Claudiu's Journal

Hi Vineeto,

Just wanted to say I found the following of what you’ve written recently very relevant and apt (emphases added):

I can relate to these feelings of cringing, recognizing I am rotten, appalled that I am still holding on to my existence, feeling guilty of it as well – it is nice to see ‘Vineeto’ experienced these same things and I can very much see how these feelings all point to me being a burden which it is in my self-interest (as a feeling-being) to no longer be… in other words aligning myself with the goal of self-immolation :slight_smile:

What is undeniably clear, and has been constantly clear since going out-from-control, is that I won’t stop until I have a life that is perfectly clean, clear, and pristine… and thus these feelings of guilt and fraud are incompatible with that goal… and the answer of course isn’t to cover up the feelings or hide from them, but rather acknowledge what they are pointing at – that I am a burden and a fraud and it would be better if I didn’t exist – and then do whatever I can to make that happen :grin:

Cheers,
Claudiu

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