Felix: There is a great deal of fun and freedom to it. And a wow factor. These experiences have a highly dynamic quality, there is a sense of movement – it’s me moving through life as if moving effortlessly and magically. It isn’t a static experience of staring at a wall waiting for something to happen. At times though that stillness does pop up momentarily; and it is almost scary when it does – a very momentary pristine perfection shines through. A “tintling” that fills the eyes and replaces egoic experience with a wonder. All the world as it’s usually known is gone – nothing is not magical. These experiences are having a profound effect on me generally. I’m excited, thrilled, can’t wait to see what will happen, totally engaged. […]
Felix: I have to report the other side of the coin; the falling back into me, my problems, the heaviness of life. (link)
Hi Felix,
Just a short reminder that you originally started your intentions with “looking for the triggers”, as in “Looking at the anxiety itself, and what triggered it …” (link)
Now these triggers not only refer to what happened to make you feel bad, it also refers to when you get seduced to allow a PCE or excellence experience or simply feeling felicitous and appreciative into the ‘good’ feelings and sometimes huge ‘good’ feelings – gratitude, love, excitement, expectations about future scenarios, day-dreaming, empathy, etc.
I personally know from ‘Vineeto’s’ experience how tempting that is, and more difficult to discover because it feels so attractive at first. But it puts you back on the see-saw of ‘good’ and ‘bad’ intense feelings, hence it’s beneficial to include putting ‘good’ feelings on the watch in your ongoing fascinated attention. Remember, having ‘good’ feelings is vastly different to feeling good.
I mentioned this before –
Vineeto: This was a wonderful pure consciousness experience. However, when you first report that “things normalised” and then experienced “hot tears” of “huge emotions of empathy”, you had not fully realized what happened. Hence you allowed what could have been an immense appreciation, disperse into “huge emotions” of ‘good feelings’ and thus wasted an opportunity to channel the outcome of the “immense, a direct experience of the universe” into felicitous feelings and immense appreciation. I am telling you so that you may be aware next time when an exceptional opportunity occurs. (link)
Let me know if this attention to ‘good’ feelings helps in any way to maintain feeling good (even though it may not be exciting).
Cheers Vineeto