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Hi Vineeto,
It is nice to hear from you 
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Yes that PCE has turned out to be quite pivotal, it has shown me - without a shadow of a doubt - that the target is completely outside of ‘me’, a different dimension in a sense, to where ‘I’ exist. I think up until now I didn’t see this clearly enough, so there was room to kid myself with imagined targets.
That seeing is solidly lodged in my memory and it’s undeniable - there is not a shred of ‘me’ in the actual world. And I have been re-memorating this experience, coming close to it again. Although the doing of it it is actually out of my hands, in the sense that I find myself spontaneously pulled into the actual world.
Today it happened when I ran a bath and just as I got in this shift occurred, and magically I found myself in the world where “nothing dirty can get in”, the perfection and purity was undeniable, and in that experience I as this body am just as clean as the rest of the world. This aspect in particular is so delightful, that there is nothing ‘dirty’ anywhere to be found, not in the world and not in the body. And the shift, when it happens ‘I’ don’t do it, in an instant all is wiped clean, somehow magically ‘I’ disappear and there is this other world which becomes immediately apparent (there is no lag at all), this world is discovered (yet again) to be right here where it has been the whole time.
Interestingly enough none of those intense fears which I experienced in the past have returned at all, and actually seeing that actuality is completely outside of ‘me’ has diminished any fears further if anything, ‘I’ don’t have to worry about that which is “on the other side” so to speak, it is nothing to do with ‘me’, the danger exists where ‘I’ remain, that is the risk.