Kuba: And I am scared of this, because I have seen just how quickly the so-called goodness flips into malice, that I am a friend as long as I “play ball” and then very quickly I become foe.
Actually the correspondence Richard had on the AFT when he first went public is a perfect demonstration of this, and the same for ‘Peter’ and ‘Vineeto’. What incredible push back against well meaning fellow human beings demonstrating a different way of doing things.
This is certainly what I have enjoyed immensely when talking with you Vineeto, that there is no malice that I could accidentally trigger, it is so safe. And of course at times you will discover something that will trigger ‘me’ but that is ‘my’ business. It is an impression which has burned itself deep into ‘me’, seeing what it is like to interact with somebody that will never ever ‘bite’. (link)
Hi Kuba,
I appreciate your perspicacity – and it gives you lived examples how you yourself can not only survive but thrive without the instinctual passions, operating in a felicitous and innocuous way, especially as you told me in a memorable post that “in short what ‘I’ deeply and passionately care about is to be innocence personified.” (link)
I am also amazed how quickly being scared of the (imagined) consequences of being naïve have evaporated after you “allowed ‘myself’ to deeply feel and fully divulge this feeling”. (link)
Kuba: Ok so I am starting to understand what is being spoken about with regards to being out from control.
In that so far the success of the actualism method has relied on ‘my’ ongoing imitative felicity and innocuity, this is what delivers an in control virtual freedom. It is ‘my’ involvement each moment again which ensures a consistent virtual peace and harmony.
If you mean “imitative” in the sense that you imitate actuality, being naively happy and harmless is indeed imitating the actual experience of a PCE until ‘your’ demise.
Kuba: And now having gained confidence in the ultimate beneficence of the universe ‘I’ can allow an ongoing felicity and innocuity and an ongoing peace and harmony which is no longer of ‘my’ doing.
Ah, now I understand the way you meant “imitative” – not instigated/ generated by the ‘controller’ but pure intent given free reign by the naïve beer.
Kuba: I twigged onto this when I caught myself planning for the BJJ session which I am to teach tonight. And then I realised that I already know that it will go well, that ‘I’ don’t have to be vigilant anymore and that instead ‘I’ can allow the session to run itself. And that not only is this safe but even better than ‘I’ can otherwise accomplish through vigilance.
It seems this is the direction to travel, that it is through having confidence in the ultimate beneficence of the universe that ‘I’ allow the perfection and purity which has nothing to do with ‘me’ to live this life more and more. That is to say ‘I’ can step out from control. (link)
And this is truly wonderful.
Cheers Vineeto