Yes I agree completely, I remember a few years ago when I had covid, my mum convinced me that I had a very serious reaction to it and I had a panic attack whilst sat on the toilet 
. I thought I was dying right there and then though, it was very intense and I remember being completely flushed with fear to the point that I was collapsing. So yes that is the difference between considering mortality “at an arms length” and coming face to face with it.
OK so what I get from this (and also linking it back to my previous post above) is that the ‘final scene’ will be somewhat dramatic however I do not have to get serious about it. Those passionate instinctual reactions will happen as ‘I’ approach ‘my’ demise, this is par for the course. However instead of becoming serious I can enjoy and appreciate it for the thrilling adventure that it is. Which this brings the benefit of no longer having to control anything.
It is exactly like being on a rollercoaster ride, in that fear is there and yet this is something people pay money to do, and it is not serious at all. Once the fear is converted into thrill it becomes enjoyable. Or by the same token it is the same as paying money to go to the cinema/theatre to sit back and enjoy a drama.
Are you saying that I can enjoy and appreciate whatever is going on at this point in this manner?