Quotes

Hi Proporcrutch,

Your reply reminded me of another good quote, this time by Geoffrey, the post was a response to the question of… “Let’s say an actually free person witnesses their child being brutally murdered, would he feel anything?”

Geoffrey: Is my child being brutally murdered again? It’s not the first time. It appears to be the default scenario that pops up every time there is talk about having no emotions. “But what if your child is being murdered?!” Maybe because it’s as close as it gets to a I WIN button, in this kind of discussion. Either one admits that of course, they’d feel something… and they’ve just shown they’re not actually free. Or they confess that no, they wouldn’t feel anything, and they’re immediately diagnosed/internalized/executed, lose all possibility of being heard even again, get thrown away from any admissible discourse and, let’s not shy away from for it, get thrown away from humanity at large.

What’s very interesting here, is that the question is not about what one would DO in such a situation, but only what one would FEEL. And if that was the criterium for belonging to humanity…

Various people’s behavior in such a situation, be it just before, during, or after the event, would vary widely… but surely, they’d all feel the same… at least all the normal people. That’s the important thing, right? How they’d feel.

Curiously the question is never asked why anybody cares about what these people would feel, since the decisive factor in any objective situation, the only important factor in dealing with it in the best possible way, is what they’d do.

What’s implied is that what people do - what anybody, surely, does under such a situation - is notpredicated on the facts of the situation, in a sensible way, in order to do whatever can be done under the particular circumstances… BUT on the feelings one is having at the time, the justifiablyoverwhelming feelings one is having at the time.

Feeling anger, tremendous anger, to the point of jumping at the aggressor, and say, his four friends with guns, to quickly find oneself on the floor weakly clawing at the aggressor’s leg, bleeding out? Fine.

Feeling sorrow, to the point of despair, and getting to one’s knees begging the aggressor to also take one’s life, confident that if he does not, you’ll do it yourself as soon as you can? Fine.

Feeling fear for one’s life - surely, those child killers won’t stop there -, beg to be spared, and then live one’s life in insurmountable guilt, for who thinks about one’s life when one’s child is dead? Fine.

I could go on.

I could even mention, even if that wouldn’t really be considered normal: Feeling bliss, love and compassion, and smiling at the aggressor. For the aggressor is you and you are him, or it’s just a dream anyway, or it’s just the unveiling of universal consciousness, or it’s god’s plan, or there was never a child in the first place, or you’re so enlightened that you just feel bliss love and compassion whatever happens anyway, utterly detached.

But… which behavior is it, that is the appropriate response to the situation? Those are quite different behaviors… And yet they’re all fine, as far as humanity goes (even though you’d have to get into special circles for the last one to be appropriate lol), they’re all fine because they are dictated by feelings. Whatever one does, as long as it’s dictated by feelings, is considered fundamentally fine. Even though it does nothing to deal with the actual situation at hand - or worsens it -, it’s fine because it’s human.

Now, what would an actually free person do?

This is where Claudiu’s use of the term « hypothetical » is appropriate. An actually free person does not deal in hypotheticals. This is not a sleight of hand, not an escape, not a refusal to answer the question. There is not actually such a thing as an hypothetical situation. So there is no way to answer that question. If I were to indulge nevertheless, I could only answer: I do not know what I would do. Not in the sense that this phrase is commonly used, which is “I don’t know what feeling reaction I’d get, and what behavior would ensue”, but in the sense that the particulars of the situation would be everything. The actual situation at hand. Which would include me. You may specify the situation with as many details as you want, draw the scenario to painful precision, you’d still be infinitely away from an actual situation.

All I know is that a decision would be made, and an action would take place, and that it would be the most sensible action that could take place under the circumstances of the situation. I am experientially 100% confident in this. Not that it would be the ‘best’ action in an abstract hypothetical scenario, nor that it would be the ‘best’ action anybody could take - for the reason that an integral part of the actual situation would be me, this actual body, in all its particularity. But that it would be the ‘best’ action possible that this body could take considering the actual situation in its integrality.

This confidence (that whatever happens, this body will do the best possible thing it can) is congruent with an absence of consideration for hypothetical scenarios in actually free human beings. Because why do people usually consider hypothetical scenarios? Why do they ask themselves “what would I do if…”… because they (rightfully) lack any confidence that when the moment comes, they’ll make the best decision possible according to the circumstances. So they draw hypothetical scenarios, and derive from abstract moral or ethical rules what the appropriate behavior in that scenario is, or they just directly copy what they’ve seen or heard the appropriate behavior to be, and convince themselves that this is what they would do, so that when that moment comes, there is a chance they might do this. But without even considering that when/if the moment ever comes, their feelings will be what dictates their behavior, one can see that this action they’ve decided on - on the basis of abstract principles or social propriety, in an hypothetical scenario miles away from the actual situation - is probably not be the best action they could have taken in the actual situation.

