Hi Adam,
That is good to hear. When weighing up the “potential reward” of “not worrying” versus the downside of worrying this assessment only ‘tipped the scale’ after you discovered the faux ‘feeling good’, manufactured by the identity, which was not “something more valuable” compared to keeping up the worry. That in itself can give you the vital clue next time around.
To put it differently, the actualism method is to activate the intent outside of ‘you’, the identity, via the realisation, if not via experience, that ‘this is my only moment of being alive’, and then your cost-reward equation makes sense – nothing, but nothing, is worth wasting this precious moment of being alive.
Richard: In other words, the focus is upon how the identity in toto is standing in the way of the already always existing peace-on-earth being apparent just here right now. (Richard, AF List, No. 68c, 31 May 2005).
Adam-H: I think that the non-genuine feeling good I was targeting previously was also harder to reconcile with doing my job well, whereas the genuine feeling good didn’t seem in conflict, which is something I am going to keep looking at going forward. (link)
Good. That will also give you the clue to recognizing a ‘so-so feeling good’ as being not genuine should it ever occur again. Can you see now that when genuinely feeling good even handling the challenges in your job, and in life in general, will be fun to master with the ongoing awareness/ remembrance that now is my only moment of being alive?
Cheers Vineeto