I am finding lately that an aspect of ‘myself’ which ‘I’ have carried so deeply for so many years is disappearing. It is to do with authority and the resultant lack of confidence, this deep feeling that no matter what ‘I’ do ‘I’ will never be good enough.
It is funny to look at it now, because all ‘my’ life ‘I’ crippled ‘myself’ because of ‘my’ own belief in the absolute power of authority, no wonder ‘I’ never felt good enough as ‘I’ was only comparing ‘my’ performance to ‘their’ beliefs/values/morals etc.
So ‘my’ life was a life of always second guessing ‘myself’, always feeling like there is a ‘big daddy’ who knows better, of always trying to work out just what the ‘right’ thing to do is. Always trying to act out the best performance but painfully falling short each time, then castigating ‘myself’ for failing to live up to ‘their’ borrowed values!
What I am getting a taste of these days is as Richard described - “Here is a total lack of conformity and compromise”. There is such a freedom to no longer being crippled by one’s belief in authority.
Interestingly enough with the belief in authority fading, the feeling of ‘me’ never being good enough also fades, as after all it was ‘their’ beliefs which were the benchmark ‘I’ was comparing ‘myself’ against, constantly.
The question is why were ‘they’ given such credibility in the first place? When it was clearly not warranted. But it was the belief in authority itself which made ‘me’ cling to ‘their’ values even though ‘I’ knew deep down that they were faulty.
Stepping out of this was probably the most daring thing ‘I’ could have contemplated, it was for sure what always brought the most trepidation, that intrinsic power which authority held seemed inviolable, it was a weight that ‘I’ couldn’t imagine ever being lifted, that gravitational pull of ‘humanity’.
What a freedom for this weight, this rock that was crushing ‘me’ since ‘I’ became a member of ‘humanity’ to be lifted. There is such a joy in the quiet confidence that comes when ‘I’ am no longer a slave to ‘humanity’s wisdom’, it is definitely much recommended 
I remember how this came about, a few days ago I saw briefly that entire construct of authority, power, hierarchy etc for the belief that it is. It was seen to never have been genuine in the first place. This seems to have been the precursor for what is being actualised now.
I couldn’t find a better image but this was what it felt like for ‘me’ to face up to ‘humanity’s wisdom’ 
A wisdom which after a thorough review turned out to be a joke…
It is funny, me and @Sonyaxx went out for a fancy Japanese meal the other day, it was a very intimate ambience with only the chef and 4 people in the room. The other 2 was a couple with the boyfriend being a ‘new money’ kinda guy. Of course he spent the whole time trying to impress upon us his achievements. I ended up talking with him to some depth and it very quickly became clear to him that I simply didn’t agree with his borrowed wisdom, felicitously. He attempted to advise me by pointing out that trees grow to their max potential but only humans limit themselves, funnily enough in the next sentence he equated that ‘maximum potential’ with how many G wagons one is driving The bizarre thing happened next when he offered to pay our bill (which was pretty substantial due to the kind of restaurant we were at), I am not sure if this was him throwing the last punch or perhaps he appreciated that I was able to talk with him in a way that was genuine and amicable, despite his attempts at impressing his superiority. But this gives an example as to the quality of this highly venerated ‘human wisdom’.
Then you can live that which is the answer to doubt. You can have confidence based on your experience of perfection and purity, all the way until doubt begins to loose credibility, along with all the morality etc.
, arrive at a virtual freedom