I remember that before ‘I’ had enough PCEs, and was trying to picture such an actually free person not feeling anything in such a situation (and ‘I’ was having trouble going over the moral condemnation, the scandal, the inhumanity of such), ‘I’ tended to picture them doing something alien, like just walking away, or making a joke, not caring at all. Because if they don’t feel, it’s that they don’t care, right?
Nothing could be more wrong. An actually free person utterly cares about one’s fellow human beings. That actual caring is in its scope without any comparison to the caring that stems from feelings such as love. Even paternal love.

In conclusion, what an actually free person would do, in such a situation - what an actually free person does in any situation -, is simply taking the most sensible action, the best action possible considering the facts available to them of the actual situation, which include themselves (and their actual caring for their fellow human beings).

I remember the next bit in particular got some laughs out of me back then :

Geoffrey: You say it’s one person with a knife. Ok. What person? Are we talking crack addict, vengeful ex-girlfriend, mafia goon, terrorist, pissed-off neighbor, anti-actualist radical activist? Are we talking somewhat reasonable person or psych ward? Are we talking ex-spetsnaz or soccer mom? Can the situation be defused without a fight? How would a fight likely go? I could go on for pages… What’s the room configuration, how far am I, how sharp is that knife, is it double bladed or can I somehow grab it if necessary, is the floor slippery, are there objects around that might help… I could go on for pages and the hypothetical scenario would not even remotely approach the actual situation.

But that’s not the answer you want. You want, out of this pretty barebones hypothetical scenario of yours, an answer on principle. Something like: this is what I’d do in this situation and every situation related to it. Which is precisely what I described in that post above, what feeling-beings do when they make hypotheticals. And then… they actually do whatever. Because I can picture many scenarios in which a random feeling-being, in the situation above, and despite having made the firm and constant decision in their hypothetical scenario that “I’d jump on the aggressor without any consideration for anything, to give my life away for my child, because that’s the right thing to do”, would actually freeze, or collapse on the floor, or be terrified for their own life, or start making grim scenarios about what will happen after the whole thing is over, or prioritize saying goodbye to their kid, or do some crazy thing like putting a knife to their own throat in some weird threat, etc. All behaviors that presumably would not resolve the situation because they’re actually not taking the facts of it into consideration, only the overwhelming feelings that are being had at the time.

What actual freedom does in that regards, is free up native intelligence, and allow it to come to most sensible decision possible according to the available facts of the situation at hand, in the moment, and as such provide the best probabibility of seeing the said situation resolve for the best.

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Richard:
The feeling of ‘being’ is the impression of being present; it is the perception of a ‘presence’ that transcends time and space … giving rise to the improper assumption that ‘I’ am Immortal.

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( maybe that is why Palaces are build and that is why people “plan” for what should happen after “they” die ).

“Lost in awe at the beauty around me, I must have slipped into a state of heightened awareness. It is hard – impossible really – to put into words the moment of truth that suddenly came upon me then. Even the mystics are unable to describe their brief flashes of spiritual ecstasy. It seemed to me, as I struggled afterward to recall the experience, the self was utterly absent: I and the chimpanzees, the earth and trees and air, seemed to merge, to become one with the spirit power of life itself. The air was filled with a feathered symphony, the evensong of birds. I heard new frequencies in their music and also in singing insects’ voices – notes so high and sweet I was amazed. Never had I been so intensely aware of the shape, the color of the individual leaves, the varied patterns of the veins that made each one unique.

Scents were clear as well, easily identifiable: fermenting, overripe fruit; waterlogged earth; cold, wet bark; the damp odor of chimpanzee hair, and yes, my own too. And the aromatic scent of young, crushed leaves was almost overpowering.

That afternoon, it had been as though an unseen hand had drawn back a curtain and, for the briefest moment, I had seen through such a window. In a flash of “outsight” I had known timelessness and quiet ecstasy, sensed a truth of which mainstream science is merely a small fraction. And I knew that the revelation would be with me for the rest of my life, imperfectly remembered yet always within. A source of strength on which I could draw when life seemed harsh or cruel or desperate.”

