Sonya: Thanks Vineeto, I think you’re right. I only seem to go so far as observing the feeling and the reason why it keeps coming back up is because I need to dig deeper. When I think about it, in the past when I’ve tried to there’s been a resistance, almost like a mental block which I can’t seem to get past so i’d kinda poke around it for a little while and then leave it. I probably need to be more persistant and stubborn with myself that I will get to the bottom of it! I’ll have a go at it
This is what we were talking about the other day, to develop a fascination (eventually becoming an obsession) with how ‘I’ tick, because ‘my’ condition is the ‘human condition’. Eventually it is that ‘I’ must find out / ‘I’ cannot stay oblivious etc. Once the fascination segues into an obsession then it can no longer be left untouched, the cool side effect is that life becomes fascinating, and others become fascinating likewise.