Roy's Journal

Thank you for the warning. It seemed to be the case.

Fortunately, kids give me plenty opportunities to make a fool out of myself :laughing:

It felt silly some times - writing about my ordinary states of mind and seemingly shallow experiences - but I’m glad I did it. Like you say, for the sake of having a record.

At some point I considered writing in a way that could be of interest to my children in a future day, but I decided not to and I think it was the sensible thing to do: (1) I would have not been as honest, because one tries to write an interesting story/narrative (it happens when I write in this forum, to some extent: there’s always polishing). (2) It likely wouldn’t be of benefit to them. We walk different paths and even if I went back in time and introduced the Actual Freedom Trust to twenty-year old me, he would not care. I wasn’t ready then, I was too concerned with having a career, status, etc… Wanting to write for someone else is probably just my ego trying to leave some sort of legacy, trying to prove that it matters to someone. I can print a PDF with parts of the Actual Freedom website instead.

My path is unique (because I’m a unique person in this time and space) but it’s not special in any way. I think it’s normal to feel like I’ve chosen this path, but what happened is that I made some choices that oriented me slightly in a direction and then life happened and I ended up here. It’s basically this in repeat — the path is maze-like in reality and it’s my ego that tries to picture it as a clear path that was solely possible thanks to its choices. But in fact it was also about chance and many factors I had no control over. My children will have to go on their own different maze-like paths and I can’t teach them any shortcuts because I’ve no idea where they are headed. The only thing I can do for them is to be happy and harmless.

4 Likes