  • Jane Goodall
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Henry:

[quote]: “Lost in awe at the beauty around me, I must have slipped into a state of heightened awareness. It is hard – impossible really – to put into words the moment of truth that suddenly came upon me then. Even the mystics are unable to describe their brief flashes of spiritual ecstasy. It seemed to me, as I struggled afterward to recall the experience, the self was utterly absent: I and the chimpanzees, the earth and trees and air, seemed to merge, to become one with the spirit power of life itself. The air was filled with a feathered symphony, the evensong of birds. I heard new frequencies in their music and also in singing insects’ voices – notes so high and sweet I was amazed. Never had I been so intensely aware of the shape, the color of the individual leaves, the varied patterns of the veins that made each one unique.
Scents were clear as well, easily identifiable: fermenting, overripe fruit; waterlogged earth; cold, wet bark; the damp odor of chimpanzee hair, and yes, my own too. And the aromatic scent of young, crushed leaves was almost overpowering.
That afternoon, it had been as though an unseen hand had drawn back a curtain and, for the briefest moment, I had seen through such a window. In a flash of “outsight” I had known timelessness and quiet ecstasy, sensed a truth of which mainstream science is merely a small fraction. And I knew that the revelation would be with me for the rest of my life, imperfectly remembered yet always within. A source of strength on which I could draw when life seemed harsh or cruel or desperate.” (Jane Goodall) (link)

Hi Henry,

I was puzzling why you put up this quote.

I guess you are aware she is describing an altered state of consciousness?

Here are some of the give-aways – “Lost in awe at the beauty”, “the moment of truth”, “even the mystics are unable …”, “brief flashes of spiritual ecstasy”, “become one with the spirit power of life itself”, “I had known timelessness and quiet ecstasy”, just to list the most obvious ones.

Did you want to demonstrate how to recognize an altered state in contrast to a PCE perhaps?

Cheers Vineeto

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Hi Vineeto,

My impression was that it was a PCE, so perhaps this an opportunity for me to become more incisive.

Could this be a case of a PCE devolving into an altered state? I think that the limitations of language play a role as well often, for example someone who hadn’t ever read the Actualism site might find themselves describing a PCE as ‘beautiful,’ having not observed that there was in fact no beauty at play.

Hi Henry,

You just have to look at how she describes it. What you quoted appears to have been stitched together from different pieces of an article (link) and/or book chapter (link) without any ellipses marking the cuts (perhaps from here?).

It looks like the experience happened in the context of her grieving the death of her husband, which can help explain why the experience was precipitated the way it was. Emphases added to draw attention:

Altered states of consciousness can be marvelous and wondrous as well, with heightened sensory awareness. The key factor is whether I (identity) is present, either as ego or as soul. In this case, it appears Jane’s ego went into abeyance, resulting in an experience of being just her soul, her soul expanding and merging with everything (“I and the chimpanzees, the earth and trees and air, seemed to merge, to become one with the spirit power of life itself”). When she writes “self was utterly absent” it was her small-s/ego self, but large-S Soul Self, is what was present.

It’s not just word-play, it is a different experience. In the PCE you don’t merge or seem to merge with everything, you disappear entirely. Instead what shines through is the objective, on-its-own existence of that which is being perceived, which existence includes this body being conscious of course.

There’s no inconsistencies in her report, she describes it precisely as having seen the spiritual realm through a spiritual window which is what all the great religious, scriptures, and holy books accurately describe, which they saw (and which therefore she saw) using their “hearts and souls”. Richard also indicated knowing, in an extra-ordinary sense, that he was walking down/living the path of past great Enlightened Masters, while Enlightened/becoming Enlightened.

Basically like recognizes like, and she recognized the spiritual (“the spiritual power that was so real in it”, “the spirit power of life itself”) and the divine in what she experienced. ‘Spirit’ is another word for ‘soul’, of course. Pure intent is not ‘spiritual’ and that is evident by the experience of it, it is something outside of both ‘me’ as ego and ‘Me’ as ‘Soul’.

If you just look at certain parts of it and tilt your head and replace some words with actualist ones and excuse the language she uses, then sure you could kinda squint and say ok maybe. But if you look at the whole context and how she describes it in the rest of the piece, it is quite clear it was explicitly a spiritual experience.

TLDR: not a PCE :smile:

Cheers,
Claudiu

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What I was wondering was also, why dig around in the trash trying to find something that could (but probably does not) describe a PCE, when the PCE has been so meticulously and wondrously described by Richard and other actualists.

It’s kind of like as an actualist trying to find some wisdom in the ‘tried and true’ ways, which actually is also this weird inclination I have seen and also indulged in myself - For example trying to find scientific support for the actualism method etc.

It’s like anything as long as ‘I’ can hang onto the ‘the known’ in some way or another.

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Also Claudiu you haven’t been writing for a while and now I am struggling to find any ‘I’ in that post of yours…
:face_with_monocle:
Am I imagining things?

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Henry: Hi Vineeto,
My impression was that it was a PCE, so perhaps this an opportunity for me to become more incisive.
Could this be a case of a PCE devolving into an altered state? I think that the limitations of language play a role as well often, for example someone who hadn’t ever read the Actualism site might find themselves describing a PCE as ‘beautiful,’ having not observed that there was in fact no beauty at play. (link)

Hi Henry,

Thank you for your reply. It is indeed vital to be “incisive” [astute] when assessing another’s (and your own) extraordinary experiences.

