Hi bubs! 
I had to google what quiescent meant but yes, that’s exactly how I feel. It just really hit me when doing our wedding stuff yesterday that what I want most in this world is to be happy and harmless with you 24 hours a day 7 days a week. That’s a really really big motivator for me. We are legally making a commitment to ‘join’ our lives together so why am I not making the commitment to live life with you in the most fun, exciting, wholesome, fulfilling way? I can really see now that that is what I want, more than anything. For now, without the memory of a PCE that desire is what i’m holding on to 