Yes good point, I see exactly what you mean. It is getting so good that I can’t stand it. I’m thinking something must be wrong with it instead of letting it rip as @Vineeto said. I did step out from control once when I started howling. The howling started on its’ own and kept going on its’ own. LOL.
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I’ve got sensuousness and perfection. I’m still lacking pure intent and I really don’t understand why. I could be letting the pain interfere with it.
I added naivete today to go along with e&a, sensuousness and perfection. I am quite confident that pure intent is coming soon.
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James: I’ve got sensuousness and perfection. I’m still lacking pure intent and I really don’t understand why. I could be letting the pain interfere with it.
James: I added naiveté today to go along with e&a (enjoying and appreciating), sensuousness and perfection. I am quite confident that pure intent is coming soon.
Hi James,
Just to spell it out more fully what you are intending to do –
Richard: Being ‘alive’ is to be paying attention – exclusive attention – to this moment in time and this place in space. This attention becomes fascination … and fascination leads to reflective contemplation. Then – and only then – apperception can occur.
Apperceptive awareness can be evoked by paying exclusive attention to being fully alive right now. This moment is your only moment of being alive … one is never alive at any other time than now. And, wherever you are, one is always here … even if you start walking over to ‘there’, along the way to ‘there’ you are always here … and when you arrive ‘there’, it too is here. Thus attention becomes a fascination with the fact that one is always here … and it is already now.
Fascination leads to reflective contemplation. As one is already here, and it is always now … then one has arrived before one starts. The potent combination of attention, fascination, reflection and contemplation produces apperception, which happens when the mind becomes aware of itself. Apperception is an awareness of consciousness. It is not ‘I’ being aware of ‘me’ being conscious; it is the mind’s awareness of itself. Apperception – a way of seeing that is arrived at by reflective and fascinating contemplative thought – is when ‘I’ cease thinking and thinking takes place of its own accord … and ‘me’ disappears along with all the feelings. Such a mind, being free of the thinker and the feeler – ‘I’ as ego and ‘me’ as soul – is capable of immense clarity and purity … as a sensate body only, one is automatically benevolent and benign. […]
You need to have a keen sense of humour. This business of becoming free is not – contrary to popular opinion – a serious business at all. Be totally sincere … most definitely utterly sincere, as genuineness is essential. But serious … no way. An actual freedom is all about having fun; about enjoying being here; about delighting in being alive. All that ‘being serious’ stuff actively works against peace-on-earth. One has to want to be here on this planet … most people resent being here and wish to escape. This method will bring one into being more fully here than anyone has ever been before. If you do not want to be here, then forget it.
One will never become free by sitting in a deck-chair on the patio waiting for the ‘Grace Of God’ to descend. One has to reach out – extend oneself – like one has never done before.
One has to want peace-on-earth as the number one priority in one’s life. One has to desire freedom from the Human Condition to the point of obsession and beyond … it is that urgent and essential.
Treat unhappiness and harmfulness as if it were a terminal illness that one has to rid the body of. And one does it for a two-fold purpose: for the good of oneself in particular and for one’s fellow humans in general. After all, a happy and harmless person is a pleasure to be with … if you are not good company for yourself, then what are you for others? [emphasis added]. (Richard, List B, No. 17, 9 July 1998).
With all this in mind, James, pure intent is bound to be “coming soon”.
Cheers Vineeto
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Thanks Vineeto, I am having fun. I am still lacking in the part where I have always been lacking: " One has to want peace-on-earth as the number one priority in one’s life. One has to desire freedom from the Human Condition to the point of obsession and beyond … it is that urgent and essential."
I understand this intellectually but not experientially. It seems like there is a key ingredient that I don’t get about it.
After rereading your post I need to start with paying attention to this moment and allow apperception to happen and not just talk about it.
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I’m seeing pain and death as a fact so there is no problem.
I’m leaving the door unlocked so they can come in and get the body.
Vineeto, I don’t know why your message and my reply didn’t appear on this list. You can post it here if you wish.
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Hi James,
It is excellent that you have no longer any objections to either pain or death. They are simply facts of life.