Even though Claudiu wrote an excellent exposé already, I post this one as well as it was already written.

Let’s have a close look at her wording and consider if you would use such words describing your own PCE –

Jane Goodall: “Lost in awe at the beauty around me”

Both “awe” and “beauty” are definitely feeling words.

Jane Goodall: “the moment of truth that suddenly came upon me then. Even the mystics are unable to describe their brief flashes of spiritual ecstasy.”

“Truth” is clearly a spiritual/ religious word, so is “spiritual ecstasy”. Ecstasy also means ‘rapture, bliss, euphoria, jubilation, exaltation’ per Oxford Dictionary, which is clearly not describing an experience where the instinctual/ feeling self, both ‘I’ and ‘me’, is in abeyance. Also why mention “the mystics” unless one believes in a spiritual reality beyond the physical reality.

Jane Goodall: “the self was utterly absent: I and the chimpanzees, the earth and trees and air, seemed to merge, to become one with the spirit power of life itself.”

The “self” Jane Goodall is referring to is the ego-self, not the ‘Self’ with a capital “S”. With the ego-self absent she temporarily becomes “one with the spirit power [sic!] of life itself” and merges with “the chimpanzees, the earth and trees and air” – a oneness as is described being experienced in many altered states of consciousness.

Jane Goodall: “The air was filled with a feathered symphony, the evensong of birds. I heard new frequencies in their music and also in singing insects’ voices – notes so high and sweet I was amazed. Never had I been so intensely aware of the shape, the color of the individual leaves, the varied patterns of the veins that made each one unique.”

This part of her description could be similar to that of a pure consciousness experience, even though it has a poetic tinge to it.

Jane Goodall: “Scents were clear as well, easily identifiable: fermenting, overripe fruit; waterlogged earth; cold, wet bark; the damp odor of chimpanzee hair, and yes, my own too. And the aromatic scent of young, crushed leaves was almost overpowering.
That afternoon, it had been as though an unseen hand had drawn back a curtain and, for the briefest moment, I had seen through such a window.”

This indicates that the experience may have started as a PCE but very quickly devolved into an ASC, as demonstrated by her unequivocal spiritual sentences at the beginning and referral to malice and sorrow at the end.

Jane Goodall: “In a flash of “outsight” I had known timelessness and quiet ecstasy, sensed a truth of which mainstream science is merely a small fraction. And I knew that the revelation would be with me for the rest of my life, imperfectly remembered yet always within. A source of strength on which I could draw when life seemed harsh or cruel or desperate.”

The mentioning of the “revelation” being a strength “on which I could draw when life seemed harsh or cruel or desperate” means that nothing she experienced has revealed that there is an actual world where life is already, and always, perfect and pure. This is really the strongest clue that it was not ever a PCE despite her heightened awareness experience.

I did not mention “timelessness” as the experience of time standing still in a PCE can be easily misnamed – Richard explains it well in Pamela’s video. (link)

Does this help to draw a distinction between a pure consciousness experience and an altered state of consciousness (for millennia considered as the summum bonum of human consciousness)?

Here is the selected correspondence on differentiating altered states and PCEs – (Richard, Selected Correspondence, Affective vs. Pure Experiences)

Cheers Vineeto

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Hi @claudiu and @Vineeto , thanks for the thoughtful responses!

It was clear to me when I initially read it that there was some spiritual language at minimum mixed in, but it is more obvious following both of your analyses that it is more than just that. Claudiu I appreciate that you found the original sources - they are much more obviously spiritually tinged - and Vineeto I agree that the thrust is going toward spirituality, if there was a PCE at all (perhaps!) it clearly was quickly co-opted.

I can see in myself a habit of playing things “fast and loose” which I am seeing as a product of an anxious demeanor… rushing for ‘optimism’ when the baseline is doubt. Looking at this now!

Henry: Hi Claudiu and Vineeto, thanks for the thoughtful responses!
It was clear to me when I initially read it that there was some spiritual language at minimum mixed in, but it is more obvious following both of your analyses that it is more than just that. Claudiu I appreciate that you found the original sources – they are much more obviously spiritually tinged – and Vineeto I agree that the thrust is going toward spirituality, if there was a PCE at all (perhaps!) it clearly was quickly co-opted.
I can see in myself a habit of playing things “fast and loose” which I am seeing as a product of an anxious demeanor… rushing for ‘optimism’ when the baseline is doubt. Looking at this now! (link)

Hi Henry,

You have been interested in actualism for a while, and if you still are, then a distinction between a PCE – the (temporary) abeyance of ‘I’ and ‘me’ – and an altered state of consciousness – the (temporary) abeyance of ego – is vital. On making this distinction hinges what it is you pursue in your life – the perceived best of the real world or being a pioneer for something entirely new to human consciousness.

