Sonya’s journal

[Sonyaxx]

Hi Vineeto,

I just wanted to say this is all reallly fun and I can’t believe it’s taken me this long to get involved!

@Vineeto

dissociation from one’s feelings is very common

This is something I’ve noticed myself doing in the past alot. I think alot of it has diminished now. However, now when an emotion bubbles up it gets overwhelming and I find it hard to just sit and not express it. Especially a couple days before my period when the bar for my emotional tolerance is very low. It seems to be a common time I find a way to start an argument. Last time it was about who was cooking the minced meat .

In the past I never quite understood what Kuba was talking about since I only felt feelings physcially (heart racing, lump in my throat). However, reading Kuba’s explaniation to me just now it clicked for me and I was able to pinpoint when I’ve had an affective awareness of the feelings. That’s pretty cool to notice .

@Vineeto

Incidentally, sexual intimacy coupled with naiveté is an ideal opportunity as well to allow a PCE to happen. Richard talks about this in detail here

hehehe @Kub933

@Vineeto

Just remember that blaming either yourself or the other only serves to strengthen the ‘persona’, whereas sincere inquiry can not only be successful to dissolve the obstacle but turn out to be fun in the puzzle-solving process itself.

This really hit home hahah. I have a tendency to do this and it never ever gets anywhere. It makes so much sense and yet my default is blame.

@Vineeto

Be a friend to yourself and appreciate your successes, no matter how small they may appear to you at first glance.

I remember speaking to my friend about actualism and being happy and harmless. She said to me ‘remember to be happy and harmless to yourself too!’ I felt so silly, the thought never even crossed my mind.