to end ‘myself’ as ‘I’ am ‘humanity’ and ‘humanity’ is ‘me’. I was using the term ‘humanity’ specifically to refer to what exists in reality vs humankind referring to actual flesh and blood human beings. […]

Hi Kuba,

I may have misunderstood. In the phrase “as ‘I’ am ‘humanity’ and ‘humanity’ is ‘me’” you are referring to the human condition as ‘you’, all of ‘you’, connected with your feelings and psyche via the psychic web. Of course this is different to humankind.

But what is it that you want to “do it for ‘humanity’ either”?

It still is not clear to me.

Cheers Vineeto

So I was responding to @emp reminding me that I am not a bodhisattva.

This is when it began to click that not proceeding towards actual freedom for the sake of ‘humanity’ is exactly what the enlightened beings did. And that ultimately this led to the perpetuation of human suffering.

So this is what I meant when I wrote that ‘I’ cannot do it for ‘me’ but ‘I’ cannot do it for ‘humanity’ either.

But the thing was not resolved yet as later on I continued to look for something that would be ultimately beneficial for all. But this “all” was a cunning way for ‘me’ to include ‘humanity’ right back into the picture. As described in my above posts, in this scenario both the actual flesh and blood bodies as well as ‘humanity’ would get to win.

But this kind of motivation ends up being a mess, where things basically continue exactly as they are.

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Hi Kuba,
Thank you for the clarification - and thank you @Emp for reminding Kuba he is not a Bodhisattva :grinning:

Cheers Vineeto

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And just to specify what ‘I’ would want to do for ‘humanity’ is ameliorate ‘their’ suffering rather than ending the whole thing. ‘I’ want to remain so that ‘I’ can continue to assist in making ‘them’ happy, via the spread of happy and harmless vibes. This is some variation of belonging, a responsibility to continue easing ‘their’ suffering instead of abandoning the ship.

Although the more I look at this the more I see that really this is just a self centred motivation, fuelled by a fear of being a complete outcast, and furthermore fuelled by the fear of no longer ‘being’ at all.

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At least when I explore it myself it’s a sort of bartering, isn’t it? ”Look, ’I’ am useful!”, i e ”Please let me stay!”.

I’ve been having this back and forth quite a bit lately.

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Ha well what just clicked now is that was ‘I’ to continue proceeding in that direction ‘I’ would have ended up in something similar to what Milito was demonstrating on the forum. Some kind of fusion of ‘humanity’ and ‘actual freedom’ which of course means that it is not a genuine actual freedom from the human condition.

It seems ‘I’ have this desire to still hang out with my ‘humanity’ bros all the way through, which indeed is just an attempt at continuing to belong! Some way ‘I’ can continue scoring points of validation. To be recognised as a good person by those yardsticks which exist in reality. Indeed quite a silly if not juvenile game.

Which was exactly what Milito was demonstrating through his behaviour on the forum. Of course ‘I’ believed in ‘him’ as it allowed ‘me’ to believe that something similar was possible for ‘me’.

This need to be accepted by others is more persistent than I had thought. Here in New Zealand at the moment I am hanging out with @Sonyaxx’s large extended family and I wonder to what extent those fears of “not looking like a weirdo” and “making a good impression” are still affecting my explorations.

And why should I ascribe credibility/authority to those identities that exist in reality, along with ‘their’ feeling-fed opinions. If ‘I’ do then ‘I’ will for sure get pulled back in each time. ‘Humanity’ does not know what is ultimately beneficial, it only knows how to propagate ‘itself’.

Becoming an outcast to ‘humanity’ is not so much dangerous but rather sensible, in fact it is essential if I am to succeed.

Of course proceeding towards actual freedom is an ‘utterly foolish move’ - as seen through the eyes of ‘humanity’. If it wasn’t then it would be another one of those orthodox ‘solutions’, the ones that lead to nowhere.

The orthodox solutions have been tried and failed for thousands of years, so of course the only one that can work is the one that has not been considered/will not be considered by the denizens of the real world, it cannot be any other way.

Richard: The doorway to an actual freedom has the words ‘Warning: do not open … insanity lies ahead’ written on it. I opened the door and walked through. Once on the other side – where thousands upon thousands of atavistic voices were insistently whispering ‘fool – fool – fool’ – I turned to ascertain the way back to normal. The door had vanished – and the wall it was set in – and I just knew that I would never, ever be able to find my way back to the real-world … it had been nothing but an illusion all along. I walked tall and free as the perfection of this material universe personified … I can never not be here … now.

The other interesting thing is that although aspects of the guardian were visible in Srinath’s writing, such as the persistence of peasant mentality. There was clearly an absence of the need to belong, which cannot be said for Milito’s writings which clearly demonstrated a need to continue scoring points of validation from those that exist within ‘humanity’.

And here is the reason why an actually free person cannot have any power, for that power would be rooted in remaining a member to ‘humanity’. They can only point out the facts, ultimately it is only ‘me’ that can do it.

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The other thing which clicked just now, and this is a big one! Is that ‘humanity’ is nothing but that blind instinct for personal survival expanded into a beast called the ‘whole’, it is one and the same thing however. Which of course makes clear what the agenda of ‘humanity’ is and furthermore makes clear that the whole operation is just as blind and instinctually driven as ‘I’ am.

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It’s just so delightful to be alive!

I experience being alive now as being the peak of the optimum of how I’ve ever been alive. Despite continuing to deal with what objections arise, that can be powerful and feel intense (and not felicitous), yet still I experience this as the best I’ve been alive.

It is like I am at the peak optimum of my health, my finances are good, my personal relationships are wondrous. And it’s just so lighthearted and carefree. It is amazingly somehow easy to take it for granted as it seems ‘normal’ now, yet when I talk to a fellow human being and see how they are continuing to experience sorrow and misery, I see now how different I am that this is just not a concern for me anymore!

I realized now that this is essentially the best I can do whilst remaining a feeling-being. There is not something I can do that is better, to make life better at this point. The way forward, to an even bester optimum, is none other than self-immolation, in taking that next step and letting the universe flourish as this flesh and blood body being conscious. :rocket:

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Right and this is exactly what it says on the tin regarding a virtual freedom - one is 99% happy and harmless and the other 1% causes very little problem. Getting back on track is as straightforward as realising that one is veering off the track.

It is as if priorities swap around, where it’s the time spent off the track that is the unusual thing whereas delighting in being alive is the norm.

The digging around I was doing this morning in order to clear way of this latest objection is solidly in the past now, where it is no longer relevant. It’s clear that something has shifted as I have been able to interact with others this morning without this burden of ‘fitting in’. So the experience of perfection and purity can be it’s own verification, without the need for verification from ‘humanity’ which is all backwards anyways. It’s fascinating to note that the intimacy experienced with others is only made cleaner and purer without all that extra baggage. Whereas before ‘I’ blindly felt that it was in ‘my’ best interest, and in the interest of ‘others’. But then again do ‘I’ or ‘humanity’ know what is in ‘our’ (or any bodie’s) best interest? ‘I/we’ are certainly blindly driven to go on forever and a day, no matter what the cost, no matter the suffering endured.

What is actually in ‘my/our’ best interest as well as of actual benefit to the flesh and blood bodies that ‘I/we’ inhabit, is to cheerfully allow self-immolation to happen, thus not only laying down ‘my/our’ burden but more importantly freeing the actual flesh and blood bodies from bondage.

All get to win but not in the way ‘I’ initially envisaged. ‘I’ am ‘humanity’ and so ‘humanity’ is yearning for that very seem oblivion that ‘I’ desire, of course ‘I’ proceed unilaterally though.

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