It has not so much to do with “rushing for ‘optimism’” or following “the baseline” of “doubt” – it is not even “a product of an anxious demeanor”. It is rather a matter how interested you are in sincerely imitating the actual as experienced/ rememorated in a PCE. It is your sincerity of purpose which will inform you if you are closer to imitating the actual or just ‘getting by’.

Cheers Vineeto

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Some quotes on willing and cheerful dedication to AF (emphasize mine):


RICHARD: When ‘I’ look into myself and at all the people around and see the sorrow and malice in every human being, ‘I’ can not stop. ‘I’ know that ‘I’ have just devoted myself to the task of setting ‘myself’ and ‘humanity’ free … ‘I’ willingly dedicate my life to this most worthy cause. It is so delicious to devote oneself to something whole-heartedly – the ‘boots and all’ approach!

‘I’ become obsessed with changing ‘myself’ fundamentally, radically, completely and utterly. This Moment Of Being Alive

  • delicious: highly pleasant to the taste; delightful
  • whole-hearted: showing or characterized by complete sincerity and commitment

RICHARD: Little do people realise that what they are looking for lies just under their nose; the actuality of peace-on-earth is no further away than instantaneously now in time and properly here on this planet in space. It only takes a determination to evince for oneself something infinitely better than that which has been promised but never delivered. It only takes a sincerity of purpose and a pure intent to instigate a beginning of the end of woe and malevolence. It only takes a dedication to the actualisation of freedom to uncover and make apparent the factual perfection that lies open all around for those with the eyes to see. It only takes the devotion of one’s every waking moment to the delightful task of allowing the instant bestowal of individual universal peace at this moment in time … befittingly here in the ultimate immediacy of this juncture in space. Selected Correspondence: Actual and Actuality

  • delightful: causing delight; charming
  • delight: great pleasure

RICHARD: Being here now is to put your money where your mouth is, as it were. All other actions are methods, devices, techniques … which are, in effect, delaying tactics. The most sincere form of flattery is not, as is commonly practised, imitating all the other people’s performance of standing back and expressing a feeling. To feel an emotion or be passionate about life is nowhere near the same as actually being here now. In being here now one is completely involved. Being here now is total inclusion. One demonstrates one’s appreciation of life by partaking fully in existence … by letting this moment live one so that one is doing what is happening. One dedicates oneself to the challenge of being here now as the universe’s experience of itself. When ‘I’ willingly and voluntarily sacrifice ‘myself’ – the psychological or psychic identity residing inside this body – ‘I’ am gladly making ‘my’ most supreme donation, for ‘I’ am what one holds most dear. Mailing List 'AF' Respondent No. 4

  • appreciation: recognition and enjoyment of the good qualities of someone or something
  • partake: join in (an activity); eat or drink (something)
  • willingly: readily; of one’s own free will
  • voluntarily: of one’s own free will
  • gladly: willingly or eagerly; with pleasure or gratitude; happily

RICHARD: Delight is what is humanly possible, given sufficient pure intent obtained from the felicity/ innocuity born of the pure consciousness experience, and from the position of delight, one can vitalise one’s joie de vivre by the amazement at the fun of it all … and then one can – with sufficient abandon – become over-joyed and move into marvelling at being here and doing this business called being alive now. Then one is no longer intuitively making sense of life … the delicious wonder of it all drives any such instinctive meaning away. Such luscious wonder fosters the innate condition of naiveté – the nourishing of which is essential if fascination in it all is to occur – and the charm of life itself easily engages dedication to peace-on-earth. Then, as one gazes intently at the world about by glancing lightly with sensuously caressing eyes, out of the corner of one’s eye comes – sweetly – the magical fairy-tale-like paradise that this verdant earth actually is … and one is the experiencing of what is happening.

But try not to possess it and make it your own … or else ‘twill vanish as softly as it appeared.

  • joie de vivre: exuberant enjoyment of life
  • amazement: a feeling of great surprise or wonder
  • fun: enjoyment, amusement, or lighthearted pleasure
  • over-joyed: extremely happy
  • marvel: be filled with wonder or astonishment
  • luscious: pleasingly rich and appealing strongly to the senses
  • fascinated: strongly attracted and interested
  • charm: the power or quality of giving delight or arousing admiration

And now, my favourite!

