Vineeto to Claudiu: Is the “feeling driven” a close cousin to the “‘gung-ho yeah!!’ self” – a diversion from that funny feeling in the belly when anxiousness sets in? If so, I can recommend to stay with that ‘funny feeling’ as long as you dare, without fighting it or expressing it as being driven (both options give the anxiousness extra energy), and experiment a bit. This will reduce the intensity and ‘whoosh’, you are back to feeling good. (link)
Kuba: Hehe this is a cool way of describing ‘my’ anxiety – “a funny feeling in the belly when anxiousness sets in”, doesn’t sound so serious when you put it this way. (link)
Claudiu: Hehe I feel it more like something in my chest than the belly
It is interesting to stay with it and suss it out. Intrinsic to it is a desire to look away from it. I was able to see it that the effect of fear is for me to look away from the fear, and then as soon as I look away from it now it’s driving me to do this or that (being driven definitely stems from fear, I can see this clearly). So perhaps I just have to not look away
Hi Claudiu,
That’s interesting that you feel it in the chest – an anxiousness (“the knot”, which perhaps even acts on your ease/ joy of breathing). When you decline the “desire to look away” and dare to allow it, see if you can feel it sinking into the deeper region of your belly, where the more profound feelings are generally situated and from there to the core of your ‘being’.
Then by not feeding the anxiousness (allowing it to happen and thus taking the fear of being anxious out of the affective mix) you can then recognize that you are the feeling, and hey presto, get back to being felicitous, and perhaps weaken/ dissolve the ‘knot’ altogether.
Claudiu: At some point recently (before the ~24hr experience) while experiencing pure intent I also saw and was enjoying allowing pure intent into the ‘knot’ of me that I experience. It was like allowing pure intent to waft through all my nooks and crannies. It felt very nice! (link)
Sounds great.
Here is what Richard recommended to Syd to do to access naiveté –
Richard: Reach down inside of yourself intuitively (aka feeling it out) and go past the rather superficial emotions/ feelings (generally in the chest area) into the deeper, more profound passions/ feelings (generally in the solar plexus area) until you come to a place (generally about four-finger widths below the navel) where you intuitively feel you elementarily have existence as a feeling being (as in ‘me’ at the core of ‘my’ being … which is ‘being’ itself).
Now, having located ‘being’ itself, gently and tenderly sense out the area immediately below that (just above/ just before and almost touching on the sex centre).
Here you will find yourself both likeable and liking (for here lies sincerity/ naiveté).
Here is where you can, finally, like yourself (very important) no matter what.
Here is the nearest a ‘self’ can get to innocence whilst remaining a ‘self’.
Here lies tenderness/ sweetness and togetherness/ closeness.
Here is where it is possible to be the key. (Richard, List D, Syd, 26 May 2009).
Cheers Vineeto
PS. The Actualism Method video excerpt is now also accessible (embedded) at the bottom of Richard’s Article of This Moment of Being Alive as well as from the homepage.