Thanks Vineeto,
I would not have considered that in a proverbial “million years “ but it a radical thought which I would call “very deep”.
Certainly, all sorts of resentments (from outrage to being wryly amused) are present. To think that the basic resentments of “being here” is the fundamental level though, that’s very eye opening to think.
I like how straight forward that is to contemplate. How it can be that I am always in some level of this resentment, at that blind level, and all the stories can be simplified.
I have already, as of 3 weeks ago, quit the job which necessitated travelling on the freeway.
I will finish painting my mother’s house and will move in the next few months to Tasmania.
The challenge of overcoming the “insanity of sanity” in the “big smoke” has proven too much for me. Staying just doesn’t make any sense on any level.
Cheers
Andrew