RICHARD: Now, it is ‘me’ who is responsible for an action that results in ‘my’ own demise – without really doing the expunging itself (and I am not being tricky here) – as it is ‘me’ who is the initiator of bringing about this sacrifice in that ‘I’ deliberately and consciously, and with knowledge aforethought from a pure consciousness experience (PCE), set in motion a ‘process’ that will ensure ‘my’ demise (‘I’ do not really end ‘myself’ in that ‘I’ do not do the deed itself for ‘I’ cannot end ‘myself’). What ‘I’ do, voluntarily and intentionally (cheerfully and blessedly), is press the button which precipitates a, oft-times alarming but always thrilling, momentum which will result in ‘my’ irrevocable ‘self’-immolation in toto. What one does is that one dedicates oneself to the challenge of being just here, right now, as the universe’s experience of itself … peace-on-earth is the inevitable result because it is already always existing (‘I’ was merely standing in the way of it being apparent).

The act of initiating this ‘process’ is altruism, pure and simple: it is a rather curious decision – a decision the likes of which has never been made before nor will ever be made again – that it is imperative it be ‘me’ who will evince the final and complete condition which will deliver the goods so longed for by humanity for millennia … whereupon that thrilling momentum takes over and one realises one has embarked already (and once that impetus gets going one cannot ‘un-set’ the pace).

There is no pulling back – which is why most people do not want to set it in motion – because once one has started one cannot stop. It is a one-way trip – that is the thrilling part of it – and with application and diligence and patience and perseverance, born out of the pure intent garnered from the PCE, the exposure of the inner workings of one’s psyche (which is the human psyche) will readily occur in the course of everyday events due to ‘my’ concurrence … one cannot help but become fascinated for this means the end of the predicament which humankind has been agonising over for aeons.

Any reluctance to become fascinated is because of the ‘no turning back’ aspect.

After fascination comes obsession wherein one cannot leave it alone any more – or rather it does not leave one alone – and that is when that tempo picks ‘me’ up and ‘I’ am borne along on the adventure of a lifetime as it is inevitable that one is to meet one’s destiny … it being what one is here for.

An eagerness takes over – one feels alive, vital, dynamic – and things happen serendipitously such that ‘I’ can no longer distinguish between ‘me’ doing it and it happening to ‘me’ … and this is exhilarating for one is fully doing this business of being alive – doing it here on earth in this lifetime as this body – and it is all happening now of its own accord. This moment is happening and all the while one is doing it the doing is happening of itself … then one is the experiencing of the happening.

And this is wonderful. Selected Correspondence: Altruism

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Probably the most succinct & comprehensive description of the actualism method?

Click to read full context => Mailing List 'D' Respondent No. 44

RESPONDENT: Yesterday I had some results that showed me that I was applying the method correctly. It was undoubtedly an experience of apperception. But it was brief.

I was in the kitchen and my grandma told me to clean some stuff since she was too tired to do anything. So I reluctantly agreed (I do not like cleaning the kitchen). As I was wiping down the counter tops I remembered ‘How am I experiencing this moment of being alive?’. And I was then again struck by the fact that it was this moment. Then as I stuck with that seeing that it was this moment of being alive I was pulled towards it. The pull itself was exhilarating and thrilling. Suddenly I saw my kitchen counter top for the first time. In great detail I saw everything but I wasn’t focused on anything at all. I experienced the very curvature of my eyeballs and everything became alive and three dimensional. This was in contrast to the ‘flatness’ of the real world. I found that I was delighting in cleaning the kitchen because to simply be alive was delightful.

‘I’ couldn’t stay back for long though as all ‘I’ could feel and think was ‘WOW! this is amazing!’. To think that all these ordinary things could be so extraordinary is wonderful. What have I been doing my whole life? (Subject: Re: Log, 31 Dec 2013).

RICHARD: G’day No. 44,

Your initial email – reproduced here as #161xx further above – almost prompted me to write a comment, when you posted it, as it clearly pinpoints the difference between a caused/ conditional enjoyment (‘I had a lot of fun tonight with friends’/ ‘all we did was sit, talk, and joke around’) and an uncaused/ unconditional enjoyment (‘the fascination that it is this moment sets in’/ ‘I am once more enjoying life’).

(A caused, or conditional, enjoyment and appreciation has a beginning and an end – it is dependent upon situations and circumstances – whereas an uncaused, or unconditional, enjoyment and appreciation is perpetual, aeonian (beginingless and endless) and occurs solely by virtue of being vitally alive – being dynamically here at this particular place in infinite space at this very moment in eternal time as a sensuous, reflective flesh-and-blood body only – and thus dependent upon no one, no thing, and no event).

Your follow-up email – reproduced here as #161xx above – unambiguously indicates you are indeed [quote] ‘applying the method correctly’ [endquote] and it quite remarkably reminded me of certain everyday experiences which occasioned the identity inhabiting this flesh-and-blood body all those years ago to both devise and (successfully) implement what has become known as the actualism method.

What the question ‘How am I experiencing this moment of being alive?’ – which ‘he’ formulated back in early 1981 – meant to ‘him’ was ‘Why is that experience not happening at this very moment?’ or ‘What is preventing that way of being here occurring right now?’ or ‘How come that wondrous world is not currently apparent?’ (and so on and so forth).

