Vineeto: With that in mind, enjoying and appreciating the final scene of the “emotional play in a fertile imagination” is the only sensible thing to do.
Kuba: OK so what I get from this (and also linking it back to my previous post above) is that the ‘final scene’ will be somewhat dramatic however I do not have to get serious about it.
Mmh, you seem to have not only skipped Richard’s quotes but overlooked them altogether –
Richard: You need to have a keen sense of humour. This business of becoming free is not – contrary to popular opinion – a serious business at all. Be totally sincere … most definitely utterly sincere, as genuineness is essential. But serious … no way. (…)
Richard: ‘My’ demise was as fictitious as ‘my’ apparent presence. I have always been here, I realise, it was that ‘I’ only imagined that ‘I’ existed. It was all an emotional play in a fertile imagination … [Emphases added]. (Richard, Articles, This Moment of Being Alive).
When you say “will be somewhat dramatic” are you possibly referring to the quality of what ‘drama’ can mean –
drama, synonyms: play, show, piece, spectacle, dramatization, screenplay, theatrics, performance (Oxford Dictionary)?
Or are you rather thinking of “dramatic” as in “action-packed, hair-raising, impassioned, melodramatic” (Oxford Dictionary)?
It is ‘your’ drama/play and you can play it out however you like, you are the scriptwriter, the protagonist, the director and the producer – it can even be a comedy (as Geoffrey’s was (link)).
Perhaps you can also spare a consideration, if possible, for your post-mortem audience who will be either encouraged/ enticed or discouraged/ frightened by the choice of your final scene. And just that there is no misunderstanding, the choice is not made by ‘I’, the controller, but via an ‘Exquisite Awareness-Cum-Attentiveness’ (link) to ‘me’ being “all an emotional play in a fertile imagination”.
Kuba: Those passionate instinctual reactions will happen as ‘I’ approach ‘my’ demise, this is par for the course. However instead of becoming serious I can enjoy and appreciate it for the thrilling adventure that it is. Which this brings the benefit of no longer having to control anything. After all, they are the ones who you intend to do this altruistic self-sacrifice for.
It is exactly like being on a rollercoaster ride, in that fear is there and yet this is something people pay money to do, and it is not serious at all. Once the fear is converted into thrill it becomes enjoyable. Or by the same token it is the same as paying money to go to the cinema/theatre to sit back and enjoy a drama. Are you saying that I can enjoy and appreciate whatever is going on at this point in this manner? (link)
It is not necessarily “par for the course” – you have done this replay of “passionate instinctual reactions” umpteen times, and recognized and described them well. You know them well, and when the drama was over there was nothing left but hot air – and you were again free to enjoy and delight and cherish being here. Here is what you said in a previous post –
Kuba: So it seems what I have been circling here is that even ‘my’ death is not a serious business. I can see that I was able to enjoy and appreciate and to remove seriousness from most aspects of my life but it is as if ‘I’ reserved a special place for it where it concerned arriving at ‘my’ destiny. This 1 thing seemed worthy enough to be serious about, that it was ‘worthy enough’ to forego enjoyment and appreciation for this 1 goal.
But I see now that there was never a need to get serious at all, which means the way forward is enjoyment and appreciation anyways. (link)
Once you widen the presently self-oriented perspective and realize (and actualize) that you are doing this altruistically for the benefit of this body, that body and everybody, then ‘my’ death is no longer at centre stage and hence no longer the very serious business it has been so far.
I refer to Geoffrey’s report again – he says is better than I ever could –
Geoffrey: I realised that I would indeed gladly die right now, gladly give away all I am, all I ever was, all I’ve done and felt since I was born, for peace-on-earth to be apparent (not even for me but) for everybody. For things to be as they are. And that it would be of no importance at all. No ‘weight’, no drama… just the only thing that made sense, the only sensible thing. (link).
Cheers Vineeto