Sonya: Hi Vineeto,
Thanks for your reply, it was very helpful to remember this:Vineeto: There is one hitch though you need to take into account – when you had the direct experience you described ‘you’ were in abeyance. Hence ‘you’ cannot make it happen, ‘you’ can only give permission to get out of the way and allow it to happen.
Hi Sonya,
Here is where feeling being ‘Vineeto’ learnt this first –
Richard: Now, delight is what is humanly possible, given sufficient pure intent obtained from the felicity/ innocuity born of the pure consciousness experience, and from the position of delight, one can vitalise one’s joie de vivre by the amazement at the fun of it all … and then one can – with sufficient abandon – become over-joyed and move into marvelling at being here and doing this business called being alive now. Then one is no longer intuitively making sense of life … the delicious wonder of it all drives any such instinctive meaning away. Such luscious wonder fosters the innate condition of naiveté – the nourishing of which is essential if fascination in it all is to occur – and the charm of life itself easily engages dedication to peace-on-earth. Then, as one gazes intently at the world about by glancing lightly with sensuously caressing eyes, out of the corner of one’s eye comes – sweetly – the magical fairy-tale-like paradise that this verdant earth actually is … and one is the experiencing of what is happening.
But refrain from possessing it and making it your own … or else ‘twill vanish as softly as it appeared. [Emphasis added]. (Richard, Homepage)
Sonya: I think I had another direct experience again this weekend when I went to visit friends in London. I was in the tube of all places haha, it’s not a very “nice” place and can often feel quite soul crushing. I remember I was just sat reading my book, just enjoying sitting and reading despite the loud noises/ harsh lights/ etc which would usually bother me. I suddenly felt like I was on the edge of something more than my usual experience of feeling good. After a bit of back and forth within myself trying to take that step into the “something more” I remembered that “I” can’t make it happen and the only thing “I” can do is get out the way.
As soon as I realised that and took a step back to allow it, it was like the same experience as last time, but I had perfect timing as our train was coming out of the dark tunnel onto overground tracks. All of a sudden everything was bathed in the evening sun, all golden, warm and lovely. Everything was so interesting to look at, nothing was “out of place” and it was missing that chaotic buzz the tube usually has.
As I got off the train I was dipping in and out of this. I noticed that as soon as “I” would pop up again to try control it/make it my own it would fade away. “I” could never grasp it. Only when I got out of the way was when I was experiencing this directness again.
With such meticulous observation skill you begin to learn how to bring about these direct experiences almost voluntarily, or recognize the atmosphere when they are most likely to happen. Not only are they delightful and wonderfully sensuous, they can inform you, a bit each time, about the qualities of the actual world when ‘I’ am in abeyance.
Sonya: It was definitely less overwhelming then last time and it still took my breathe away but I was having a great time. It went away when I got to my destination and “sonya” had to come back to greet her friends. (link)
Indeed, the territory is a bit more familiar and “less overwhelming” so you can thoroughly enjoy it and explore what else there is to discover when ‘I’ am temporarily absent.
It bodes well for more sensate and sensuous experiences.
Cheers Vineeto