Kuba: Hi Vineeto,
Coincidentally I was about to write a post today detailing what has been going on recently and at the end I began writing about a gun which was loaded and the trigger needed to be pulled, I stopped right there as I remembered that Geoffrey had settled this already… and here I was talking about the psychic gun!
Hi Kuba,
Ha, both the ‘shooter’ and the ‘shootée’ have to disappear, voluntarily.
Here is the pivotal sentence in the link you provided –
Geoffrey: When one knows what it is one wants, and when one knows what it is one must sacrifice, then only the sensible action remains.
Kuba: As to “the sheer (f)actuality of the universe is what eventually does ‘you’ in” (link) I was contemplating all this a little earlier and I was reminded of what Srinath wrote after becoming actually free:
Srinath: “I feel like my brain has been ‘uncapped’ and the magnificent universe – as oppose to ‘self’ and ‘other’ is my preoccupation” (link)
And how I have been experiencing life the past couple of weeks, there is a big window open to this kind of experiencing, apperceptiveness shows a world which has nothing to do with ‘me’ or ‘my’ machinations. But yes then at times I have been wondering, is there something ‘I’ must do back in ‘my’ world, which in practice it only ever ends up being a decoy, some ‘adventure’ that only goes around in circles and ends up with ‘me’ looking for the ‘psychic gun’.
Even though you compare your experience to what Srinath wrote after he became actually free, fact is that ‘you’ are still a feeling being and are naturally assessing your experience (once apperceptiveness subsides) from ‘your’ perspective – in short, can ‘I’ live in this actual world ‘I’ remember having experienced. The phrase “something ‘I’ must do back in ‘my’ world” [emphasis added] might give you the illusion you have left ‘your’ world, which you haven’t. You described it more precisely before – “there is a big window open” and you are inside, more and more looking out of the window.
When you assess with the apperceptiveness/ PCE ‘self’-less perspective (whilst still experiencing the actual world) you know full well that there is no question that your flesh-and-blood body not only can live in the actual world but thrive far better than you do now. In a PCE you know that this actual world is where I belong, that I have always been here, where everything is perfect and magical.
As such, what you confirm with your choice of words (“there is a big window open”), is that the final arbiter is ‘you’, the feeling being. As such, “when you know what you want”, all ‘you’ do is (eventually) agreeing to ‘your’ demise, permanently, irrevocably, and manumit the flesh-and-blood body Kuba from ‘your’ dominance.
manumit [from Latin manumittere, lit. ‘send out from one’s hand’]: release from slavery; release from bondage or servitude; set free. (Oxford Dictionary).
The word manumission is very useful, on occasion, as to be manumitted is to be freed: the word freed stresses being autonomous, the complete absence of being ruled; (Richard, Abditorium, Manumit)
In other words, to paraphrase Geoffrey, do you know “what it is one must sacrifice”? Do you know “without a shadow of a doubt that ‘I’ am the cause of every evil, corruption, dirt… just because ‘I’ am ‘so precious’. How ‘I’ mess everything up for myself and everybody just because ‘I’ am. And not some dissociated ‘I’ with enough quotes not to be me, but me right now thinking this”? (Geoffrey, Becoming Free Report)
Because when you do know, with all your ‘being’ and without a shadow of a doubt, “then only the sensible action remains”.
Kuba: I think I understand well what you are pointing to, actually this is the aspect which is enabled via the diminishing of self-centricity, there is ongoing experiential confirmation that a world exists which has nothing to do with ‘me’. This kind of experiencing is where I have been hovering, unsure whether it is the allowing of that or something needing to be done back in ‘my’ world which is required. (link)
What I thought be valuable information for you was:
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that Actual Freedom is so much more magnificent and magical than one can ever experience in a PCE or in glimpses of apperceptiveness, and
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that experiencing the sweetness of pure intent – embracing and appreciating the purity and overarching benignity and benevolence of the infinite universe – as described by the pioneers (link) might entice you, as an ongoing fatal attraction, to follow this golden clew closer and closer to your destiny.
What is required for an actual freedom to occur is allowing your complete and irrevocable abdication (into blessed oblivion) for the benefit of this body, that body and every body, nothing more, nothing less.
The way it happens is no via control (“a psychic gun”) but “when it becomes more and more difficult to distinguish the difference between one doing it (doing this business called being alive) and it happening of its own accord”. (Richard, Private correspondence with Claudiu, 29 Feb 2012).
Richard: (Being out-from-control/ in a different-way-of-being is quite daunting to contemplate as an on-going EE marks the end of the beginning of the end of ‘me’ and the commencement of the actualism process – as distinct from the actualism method – wherein a momentum not of ‘my’ doing takes over and an inevitability sets in; in an on-going EE the actual world has the effect of impelling one towards it – like a moth to a candle as the overarching benignity and benevolence of the actual increasingly operates such as to render ‘my’ felicity/ innocuity increasingly redundant; this is where being the nearest a ‘self’ can be to innocence – the naiveté located betwixt the core of being and the sexual centre (where one is both likeable and liking) – is attached as if with a golden thread or clew to the purity of actual innocence; an on-going EE is, thus, where one becomes acclimatised to benignity and benevolence and the resultant blitheness because the purity of the actual is so powerful that it would ‘blow the fuses’ if one was to venture into this territory ill-prepared). (Richard, List D, No. 12, 9 Dec 2009a)
Cheers Vineeto