By thus being vitally interested – with that degree of fascinated attentiveness – in this moment being the only moment ‘he’ was ever alive it soon became a wordless approach, a non-verbal attitude towards life, each moment again, and ‘he’ readily developed the knack of allowing apperception to happen as it is never not this moment (as in ‘time has no duration’/ ‘time does not move’) in actuality.

(The experiential knowledge that this moment is eternal – that it is never not this moment in actuality – is the key to more instances of apperceptive awareness taking place).

Now that you indubitably know what apperception is – as per your ‘It was undoubtedly an experience of apperception’ sentence – and how to evoke it (as in your ‘Then as I stuck with that seeing that it was this moment of being alive I was pulled towards it. The pull itself was exhilarating and thrilling’ sentences) you may very well come to look back upon this day as being the turning-point of your life, eh?

Ain’t life grand!

Regards,
Richard

There are two elided footnotes in the above; in the first footnote (after “of certain everyday experiences”), he references a 1981 instance of “standing in the kitchen of my ex-farmhouse” whilst “not [being] interested in washing the dishes” … however, as what has since become known as the “actualism method” had become "a non-verbal approach to life, a wordless attitude towards being alive" to ‘Richard’ the feeling-being, he suddenly found himself sensuously delighting in that activity of washing the dishes. And then he realized the redundancy of ‘him’ and that life functions much better without ‘him’:

RESPONDENT: … feeling bad seems to be the driving force for doing various things like laundry, which I am not interested in – and the only way feeling bad goes away is by doing it … not by seeing the silliness of it … am I missing something here?

RICHARD: Maybe an example will provide the clue: back in 1981, in the early days of starting on the wide and wondrous path to an actual freedom from the human condition, I was standing in the kitchen of my ex-farmhouse, situated on a couple of acres of land in a remote countryside location, washing the breakfast dishes; I was not interested in washing the dishes/ I had never been interested in washing the dishes; I did not like washing the dishes/ I had never liked washing the dishes; washing the dishes was an uninteresting chore, an unlikeable task, that just had to be done (otherwise I would not be doing it/ would never had done it/ would never do it) … and all the while the early-morning sun was streaming in through the large glass windows, in the eastern wall to my front, beckoning me, enticing me to hurry-up and get the uninteresting and unlikeable job over and done with so that I could scamper outside and get stuck into doing the interesting things I really liked doing/ wanted to do.

Howsoever, the tool for facilitating the actualism method – asking oneself, each moment again, how one is experiencing this moment of being alive (the only moment one is ever alive) – had by now become a non-verbal approach to life, a wordless attitude towards being alive, and all-of-a-sudden, whilst standing there with my hands in the sink being anywhere but here, at anytime but now, it was a delight and a joy to be doing exactly what it was I was already doing anyway … standing in the golden sunlight with hands immersed in delicious, tingling-to-the-touch, hot soapy water.

I find myself looking at what the hands are feeling (the hot soapy water) and become aware I have never seen hot soapy water before – have never really seen hot soapy water before – and become fascinated with the actuality of what is happening: it is as if the hands know what to do without any input from me; they are reaching for a plate, they are applying the scourer appropriately, they are turning the plate over, they are applying the scourer appropriately, they are lifting the cleaned plate out of the washing sink; they are dipping it into the rinsing sink; they are placing it in the rack to drip … and all this while they are feeling the delicious tingling sensation of hot soapy water as it strips-away the grease and other detritus.

I am not required at all; I am a supernumerary; I am redundant; I can retire, fold in my hand, pack in the game, depart, disappear, dissolve, disintegrate, vamoose, vanish, die – whatever – and life would manage quite well, thank you, without me … a whole lot better, in fact, as I am holding up the works from functioning smoothly.

‘I’ was not needed … ‘my’ services were no longer required.

I also elided the other part of No 44 that Richard quoted, but you can click the first link above to read the first paragraph in it. I thought this part was particularly interesting since it parallels what works for me as well:

RESPONDENT: I’m having incremental success in my application of the method. I find that the guide that Peter put on the website matches my experience so far. When I get lost in thoughts or feeling reality then I immediately pay attention to how I am experiencing this moment of being alive. I do find that the initial layer is the layer of ‘rights’ and ‘wrongs’. I eventually get to a point where everything seems empty. I stick with it and try not to ‘move’ anywhere and eventually the fascination that it is this moment sets in and I am once more enjoying life. Still there is more work to be done though.

Compare the above to my “From those deeper percolating passions (and the fascinated awareness thereof), I can easily segue into enjoying & appreciating ‘what is happening’” in Syd's PCE Log - #6 by syd.

