Kub933
4 January 2025 02:00
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henryyyyyyyyyy:
Buckle up!!
I have been to this level of rawness before so I have some preparation, but previously I went back to pursuing social pacifiers/fantasies. Now I know to watch for that ‘out,’ this could get interesting!
What I am finding recently is that since the below clicked :
I can see the above is what I have been missing in my general proceedings. What has been happening is that ‘I’ would come so close to self-immolation and then inevitably the instinctual force for ‘self’ survival would come to the fore. Not knowing how to proceed through this ‘I’ would instead plant a flag where ‘I’ was and set up camp there. This is where instead of proceeding forward ‘I’ would go back to belonging. Trying to get permission from ‘humanity’ rather than venturing on ‘my’ own. So …
It is now as if I can freely penetrate into ‘myself’ without backing out, any fear is simply converted into thrill. It’s great to be able to proceed forward with courage.
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