Sonya’s journal

[Sonyaxx]

@Vineeto

A large yellow-orange full moon just rose an hour ago in the north, shining its glimmering rays over the water. It is particularly stunning tonight – they say it’s the brightest moon of the year, closest to earth. All is dark and still except the moon and some town lights lending their reflections to the river, amazing and magnificent.

How lovely I can almost picture it. I am very much a “moon person” and really appreciate and enjoy full moons. Unfortunately, we didn’t get to see it. It was bonfire night in the U.K where everyone sets off fireworks so the sky was filled with smoke and loud bangs, nothing is dark or still

@Vineeto

Ha, so much better that you started to think for yourself and experientially explore for yourself.

Yes, definitely. Of course I couldn’t grasp it before, I was just blindly trying to imitate Kuba.

@Vineeto

Perhaps not being burdened by too many “lofty thoughts” and “psychic adumbrations” in the first place gives you an advantage so you can concentrate on the “profound feelings” whenever they get in the way of enjoyment and appreciation.

Hahah, Kuba likes to joke about how all that’s going on in my head are ponies and rainbows .

@Vineeto

Indeed, being kind to yourself, down-to-earth and unsophisticated you can do one step at a time and with each success you become more confident that living as happy and harmless as possible is doable and fruitful – and what is more, you keep on enjoying and appreciating this moment of being alive while doing it.

Yes, this is really helpful to keep in mind. I appreciate how as a younger woman it is easier or more socially acceptable to be this way. However, I am intrigued sometimes when I get called “simple minded” because I’m happy at work or appreciating the vibrant green of my iced matcha latte. Yet, everyone benefits from me choosing to be this way Being happy and harmless seems to not mix well with being a “mature adult”. I’m starting to see how being sophisticated is not in line with enjoy and appreciating. It’s definitely gives off an exclusive vibe, unattainable, seperate.