Hi Vineeto, as the panic mounted to crescendo I made a clean break with her back in early December (this was a few days before the PCE on post #5). Although your entire response to me is accurate, this particular statement of yours (which captured the essense of it all) had me promptly e-mail her asking to resume our acquaintanceship while informing how emotions had me play for keeps rather than for fun thus spoiling the whole thing. If she’s still interested and accepts, I’ll as sincerely as possible look into everything that comes up as an obstacle to this “less ‘self’-centric closeness” in the context of man-woman intimacy. Based on the memory of the PCE, I already have an inkling of what success would be: enjoying what already unfolds in this very moment, without any regard for (immediate or distant) future.