Vineeto: By choosing to highlight the first section, which emphasis ‘me’, your presentation is diametrically opposite to Richard’s statement that “sensuousness is the wondrous awareness of the marvel of being here now at this moment in time and this place in space.” [highlighted] The interpretation is making sensuousness all about ‘me’ rather than emphasising “the wondrous awareness of the marvel of being here now at this moment in time and this place in space”, which is applying one’s attentiveness to the already always existing perfection of “being here now at this moment in time and this place in space.” It is expanding one’s awareness and wondrous attention beyond one’s favourite “visually appealing things” from which self-less awareness – apperceptiveness – can occur. [end highlight].
Syd: Thanks a good pointer, Vineeto, thank you.
By highlighting that quote from Claudiu I did want to bring attention to this unseen-before interpretation of sensuousness which emphasizes ‘me’.
When Richard uses ‘sensuousness’ he is referring to either experiencing it in a PCE or actual freedom. Basically, for him (and you?), there’s no ‘feeling-being version’ of sensuousness – even though this is what Claudiu and others were talking about in the posts above,
I understood why you highlighted it, that’s why I commented on it, so you are not mislead by this snippet of a quote. I pointed out that when you focus your attention on ‘me’ being sensuous you may be reinforcing ‘me’ rather than allowing sensuousness to experience “the wondrous awareness of the marvel of being here now at this moment in time and this place in space”.
Why do you say “and you?” – I experience no “‘feeling-being version’ of sensuousness”, ever since have become actually free.
Claudiu: But in any case the key for me was thinking of ‘me’ being sensuous as a feeling-based thing, it’s what ‘I’ do as a feeling being. Before I got that part, I was trying to ‘pay attention to the senses’ in order to imitate actuality, as I thought it had something to do with sensory perception. But it’s not that, it’s that it has to do with enjoyment and appreciation of the senses – so it’s something ‘I’ do not something the senses do. But I also came at it from a muddled affer/ spiritual/ buddhistic background which is probably why the distinction was important for me.
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Syd: What I take from all of this is that, for a feeling-being – sensuousness is not about paying attention to the senses in a dry way whilst retaining ‘my’ modus-operandi. Rather, it automatically involves thinning ‘me’ (with cheerful concurrence) sufficiently enough so that ‘I’ now have the space, so to speak, to be able to simply enjoy & appreciate all that which is unfolding sensately or proprioceptively in this only moment of being alive. I believe this understanding is in line with the yellow-highlighted part of your response above. Or maybe I’m still missing something … (link)
Claudiu’s emphasis on clarifying that any sensuousness “has to do with enjoyment and appreciation of the senses” was very apt, and you also have “a muddled affer/ spiritual/ buddhistic background” from years of practicing Vipassana, where senses are considered symptoms of “dukkha” (falsely translated as unsatisfactory or suffering) –
Richard: For instance: the key Pali word dukkha – usually translated as ‘suffering’ or something similar – is a compound word (as in du + kha) where, etymologically, the du- prefix – an antithetic prefix, generally opposed to the su- prefix, such as in sukha – has connotations of ‘asunder, apart, away from’, and the kha syllable/ ending, which functions also as root, has the meaning ākāsa (pronounced a-cash-a). (Richard, List D, Claudiu, 11 Feb 2012)
(I recommend the above link and other selected correspondence from Richard on Buddhism (1+2) and Vipassana as well as Richard’s Pali Studies, Introduction in order to fully understand what you have been practicing and how to comprehensively extricate yourself from any remaining habits of this period). This “muddled affer/ spiritual/ buddhistic background” may also be reason why you are approaching so many aspects of actualism in an analytic and conceptual way rather than experiential. It also explains why you consider sensuousness being “paying attention to the senses in a dry way”, which is exactly what for instance Satya Goenka’s practice of Vipassana is all about.
You already had a long discussion with Richard on this very topic in December 2012 –
SYD: No. 19, Richard is not ‘emphasizing’ feelings here (he umabiguously reports that a feeling is not a fact); rather *you*, by your watered-down[Upload failed] rephrasing, are de-emphasizing feelings by insincerely mixing in thoughts into the illusory/ actual distinction. no thanks, i’d rather have someone call a spade a spade instead of twisting a potentially offensive fact only to go astray on the practice for years (your watered-down rephrasing could easily make an actualist reading it go lax on investigating feelings because he ‘readily agrees’ that thoughts and feelings are not part of the physical/ corporeal world; duh!).
RICHARD: G’day Syd, Whilst on the subject of ‘better phrasings’ (as in the ‘I-Know-Better-Than-Richard’ titling of this thread), and the topic of there being no feelings in actuality, it has been brought to my attention that you recently posted three (unreferenced) quotes on another forum, written by feeling-being ‘Peter’ back in 2003, so as to provide ‘food for thought’ … namely:
- That those quotes bring up some parallel with Mr. Satya Goenka’s ‘equanimity towards all physical sensations’ practice.
- That what those quotes say is that the ‘instinctual reactions’ trigger hormones (which are experienced as physical sensations) in the body which are almost instantaneously ‘felt’ as the instinctual passions.
- That those quotes also raise the question of whether AF [sic] people only remain blind to ‘instinctual reactions’ – i.e. have they cut the chain right where these reactions are ‘felt’ (which feelings form themselves into ‘being’)?
- That those quotes also raise the question that while even a shadowy feeling being can give off vibes, what of a body with instinctual reactions?
- That those quotes conflict with Richard’s report of him not experiencing any bodily symptoms associated with fear (for instance).
(dharmaoverground.org/web/guest/discussion/-/message _boards/message/3694814#_19_message_3694814). [emphasis added]. (Richard, List D, Syd, 7 Dec 2012)
That you only now discover, from Claudiu’s report, that sensuousness is something different to “paying attention to the senses in a dry way” means that this chapter of your habitual way of paying attention to your senses needs a whole new assessment. It will also have significant ramifications on your practical understanding of the actualism method of enjoyment and appreciation in general and the word intimacy in particular (having aimed for something akin to ‘equanimity’ perhaps?). I only mention this because I know from ‘Vineeto’s’ experience that habitual thought and behavioural patterns persist unless specific attention is applied to them.
Cheers Vineeto