Hi Vineeto,
Coincidentally I was about to write a post today detailing what has been going on recently and at the end I began writing about a gun which was loaded and the trigger needed to be pulled, I stopped right there as I remembered that Geoffrey had settled this already… and here I was talking about the psychic gun!
As to “the sheer (f)actuality of the universe is what eventually does ‘you’ in” I was contemplating all this a little earlier and I was reminded of what Srinath wrote after becoming actually free :
”I feel like my brain has been ‘uncapped’ and the magnificent universe – as oppose to ‘self’ and ‘other’ is my preoccupation”
And how I have been experiencing life the past couple of weeks, there is a big window open to this kind of experiencing, apperceptiveness shows a world which has nothing to do with ‘me’ or ‘my’ machinations. But yes then at times I have been wondering, is there something ‘I’ must do back in ‘my’ world, which in practice it only ever ends up being a decoy, some ‘adventure’ that only goes around in circles and ends up with ‘me’ looking for the ‘psychic gun’.
I think I understand well what you are pointing to, actually this is the aspect which is enabled via the diminishing of self-centricity, there is ongoing experiential confirmation that a world exists which has nothing to do with ‘me’. This kind of experiencing is where I have been hovering, unsure whether it is the allowing of that or something needing to be done back in ‘my’ world which is required.