If it gets any better I’m not sure that I could stand it.
Only one way to find out!
I’m wide open to it. 
It is so wonderful.
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How can it be this good?
Wowee, I even had fun and enjoyed and appreciated at the dentist. I’m asking myself how much of this is due to my new wonder pain med which came to me serendipitously? I’m guessing 50% because if it was 100% then people would be storming the walls for it.
Another great day like every day.
When asked why she doesn’t have jet lag Taylor Swift said: “Jet lag is a choice.” This resonated with me. I’ve heard it said that af is a choice. I never really got that. Can I get it now?
There has been talk that a forum like this is not the optimum way to become af. I don’t know what the alternative is except maybe to rely on nothing. I was forced to quit thc and now the effectiveness of my prescribed pain drug is wearing off. There is nothing left to rely on which may be a good thing. This forum has helped me but it hasn’t delivered the goods for me or for many others. I don’t have much time left so maybe it’s time to stop and let it happen. The actual world is still here and will always be here. Why can’t I tap into it (pure intent) and be done with it?
Richard once suggested to me to allow it (af) to happen. What does allow it to happen mean? I don’t think it means taking some kind of action or thinking about it. It could mean doing or thinking absolutely nothing that would interfere with it happening.
Is the “pull factor” there as well? Do you feel a strong attraction to freedom / peace on earth / the ultimate meaning of life?
I am not trying to coach you here, these are questions I’m also asking myself!
If being dissatisfied with ‘me’ and being disenchanted with the human condition could make people actually free, a lot of people would be free by now, but they’re not. Maybe the “pull factor” is what’s missing, or not strong enough at present? When Richard suggests “allowing it to happen”, it makes more sense if there’s already a strong “pull factor” in place.
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@Paul Hmmm, good question. It’s as if your question has aroused a long dormant ‘pull factor’ in me. Maybe the pull factor is what has been missing. It makes sense that going with this pull factor is indeed allowing it to happen.
Interesting consideration. What does pull one into allowing it to happen?
@Andrew Another good question about what actually is this pull. Richard talks about the push and the pull on one along this path. I think Paul said it well above by calling it a ‘strong attraction’ : “Is the “pull factor” there as well? Do you feel a strong attraction to freedom / peace on earth / the ultimate meaning of life?”
Iow: Does this strong attraction pull one into allowing it to happen? What do you think? Still looking here at what actually allows it (af) to happen?
I am finding these quotes from Vineeto .
maybe the answer you are searching for is right here …
VINEETO: The “I” who would be doing the letting go is the controller (Remember the simile of ‘you’ and a pizza? You can slice the pizza into pieces but ‘you’ can never remove the last piece because that is still ‘you’.)
“I”, the controller, can give ‘my’self (the controller) permission to have it happen – the “it” refers to being out from under control to have one’s life live itself similar to Richard’s experience to have the painting paint itself.
What that means is that the controller goes in abeyance. meaning : “allowing myself to have the controls be let go of”.
Vineeto : When you enjoy and appreciate this moment of being alive (in all events and in all situations) and thus increasingly let the universe live your life, then ‘you’ will inevitably become more and more redundant
(and thus weakened for lack of ‘self’-nourishment) by the sheer fact that living life becomes easier and more and more enjoyable.
When most of your waking time is enjoyable without exception,
then ‘you’ have nothing left to do and can fully acquiesce
to manumit the flesh-and-blood body from ‘your’ control.
Then the conditions are ripe for magic to happen.
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Great to hear from you leila and yes these quotes you provided are exactly what I was looking for indeed. Iow, when ‘I’ the controller goes into abeyance is what allows it to happen. This is gold that you have provided here. I will keep rereading this. Thank you so much.
How are you doing leila? What have you been up to?
ps: The pizza example is especially appropriate. The last piece is still ‘you’.
I think the “push factor” is seeing the hopelessness of the human condition, the endlessness of the suffering in the world, the failure of all the political, religious and psychological solutions, the fact there never has been and never will be peace-on-earth while we are the way we are. I think the “pull factor” is pure intent, the memory of and attraction to something pure that lies outside the human condition.
If you’re old enough to remember Woodstock, your generation had that “pull factor” by the bucketload for a while. It pulled people in some weird directions too, but for some it left a trace of something pure. “Long dormant” maybe, but never dead.
The actual world is still here and will always be here. Why can’t I tap into it (pure intent) and be done with it?
The gravity of the human condition is strong. I’m not as old as you, but old enough to know that life moves in ever-diminishing circles under the pull of that gravity unless there’s a vital connection to something outside its field, something totally fresh and untainted. You can’t have completely forgotten it or given up on it, or you wouldn’t be here.
In the real world, we’ve got it upside down. The magical/actual world seems like a foolish dream at times, even though it’s the only thing that’s eternally here and actually tangible. The human condition feels so serious and real, but it’s the foolish dream/nightmare, made of nothing but dream stuff, which is all ‘I’ am made of. Richard is right, one has to be naive to see this, but also mature and bold enough to grasp the implications and act on it. “Like being a child again, but with adult sensibilities”.
The way I’m doing it is, keep that connection alive, look at all the “silly” aspects of ‘me’ that keep me stuck in stupidity and suffering, get as close to feeling unconditionallly good as I’m willing to go, and that leads to the place that Vineeto wrote about in the quotes posted by Leila.
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This is a well written post. It has put me in touch with that something that you and Vineeto have written about. May right more about it later. Right now I’m wondering where have you been hiding? You’re writing has activated a pull in me. Not yet calling it pure intent. What you are calling the push and the pull factor sounds very sensible to me. Iow, the push being the human condition and the pull being pure intent.
Great to be reminded by @leila and @Paul about the push of the human condition and the pull of pure intent. This has brought me back to the basics of living as the senses. Iow, af is not about doing something different or going somewhere else. It is about living as the senses.
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Had a brief experience of the actual world which got me back on track. It was brought on by slowing down enough mentally and physically to let it happen.
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