It reminds me of Richard how he, close to his death, automatically increased his appreciation for everything he perceived and experienced, so much so that it brought tears to my eyes for how much he could experience the perfection and magicality of every little detail and the immensity of infinitude streaming in as pure intent.
I wish you the same, life is so precious while it lasts.
You recently said that you could live quite a few more years, and that it’s ‘only’ your back which gives you trouble. Has anything happened recently which changed your situation?
You have been involved in correspondences with Richard and actualists for more than quarter of a century and learnt a lot about life and what it is to be a human being. You have learnt to enjoy and appreciate life and this moment to be alive. You have done very well.
I have always enjoyed my communication with you.
I wish you the very best for your remaining time.
Cheers Vineeto
PS: Would you agree to use your first name on the correspondences on the various mailing lists instead of ‘Respondent No. 39, No. 23, etc.?
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Thanks for the tip Vineeto.
No, my situation hasn’t changed. I didn’t mean to imply that I was dying now.
Thanks again, your participation in this forum has helped me immensely.
Yes, you can use my name freely on my correspondences.
Looking forward to many more discussions with you.
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I can see the fact of physical death. I have no control over it. I can’t stop it so there is no problem.
However, I don’t see the fact of self-immolation in the same way. What is seeing the fact of self-immolation that brings it about?
Richard said: “In the freedom of seeing the fact there is only action.” What is the fact?
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James: Thanks for the tip Vineeto.
No, my situation hasn’t changed. I didn’t mean to imply that I was dying now.
Thanks again, your participation in this forum has helped me immensely.
Yes, you can use my name freely on my correspondences.
Looking forward to many more discussions with you. (link)
James: I can see the fact of physical death. I have no control over it. I can’t stop it so there is no problem.
However, I don’t see the fact of self-immolation in the same way. What is seeing the fact of self-immolation that brings it about?
Richard said: “In the freedom of seeing the fact there is only action.” What is the fact? (link)
Hi James,
Only you can find out what are the facts which stand in the way of your self-immolation.
However, you recently wrote –
James: Thanks Vineeto, I am having fun. I am still lacking in the part where I have always been lacking: “One has to want peace-on-earth as the number one priority in one’s life. One has to desire freedom from the Human Condition to the point of obsession and beyond … it is that urgent and essential.”
I understand this intellectually but not experientially. It seems like there is a key ingredient that I don’t get about it.
After rereading your post I need to start with paying attention to this moment and allow apperception to happen and not just talk about it. (link)
You “can see the fact of physical death” and you have taken great care that everything is prepared. But you do not see the fact that ‘self’-immolation, if it is to happen, is “urgent and essential” because, if it is to happen at all, it will have to happen before your physical death. You have not taken the same care to prepare for that.
The best place to look for you is to find out why – in the face of approaching physical death – you do not “want peace-on-earth as the number one priority in one’s life”.
What is it that you, ‘you’ the identity, want to save? What is so precious that you have not taken the opportunity to sincerely contemplate how to become free from the human condition, how to allow it to happen. Why is it not important to you, why is it not essential, why is it not urgent? Why do you give up so easily?
These are a few questions for you to sincerely contemplate, to pay fascinated attention to, to naively inquire into and to genuinely look for an experiential answer … in order to discover “what is the fact” for allowing the ending of ‘me’ to happen.
Cheers Vineeto
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What ‘I’ want to save is the identity (‘I/me’) itself because that is who I am. That is what is precious. Correct?
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James: What ‘I’ want to save is the identity (‘I/me’) itself because that is who I am. That is what is precious. Correct? (link)
Hi James,
If your answer is not merely a thought-out answer but a deeply felt and experienced realisation, then you surely do not have to ask me if this is correct?
What is it that you passionately feel is in the way of ‘me’ agreeing to abandon the throne?
Cheers Vineeto
It is ‘me’ that is in the way. I see the fact of this.
James: It is ‘me’ that is in the way. I see the fact of this. (link)
Hi James,
Who is ‘me’? What does ‘he’ do to prevent you from reaching your destiny?
What are the objections, reasoning, justifications of ‘me’ to making peace-on-earth the number one priority in your life?
