Kuba: I had an interesting experience yesterday relating to this, that yes the drama is very real and yet it is a drama after-all… That suffering is very real and yet it is not actual. It made me think back to what Richard wrote in his journal:
Richard: Are fear, terror, horror and dread only real? Is it only an act I have to play out in order to be here now? (Richard’s Journal, 2004, Article Nine)
and
Richard: In the place where I am genuine, no mental or emotional scars are carried. Stress, so vividly experienced in reality, has no actuality here. (Richard’s Journal, 2004, Article Twenty-Six)
Hi Kuba,
This is an experience confirming that you are allowing the drama to play out and an excellent observation as well.
Whenever I provide quotes from Richard regarding altruism and self-immolation, I am well aware that most of his writing happened before the Direct Route was opened (only List D correspondence occurred afterwards). Therefore, Richard draws from his own experience of coming out of the enlightened state, which was naturally quite dramatic.
Nevertheless, the human condition being what it, is still has the same potential for high drama, and in the end, once committed to and embarked on the adventure, it can only be encouraging and pleasantly surprising when one’s own experiences are not as stark as described.
Kuba: So although this drama can indeed reach some staggering intensity ultimately it is just a drama (this is what ‘my’ existence amounts to), it means nothing in the grand scheme of things. Of course, ‘I’ am prepared to let this thing play out to whatever intensity it needs to and yet from the other side it will have been “an emotional play in a fertile imagination”.
It is been very fortunate that you discovered this pattern of last-minute-distractions because now you can be fully committed to “let his thing play out to whatever intensity it needs to” without objections and doubt. Yet, you have already experienced enough of “the other side” to recognize it is not actually serious even though the emotions are doing their level-best to convince you otherwise.
Kuba: And I could see it from the “other side” to a degree, that no matter the intensity of the drama – “in the place where I am genuine, no mental or emotional scars are carried”.
So what I take away from this is that it is good to put a green light on this thing and let it play out, it is safe. (link)
Just excellent. I salute your audacity.
Remember how dramatic it was for ‘Vineeto’ five days before the event (link) and how jovial, convivial and almost imperceptible the actual transition turned out to be (link).
Cheers Vineeto