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So, lately i’ve been kinda just been enjoying and appreciating as much as possible, this would mostly be in the form of noticing whenever I felt bad, seeing that I am being that feeling and being 100% okay with not intelectualising why I may feel that way or to try find any kind of “answer”. I’ve notcied that I’ve found it easier and quicker to get back to feeling neutral and then feeling good again. So i’ve been in a general good mood without any lasting dramatic flares. I think because of this I’ve been able to notice more when I start to head down that path, I’ve started to clearly pin point when my mood changes and just seeing that this is me being this way seems to nip it before it progresses further. Simply because there seems to be no “valid” reason to be remain upset about anything.
With all this kind of happening automatically now I think it opened up a new level for me. Last Thursday, I was walking to dance class from my car. It had just rained so the air was cool and had that fresh wet rain smell 
. I was just enjoying walking, smelling, seeing, feeling the air etc. but not in a forced way if that makes sense. It was a simple direct experiencing of my surroundings. I was simply just happy to be walking 
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I remember I was almost at my destination and walking under some trees and all of a sudden it was like everything came into focus with the most clarity I’ve ever experienced. Colours were so vivid and it was like looking through binoculars that were perviously “blurry and unfocused” and the settings had adjusted to a clear and crisp image. It was so intense I was definitely taken aback and almost stumbled a little bit. It was quite exhilirating. It lasted a few seconds then faded back to “normal” . After I was definitely feeling a bit shaken but not in a scared way, more like my definition on what was a “direct” way of experiencing the world was turned on it’s head and amplifed really suddenly, really quickly and it has shaken something. There was a raw directness to it that I had never experienced before that I’d like to experience again.