I had an experience yesterday that I’m not too sure what to make of. I spoke to Kuba about it and he has an idea on what may have happened but thought it might be a good idea to pop it on here to see what anyone else thinks! 
Yesterday we are at a family BBQ on a lovely english summer day enjoying Polish sausages (my favourite haha) and chatting away. I remember that delight and happiness was amping up, growing and growing. I was just having a great time! I looked up from my plate and as I looked at Kuba there was a whoosh and it was like I was looking at him for the first time. Everything was so fresh and delightful. I was so interested in this face right infront of me. It wasn’t loving feelings because what I was experiencing wasn’t internal if that makes sense? It wasn’t a heaviness or pining, it was very light and fresh and outside of me? It only lasted a few seconds as he asked me “what’s up?”. I noticed that he was looking at me too, I got shy and the freshness faded away. Some of it still lingered throughout the evening but definitely less.