This is really so simple I can’t believe I never saw it so clearly! 
I can see this on 2 levels right now :
One one level I want to be the bad feelings, why? Because they allow me to sustain the good ones. E.g by worrying about what I am doing tomorrow I get to feel the security of having a plan. I can really see this in operation in myself, the energy of the bad literally feeding the good and vice versa, in fact this is just 1 energy that is ‘me’, continually shifting.
On a second level I want to be the bad feelings (just as much as I want to be the good feelings) because they sustain the drama that is ‘me’. Those 2 sides of the coin are needed to continually fabricate reality.