I was just walking around the river, having a successful time (as per my journal post of a couple hours back), and this exact consideration arose, but in reverse!
I was wondering, after having been considering how I was nostalgia*, and how in a PCE or Freedom, I wouldn’t be there and “what would take my place?”
It was a thought and feeling that “nothing “ would take my place that seemed somewhat sad to me, but almost immediately I caught the extreme irony of being in anyway worried that nothing would take my place, considering just what a mess I make! All the years of anger and sadness, malice and sorrow, frustration and despondency! How would “nothing “ be worse than that!!??
I genuinely laughed for a good five minutes, carefully avoiding appearing like a madman when a person passed the other way, but the proceeding to grin my face off with just how ridiculous it was to think and feel that “nothing “ was something somehow worse than me!
*nostalgia! I will see if I can sensibly write more about this in my journal.