opening the refrigerator door , smelling garlic , oh , Frank has left the pickled garlic in the refrigerator without a lid .
thinking started : he always does this , he always do that. …
i was doing the same thing as before , triggering myself .
then i realised , being naive , is the other direction of what i am doing right now .
i imagined myself as a " big kid " , opening a refrigerator door and smelling that garlic .
what i would do or feel as that kid ? just looking , smelling , maybe giggling …simple and pure .
but i am this social identity, which makes everything complicated , with should and should not , with judgments , likes and dislikes , as opposed to being simple .
but if the key to be naive is sincerity for experiencing purity .
and when Richard says naivete is a higher form of awareness , (apperceptive mind is a simple and naive awareness ).
so , for imitating the actual= the world of the senses , i have to be more simple . even investigation has to be simple .
even saying " silly " and " sensible " is being simple .
by being more of " the beer "( the instinctual identity ) than the doer . i am going more toward being this flesh and blood body , and less of the social complicated identity .
i think geoffry said something , " let the body do it ". he said this for EATMOBA .
in actualism from feeling the feelings ( sensing them in my body ) ,to coming back to feeling good ( allowing the ease and calm in the body ), till using that feeling good for EATMOBA (noticing or/ and exclusive attention to the senses : looking ,hearing , smelling ,and enjoying them, etc…) is all what the body is doing . i as this social identity just allowing attentiveness to run .
i guess the points are this :
less social identity (meaning less judging ,less shame , less should , less should not , less opposites ,less seriousness , less intellectual thoughts ).
more beer , more simple , more naive , more being here enjoying , more fascination , more pure contemplation , more curiosity .
i am allowing exclusive attention to this moment , to be here fully , for purity to work freely , because " all that is required is ‘my’ cheerful, and thus willing, concurrence’."