James: Current objections to self immolation:
If I was going to do it then I would have by now. I am going down the same path. I can’t. (link)
Hi James,
You call it your “current” objection but your subsequent sentence reveals that you do not think it will ever disappear. “I can’t” means that you firmly believe there is nothing you can do.
Here is a quote from Adam which might give you pause –
Adam: I’ve been thinking of actualism in terms of two ‘modes of failure’. One is “can’t get back to feeling good” the other is “won’t get back to feeling good”. When it feels more like a “can’t” that’s the sign I’m deceiving myself and I need to dial up the ‘being my own best friend’ energy and get to a place where I can clearly recognize what feeling I am ‘being’. I think the DhO pseudo-actualism practice history is what made it so difficult to figure this out, but I’ve made huge progress on this side lately. (link)
I am curious what would happen if you had the courage to admit to yourself that “I can’t” really means “I don’t want to”. Even if this “I don’t want to” never changes, at least you can then stop playing hide and seek with yourself.
Or … allow the possibility that is might change …
Cheers Vineeto