Hi Andrew,
It is quite simple, really. When you report, sitting in slow traffic in a car and get irritated, or annoyed, it means you are not enjoying this moment being alive. You don’t enjoy being here.
Why? For instance, you are more or less oblivious to the magnificence of your surroundings, the technology which is involved in being able to have a car and drive a car, the skill involved in driving, the network of roads and traffic control, the adjacent landscape, the air temperature, the sounds and the splendour of this amazing planet itself.
For instance, you are also not aware that this moment is the only moment you can actively experience being alive – not the moment when you left home, not the time you arrive at your destination, but this very moment you are here, now. And furthermore, you are not aware that it is always this moment, wherever you are, it is always now.
In short, when you not aware of all I described above, you don’t like being here. You (temporarily) forgot that your intent in feeling good is to imitate the actual – as is virtually experienced when you feel excellent – and remembering that you forgot, you can realize that you can experience such excellence again, now – because actuality in its perfection is already here once ‘you’ and ‘your’ complaints get out of the way.
When you look at this resentment of being here, really look at this basic resentment of having been born, you might grasp how extraordinarily silly it is to hold onto it and nurse it like a precious gem. One such penetrating insight can be enough to be done with it for the rest of your life – it just takes a little courage to let go of something you previously considered ‘your bosom buddy’.
Your destiny is in your hands and your hands alone – and who would want it any other way. To realise – and actualise – this is what makes you autonomous.
Cheers Vineeto