Explore the details of these objections, honestly, sincerely, and with all the intent you can muster.
And avoid the temptation of feeling embarrassed to allow yourself to discover, it is of vital importance.
Cheers Vineeto
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I saw the fact of self-immolation is that the ‘me’ is in the way and that I was headed down the known path to try and unseat it and the known path hasn’t worked and so I just stopped.
I’ve been told I need to connect to pure intent to proceed and I am not connected so I assumed that I can’t proceed without it. I don’t know what to do that is not the known path and, as I said, the known path hasn’t worked.
James: I saw the fact of self-immolation is that the ‘me’ is in the way and that I was headed down the known path to try and unseat it and the known path hasn’t worked and so I just stopped.
I’ve been told I need to connect to pure intent to proceed and I am not connected so I assumed that I can’t proceed without it. I don’t know what to do that is not the known path and, as I said, the known path hasn’t worked. (link)
Hi James,
No, the known path hasn’t worked – it did not enable you “to connect to pure intent”. Perhaps this quote from Richard can help you to be interested enough, vitally interested, in order to start changing in a direction which it not “the known path”?
RESPONDENT: You are not listening, Richard. I said that your fairy-tale-like ambience doesn’t touch me. […] It doesn’t touch the miserable human hordes and this God-forsaken planet either.
RICHARD: I am well aware that it does not touch people … whilst people stay as they are, that is. You want to be free without having to change yourself … and change yourself radically, fundamentally. Reach out … extend yourself … dare to do it.
As for not touching this planet … this planet is swimming in it.
RESPONDENT: Your infinite, borderless universe is therefore real unto yourself.
RICHARD: It is my actual, on-going experience twenty four hours a day … and has been for the last five years. Would you want it to be real unto you too? By which I mean: are you vitally interested in peace-on-earth? And ‘vitally interested’ means that it is the number one priority in your life inasmuch that it amounts to a fascinated obsession with your very being. Is your intention to become free of the Human Condition, in this life-time and as this body, the over-riding factor in all of your day-to-day dealings? If this is not the case, then what are you doing with your life? Why settle for second best when all this while the perfect purity of being alive at this moment in time and this place in space is just sitting here – right under your nose – freely available for anyone with the gumption to proceed on into their destiny.
RESPONDENT: What daring does it need to exist as the body only?
RICHARD: It needs the most startling daring and audacity possible, coupled with nerves of steel … it is most definitely not for the faint of heart or the weak of knee. You see, ‘you’, as an identity – any identity whatsoever – will be become extirpated, extinguished, eliminated, annihilated … in other words: extinct.
Speaking personally, there is no ‘being’ … no ‘presence’ at all. There is simply this flesh and blood body bereft of any identity whatsoever. (Richard, List B, No. 23, 7 Mar 1998).
Richard emphasizes again and again, that unless you are interested, vitally interested, nothing will happen.
The question is what is it that will spark your interest in peace-on-earth in your life-time, so much so that you are willing to “change yourself radically, fundamentally”, to “reach out … extend yourself … dare to do it”?
Perhaps reaching down inside of you to uncover your long-lost naiveté can do the trick – being like a child again but with adult sensibilities?
Cheers Vineeto
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I’m just going to have fun and enjoy and appreciate while managing the pain until I connect with pure intent. It is important to come to my senses. This will actually help humanity.
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The key for me is seeing that the fact of self-immolation is that the feeler is in the way. This helps me to focus on what needs to be removed. Just seeing that fact has an effect on it. Richard said: " The seeing of the fact creates the action."
James: The key for me is seeing that the fact of self-immolation is that the feeler is in the way. This helps me to focus on what needs to be removed. Just seeing that fact has an effect on it. Richard said: " The seeing of the fact creates the action." (link)
Hi James,
Ha, yes the “feeler” is in the way. When you (in vain) try to remove “the feeler”, remember that you are the feeler, just as you are your feelings and your feelings are you.
Does “seeing that fact” have “an effect” on ‘you’?
Do you recognize that ‘you’ need to whole-heartedly agree to ‘your’ demise because ‘you’ are “in the way”?
Cheers Vineeto
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