Kuba: Hi Vineeto,
It is nice to hear from you :
Hi Kuba,
Nice to hear from you too.
Vineeto: An excellent post (as well as your two follow-up ones (link)), which really describes experientially to what extent the human condition and ‘me’ are usually completely dominating one’s perception, feeling and behaviour. It is so refreshing to read when someone can experientially confirm that “both ‘inside’ and outside’” worlds disappear in a PCE and upon an actual freedom. (link)
Kuba: Yes that PCE has turned out to be quite pivotal, it has shown me – without a shadow of a doubt – that the target is completely outside of ‘me’, a different dimension in a sense, to where ‘I’ exist. I think up until now I didn’t see this clearly enough, so there was room to kid myself with imagined targets.
That seeing is solidly lodged in my memory and it’s undeniable – there is not a shred of ‘me’ in the actual world. And I have been rememorating this experience, coming close to it again. Although the doing of it is actually out of my hands, in the sense that I find myself spontaneously pulled into the actual world.
This is indeed a pivotal experience which, when rememorated, will prevent you from ever again building an imaginary world with ‘you’ as the surviving actor. It literally pulls the carpet from underneath ‘your’ feet – and what a great confidence-boosting and direction-confirming experience that is.
Kuba: Today it happened when I ran a bath and just as I got in this shift occurred, and magically I found myself in the world where “nothing dirty can get in”, the perfection and purity was undeniable, and in that experience I as this body am just as clean as the rest of the world. This aspect in particular is so delightful, that there is nothing ‘dirty’ anywhere to be found, not in the world and not in the body.
This is amusing in the way you described it – and it is indeed so that utter purity prevails here, of which the feeling of beauty is only a paltry imitation (plus it requires ugliness for comparison). And yet beauty is considered the highest value in the real world, equivalent to truth (Truth) – in spirituality – and in mathematics.
Kuba: And the shift, when it happens ‘I’ don’t do it, in an instant all is wiped clean, somehow magically ‘I’ disappear and there is this other world which becomes immediately apparent (there is no lag at all), this world is discovered (yet again) to be right here where it has been the whole time.
Yes, it is magic the way it happens in an instant, a demonstration that when ‘you’ disappear the always already existing actuality becomes instantly apparent.
Kuba: Interestingly enough none of those intense fears which I experienced in the past have returned at all, and actually seeing that actuality is completely outside of ‘me’ has diminished any fears further if anything, ‘I’ don’t have to worry about that which is “on the other side” so to speak, it is nothing to do with ‘me’, the danger exists where ‘I’ remain, that is the risk. (link)
It reminds me that I was writing to you on similar lines back in November last year when it was obviously too early to sink in –
Richard: The doorway to an actual freedom has the word ‘extinction’ written on it. This extinction is irrevocable, which eliminates the psyche itself. When this is all over there will be no ‘being’ at all. (Richard, List B, No. 13, 26 May 1999)
Vineeto: When you understand this basic fact, at the deepest core of your ‘being’, that the actual world, and therefore pure intent and all the wonderful experiences you had of the “mirificent flavour of pure intent”, is outside of ‘your’ domain then you won’t continue to fool yourself … (1 Nov 2025)
A very significant experiential observation that you are now, what Richard described in a private email, on his side of the wall of fear surrounding all of humanity.
Richard: ‘Vineeto, who is now fully out-from-control/ in a fully different-way-of-being, and thus on my side of that enormous wall of fear completely encircling all of humankind, …’ (24.12.2009)
Or as Geoffrey put it –
Geoffrey: I was thinking about the unknown path lying before me (the path that deliver the goods – as I knew from the PCE), and realised in a flash that the unknown path is the safe path. That the known is the unsafe. That ‘I’ am the unsafe. (Geoffrey, becoming free report)
A wonderful place to be … and more to come.
Cheers Vineeto