Kuba: Wow indeed, contemplating your post has put ‘me’ in dangerous territory, dangerous for ‘me’.
Ian: Part of the illusion is the feeling that there is a tie or anchor or root or a binding structure that keeps it there
Kuba: ‘I’ anchor ‘myself’, there is actually nothing substantial anchoring ‘me’ other than ‘myself’. This pin that keeps ‘me’ in place can be pulled out so that ‘I’ unravel. It seems such a little thing to do and yet the implications are scary.
Scary not in the sense that there is any genuine danger but rather because of the magnitude of the shift, of the fact that all of ‘me’ disappears, and then there is nothing but that magical perfection and purity welling up in all directions.
It’s like am I ready to be this very magical perfection and purity experiencing itself as a flesh and blood body, that is rather extreme! Not that it makes ‘me’ stop in ‘my’ tracks, in fact ‘I’ know this is exactly where ‘I’ am to proceed. But apprehending oblivion and also the magnitude of what lies after ‘my’ annihilation is daunting and alluring at the same time. […]
It’s like things would shift from ‘me’ existing as this tiny ‘I’ and instead this body would be the very infinite and eternal universe experiencing itself, that is such a huge shift. Then there could not be any boundaries between this body and the rest of infinitude, the perfection and purity which wells up in all directions could not be contained into a neat box or somehow hidden from. Perhaps this is exactly what happens with the newly free state.
Hi @Kuba,
When you say: “But apprehending oblivion and also the magnitude of what lies after ‘my’ annihilation is daunting and alluring at the same time” – I can understand the first part of the sentence but that you have a “daunting” “apprehending of “what lies after ‘my’ annihilation” is really not ‘your’ concern. ‘You’ are arrogating …um… ‘responsibility’ for something which is clearly outside ‘your’ domain. 
I won’t divulge how you already know where the pin is, it might be too thrilling … (1)
Ah, life is such a magnificent adventure!
Cheers Vineeto
(1)
• [Respondent]: ‘A feeling of fear has emerged now. ‘I’ feel cornered. I don’t want to do it for ‘me’ because ‘me’ is in control now and ‘me’ is not having any of ending ‘me’.
• [Richard]: ‘As the feeling of being cornered is where one is at now then that is where one starts from: as you say that ‘a feeling of fear’ has emerged this is a vital opportunity to look closely at the fear itself (while it is happening) and it will be seen that there are two aspects to fear … the frightening aspect and the thrilling aspect.
Usually the frightening aspect dominates and obscures the thrilling aspect: shifting one’s attention to the thrilling aspect (I often said jokingly that it is down at the bottom left-hand side) will increase the thrill and decrease the fright as the energy of fear shifts its focus and changes into a higher gear … and, as courage is sourced in the thrilling part of fear, the daring to proceed will intensify of its own accord.
But stay with the thrill, by being the thrill, else the fright takes over, daring dissipates, and back out of the corner you come. (Richard, List B, No. 39b, 7 Nov 2002).