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Richard:
The reason why that ‘golden thread/ clew’ is oh-so-essential is because of agency[](javascript:void(0)) inasmuch as, whilst identity is in the driver’s seat (i.e., is the agent), any such giving of permission to have the controls be let go of without same will result in said identity being an out of control agent in some ASC or another (bearing in mind the three primary psychoses – schizophrenia, mania, and depression – are also altered states) rather than in an out-from-control and/or different-way-of-being virtual freedom.

The first two paragraphs of the second part of my response in the above Message No. 13604 explains that the feeling-being inhabiting this flesh-and-blood body, circa January/ February 1981, realised how only that which was outside of ‘himself’ (i.e., outside of the human condition) could do the trick and it is in this context that my last paragraph should make sense in regards the essential factor of this pioneering experiment.

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RICHARD: Just as when a person becomes physically blind all their other senses are heightened, so too is it when all affective feelings vanish entirely. This body is simply brimming with sense organs which celebrate in their own sensuous and sensual delight. Visually everything is intense, vivid and brilliant … sensuously everything is dynamic, vital and scintillating with actuality … sensuality is a matter-of-fact actualness. Everything is endowed with a purity that far exceeds the greatest or most profound feeling of beauty … and an intimacy that surpasses the highest or deepest feeling of love possible. An actual intimacy is the direct experience of the pristine actuality of people, things and events, unmediated by any ‘I’/‘me’ whatsoever.

Fear is the barrier to being intimate … yet fear is the doorway into intimacy.

Origin: Actual Intimacy; Artificial Intimacy; Pseudo Intimacy

Direct: Mailing List 'B' Respondent No. 49

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All this comes as no surprise for it is what humans have all long
suspected to be the case. This universe, this physical world humans all live
in, is too big in its grandeur, too neatly complex in its arrangement, and too
perfectly organised in its structure for humans to be eternally doomed to
perpetual misery. Surely, no one can believe for a moment that it is all fated
to be forever wrong. This is a tremendous universe in all its workings … this
physical world we humans live in is magnificent, to say the least. ‘We’ are
only temporarily wrong and ‘we’ can put ‘ourselves’ correct with earnest
application and diligence, based upon pure intent. All humans have
experienced moments of perfection – pure consciousness experiences, they
are called  which one generally forgets about in the press of one’s everyday
conditioned existence. But the experiences are indelibly lodged in one’s
memory and can be resurrected at will when appropriate. Sincere attention
paid to the PCE will result in pure intent. Pure intent will then guide one in
each and every situation and circumstance until the primacy of ‘me’ as a
psychological/psychic entity withers away. ‘I’ am the tragic consequence of
centuries of primitive belief. Pure and clear understanding of this is the
**beginning of the ending of the tragedy. ‘**I’ cannot long survive scrupulous
attention.

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As I find it helpful to have the source of the quote, here it is:
Richard’s Journal, pg. 84, Article Twelve

Cheers Vineeto

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I found this from Richard’s Correspondence with Correspondent No. 38:

December 15 2002

RICHARD: … if one asks oneself, each moment again, how one is experiencing this moment of being alive (which is the only moment one is ever alive) all will be revealed in due course, in the bright light of awareness, as one goes about one’s normal life. Moreover, all the instinctive drives, urges, impulses, compulsions, demands, pressures, cravings, yearnings, longings – all the instinctual passions which necessitate social conditioning in the first place – will be laid bare with the perspicacity born of pure intent and thus open for examination. The human mind cops a lot of bad press … but only because its native intelligence is crippled.

RESPONDENT: Am I correct in concluding that the decision for peace on earth (with pure intent) is the ‘mechanism’ that allows us to dissipate all our triggers that cause malice & sorrow?

RICHARD: Yes, this is because ‘the decision for peace on earth’ is to choose to dedicate oneself 100% to having that happen (which dedication makes peace on earth the overriding priority in life irregardless of whatever situations and circumstances may arise) and unequivocally deciding for peace on earth actualises the pure intent to enable such a condition just here right now: pure intent is the unwavering devotion to living life happily and harmlessly each moment again – being peaceful and harmonious is an ongoing commitment – and it is the very staunchness of pure intent which ensures continued success … malice and sorrow (and thus their antidotal pacifiers love and compassion) have no room in which to manoeuvre where benignity and benevolence flourish.

It is a sincere decision … and sincerity unlocks naiveté.

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Thanks Syd, this is a great find!

This bit in particular made me pause in wonder and appreciation.

Yea, me too.

I was just exploring hierarchy related feelings, oneupmanship and such … all the ‘sophisticated’ structures built atop the instinctual passions (desire, but also fear, aggression). And then there’s being near-innocence of naiveté which can ‘cut through that’ so to speak allowing me to take a clearer and welcoming look at it (such fun). But, “the rubble” still needs to be taken care of!