Journal de Henry - #594 by Kub933 - Will continue chipping away at this topic here.
I find this thing very fascinating, what I am slowly seeing clearer and clearer is that ‘I’ am indeed addicted to suffering. This thing never clicked for me, it seemed so counter-intuitive, yet I can deny it less and less.
This is something that I can observe clearly in my mum for example, I can see that she is very trapped in this cycle of needing to find a danger so that she can find a solution. There is an addiction not just to the feeling of security upon finding a solution but also the continued finding/fabricating of problems/dangers. This is more or less the condition that I exist in as a feeling being.