Vineeto: As you are not “this flesh & blood body experiencing life here and now” unless you are in a PCE, this question cannot be answered as is. In a PCE you may experience to be “nowhere in particular” and get a glimpse of what it is to “be anywhere at all, for infinity is everywhere all at once.” It is marvellous, albeit it can be somewhat disorienting at first.
Scout: This struck a chord with me. But namely because the consciousness experiences I’ve had that mostly closely align with the state you and Richard describe – where the psychological self/center is completely gone, there are only senses and a direct awareness of infinity – were actually pretty overwhelming. A lot of agitation/remnants of fear were still present and were experienced very acutely without the buffer of the psychological self, kind of reminiscent of the adjustment period richard described, and I definitely felt disoriented too. It makes those experiences feel like a little less of a compass for me because they actually didn’t feel super desirable. Did you have an adjustment period too, once you arrived at full freedom? Is this overwhelm/ transitional agitation just part of the experience? (link)
Hi Scout,
As Claudiu already pointed out (link) when there is “a lot of agitation/ remnants of fear were still present” at least that part of the experience was not a PCE. In a PCE the identity is in abeyance and so are all your feelings, passions and imagination. It could have been an after-effect of a PCE when ‘I’ get a shock that ‘I’ was not in control, or a mild excellence experience with a shock-effect, but as you say “closely align with the state you and Richard describe”, it again points to an excellence experience at the most.
This should be good news for you because an actual freedom definitely has no “agitation/ remnants of fear” and is much, much better than you can imagine.
Personally I did have a short adjustment period when I lost my centre of spacial reference permanently (link), which could only happen after I had dealt with the ‘guardian’, the social identity in toto – so there is no need for you to worry just yet.
I wish you eminent success with your adventure of being alive.
Cheers Vineeto