Kub933's Journal

[Kub933]

Hi Vineeto,

Thank you for your wonderful reply

It’s for sure much more fun when what is being discussed is based on my ongoing experience rather than some map ‘out there’.

@Vineeto

And now that you are gradually coming to terms with the once-in-a-lifetime-decision to leave your ‘self’ behind (which, once taken, cannot be undone) the intermediate playground becomes obvious and the next sensible step …

Kuba: It has become clear to me why stepping out from control is what happens prior to self-immolation, … (link)

And, with increasing diminishment of self-centredness/ self-centricity this is where the real fun, delight, marvel and wonder can fully flourish and full benefit of the actualism way of living reveals itself. Appreciation expands into wonder, amazement, joie de vivre, amiability, bonhomie, relish, gusto and naïve sensuosity and intimacy.

Thank you, you wrote this so well - basically now that I have genuine confidence that living out from control is the way to go the “training wheels” can properly come off. Of course ‘I’ cannot take full advantage of the “actualism way of living” if ‘I’ am still committed to the ‘tried and true’. I understood this the other day, that the answer cannot be located within the human condition, that ‘I’ can never generate the answer, which means that whatever control ‘I’ try to exert, it can only lead ‘me’ back deeper into the human condition.

So instead ‘I’ step out from control and allow the universe to live this life - this is where the genuine answer can be lived, and as you said - it is where “the real fun, delight, marvel and wonder can fully flourish”.

@Vineeto

The more objections fall by the wayside, and the more you are acclimatising yourself to “that place where all is wonderful”, the less ‘self’-centric you find yourself to be, because “that place where all is wonderful” is for everybody. In other words, such diminished ‘self’-centricity makes room for a genuine caring for your fellow human beings, who are all as much afflicted with being an alien identity as you are.

Yes the other day I was thinking about my work situation and it was regarding my wages. I was aware of the 2 failed options which ‘I’ have oscillated between thus far in ‘my’ life. Which was either to ‘put the other before oneself’ or to ‘take what is mine’ (typically at the expense of the other), I was feeling all the feelings associated with those 2 options and I realised that neither of them can ever work.
Again this was ‘me’ controlling ‘my’ life, and doing a bad job of it. It clicked then than what I always wanted deep down, and what I was always drawn towards was for each and every interaction with a fellow human being to be of maximum benefit to all. ‘I’ saw that ‘I’ am not capable of that, ‘my’ control can never operate in this manner, but that it was possible to live like that and that all ‘I’ have to do is allow the universe to live this life, because in the place where all is wonderful it is exactly like that, and effortlessly so.