Kuba: Hi Vineeto,
Ah I see it now thank you! It is a diversion to contemplate about physical death or injury when it is the extinction of ‘being’ which is required. That’s quite weird, cunning in fact, that to ‘me’ ‘I’ find it easier to stomach a contemplation about the death/injury of the body rather than to face the prospect of the extinction of ‘my’ being in toto. So really those contemplations about physical death or injury is just more of playing around in the paddling pool. OK enough said I think I get it now, I will commence some “untangling” first and see what happens then, thank you again. (link)
Hi Kuba,
I am pleased you could recognize the diversion, and on top of it realize in hindsight the cunning of sending yourself on a merry-go-round for mere distraction. You can take that as a compliment in that your previous exploration, “this raw apprehension at the prospect of no longer ‘being’” with “a fascinated attention right into it, without moving (psychically)” came close to the bone, so to speak.
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Kuba: Hi Vineeto,
>Vineeto: I am confident you will find a way, with pure intent and in your own pace, towards proceeding to your destiny.
Kuba: When I look at my experiencing these days and also of what is mentioned in my reports. I notice that pure intent rarely features.
Geoffrey wrote after becoming actually free :>Geoffrey: If I was to put any ‘conditions’ on it (I’m not) it would have to do with knowing what you’re aiming for and going for it (once you know, there is no choice). And for me this required numerous PCEs, and a solid connexion to Pure Intent. (Geoffrey, Becoming Actually Free).
I am wondering if the connection to pure intent is the critical component which is missing.
Yes, now that you said it, it would appear so. I kept wondering when you were reporting great experiences of enjoying and appreciating being alive, and then suddenly get side-tracked into narratives, illusions (link) and other “loops” (link), which keep you busy for a while, what was missing. It is not so much the fact that you kept getting diverted (which is par for the course), I was more surprised how easily you bought into/ believed those illusory distraction, when I know that you have read substantial parts of the website and Richard’s journal.
Kuba: To get more specific on my experiencing these days :
On the lower end there is this experiencing of the world being like a shimmering jewel, then on the upper end of that it transforms into something like the world becoming enchanted, with this deep magical quality.
But I would not say that pure intent is there in those experiences! That sweetness/ tenderness aspect is not experientially present.
They could have been Excellent Experiences (link), and because you say below that “I would go as far to say that those magical experiences are only for me” they were perhaps classified/ remembered as ‘your’ achievement, not as an experience of the magicality of the purity and perfection of the universe. As Richard said –
Richard: Then, as one gazes intently at the world about by glancing lightly with sensuously caressing eyes, out of the corner of one’s eye comes – sweetly – the magical fairy-tale-like paradise that this verdant earth actually is … and one is the experiencing of what is happening.
But try not to possess it and make it your own … or else ‘twill vanish as softly as it appeared. [Emphasis added]. (Richard, AF List, Vineeto, 1 Dec 1998)
Kuba: I do have a very solid memory of pure intent etched into my memory, I wrote about it recently :
>Kuba: Since the other day it has happened a few times that I experienced the sweetness of pure intent and following in that direction there were glimpses of the actual world, where there is only that pure intent, everywhere all at once. (link)
That “genuinely occurring stream of benevolence and benignity” has a sweetness to it (the sweetness being ‘my’ closest approximation to that “genuinely occurring stream of benevolence and benignity” itself) whereas those experiences of the world being a shimmering jewel / magically enchanted lack this component, they are simply wondrous but not in that destinal way.
In fact I would go as far to say that those magical experiences are only for me, whereas the sweetness of pure intent is as if whispering “this is for everybody”. (link)
What excellent observation. You can now firmly activate pure intent via rememorating this sweetness (established by the golden clew from this very experience) and have the connection running continuously.
Richard: Incidentally, just before/ just as the PCE starts to wear off, if one unravels (metaphorically) a ‘golden thread’ or ‘clew’, as one is slipping back into the real-world, an intimate connection is thus established betwixt the pristine-purity of an actual innocence and the near-purity of the sincerity of naiveté.
At least, that is the way it worked for the identity inhabiting this flesh-and-blood body, all those years ago, inasmuch ‘his’ recall of PCE’s was a naïve remembrance [i.e., rememoration & presentiation; see Message № 19775 (Richard, List D, No. 32a, 19 June 2015) for context], rather than a cognitive memory, and ‘he’ thus experienced a constant pull, each moment again, into the immaculate perfection of the actual world … and thus away from the contaminated imperfection of the real-world.
Being a ‘fatal attraction’, so to speak, it rendered the entire process virtually effortless. (Richard, List D, No. 13, 21 May 2009).
It will give you the perspicacity to be less gullible and recognize ‘furphies’, diversions, narratives when they appear on the horizon and, once pure intent is confidently established, allow you to safely let go of the controls and let life live itself (rather than ‘you’ trying in vain to live ‘your’ life perfectly).
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Kuba: Ah I understand now why Richard wrote that these days a connection to pure intent will do the trick nicely.
It is because pure intent is nowadays accessible (by virtue of having been personified) for any feeling being to form a connection to, this connection is experienced as a sweetness/ tenderness pulling one forward towards extinction. Whereas when pure intent was accessible only during a PCE – and as one cannot self-immolate from a PCE – then to proceeded entailed navigating the various walls of fear and mountains of dread. (link)
Yes, my lived understanding is that pure intent personified is experienced as “sweetness/ tenderness” whilst before that pure intent was experienced as an over-arching benevolence and benignity. It is by favour of common human consciousness that this connection is now also experienced having the qualities of gentleness, tenderness, sweetness.
The constant connection to pure intent was always possible/ available but you still need to allow this intimate connection to pure intent to be established and then operate on an ongoing basis –
Richard: The reason why that ‘golden thread/ clew’ is oh-so-essential is because of agency inasmuch as, whilst identity is in the driver’s seat (i.e., is the agent), any such giving of permission to have the controls be let go of without same will result in said identity being an out of control agent in some ASC or another (bearing in mind the three primary psychoses – schizophrenia, mania, and depression – are also altered states) rather than in an out-from-control and/or different-way-of-being virtual freedom. (Richard, List D, Rick, 5 Feb 2014).
Cheers Vineeto