True, it has taken 10 years for the simplicity of finding out a decision could be made which is independent of the ‘heart’. That’s what it seems like to me. There is a place in my ‘head’ which has this confidence.
I remember Richard saying one could be “Whistling a tune on the top of mount Doom”.
I spent last night enjoying the ability to think in this new proximity to the innate intelligence.
What used to be a rare occurrence, having an insight, is becoming the default thinking pattern.
I am fighting a cold, and yesterday was getting over that bottle of wine which somehow disappeared while I was chatting with Adam and yourself.
It was 9pm and I thought, I guess that’s enough for the day. However, I wanted more!
So I started recording some more what I was calling “emotional processing”. Just talking about relationships in this case.
For the first time, I actually felt sad about the tragedy that my ex wife of 17 years and I didn’t enjoy ourselves. I remembered us being such young kids, just 21 and 24. The thinking was so “fair”. There wasn’t the one-sided anger, or denial.
Ended up spending 2 hours essentially have a conversation with myself enjoying processing feelings which have been hidden under my resentment for 25 years.
“Make all the things you want to think about come to your feel good place in your mind, don’t go to them”
This just popped into my mind.
Be on top of the mountain, no need to leave the sunshine. When I am feeling good my thinking is like a continuous realisation. When I decend into feeling bad, it is marked with blame, confusion, and one-sided, second hand, poorly remembered advice.