Kuba: Hmm now I am wondering, is it that this 0.01% that is keeping ‘me’ around rather than going into oblivion now is that ‘I’ want this delight for ‘myself’.
I can see that no matter how diminished ‘I’ may be ‘I’ always spoil this perfection and purity to some degree – or to be more accurate ‘I’ get in the way of it. I have had glimpses recently of the pure and unadulterated perfection which exists outside of ‘me’ and that is what ‘I’ can never ever have, because ‘my’ very ‘being’ is what get’s in the way.
It seems the question is am ‘I’ willing to give up ‘my’ second best so that this body, that body and everybody can live the ultimate. But either way ‘my’ second best is actually a ticking time bomb, because sooner or later ‘I’ will slip up.
I remember Srinath wrote a while ago something to the effect that the actualism method does not turn the T-rex which ‘I’ am into a plush toy, it’s kind of like that. I guess the words “in the meantime” really do convey what it is all about, in that ‘my’ extinction is what is required. Not for ‘me’ to chill in the in-between forever, pretending that ‘I’ have arrived, that the problem has been eradicated. (link)
Hi Kuba,
When nothing happens for a while you seem to magnetically slipping back to thinking on the ‘self’-side instead of leaning into and bathing in the non-affective sweetness of pure intent …
Kuba: Yes the “escape hatch” is provided via pure intent, this is what ‘I’ allow to take ‘me’ away, with ‘my’ full concurrence. (link)
And then you wrote this:
Kuba: And also there are all the actually occurring wars, murders, rapes, suicides etc Which would all come to an abrupt end without the ‘I’/‘me’ as ‘self’, this is astounding to contemplate, that all of that could stop right now, there is actually nothing substantial causing all of it, it’s all because of ‘I’/‘me’ as ‘self’. (link)
As a reminder, here is a private email from Richard which I have posted before about six weeks ago –
Richard: Having the “courage of your convictions” has nothing to do with believing, trusting, hoping or having faith that it be possible. I, for one, never believed, trusted, hoped or had faith that it was possible, for such an action of believing, trusting, hoping and having faith perpetuates the believer, the truster, the hoper and the faithful. On the contrary, I could no longer believe that it was not possible – which is a different action entirely to believing, trusting, hoping and having faith that it is possible – thus dispensing with the believer, the truster, the hoper and the faithful. Do you see this?
For example: Doubt is believing it not to be possible … doubt is actually an action of believing, which supports the believer. Faith is believing that it is possible … which also supports the believer … and thus, either way, the believer pushes freedom away into an ever elusive future.
All this stemmed from my peak experience in which I experienced the purity and the perfection of life itself – here and now – and thus saw that what others had perceived as being our reward after physical death already existed … at this moment in time and this place in space. Thus I ceased believing that life on earth was a grim business with only scant moments of reprieve … yet I did not start believing in perfection. To repeat: I stopped believing, period. All sorrow and malice stems from the activity of believing … which arises from the believer. ‘I’, as a psychological entity, can only believe – or disbelieve – in possibilities and impossibilities. In the peak experience ‘I’ temporarily abdicated the throne and I knew, by direct experience, that freedom was already actual. It was ‘I’ that was the problem, not the absence of perfection. When ‘I’ ceased to be, perfection became, as always, apparent. By believing perfection to be possible ‘I’ perpetuate ‘myself’. ‘I’, by ‘my’ very presence, inhibit that splendid perfection becoming apparent.
Perfection is already always here. Yet ‘I’, by believing in a remembered perfection, chase an ever-elusive chimera into an ever-receding future. Thus one stands still and does nothing but watch the dust settle all around … and perfection, which is only of the moment, becomes apparent. ‘I’ have ceased to be. By “doing nothing” I mean neither believing nor disbelieving; neither having faith nor having doubt; neither trusting nor distrusting; neither hoping nor despairing. In short, one’s superb confidence and over-weening optimism precipitates ‘my’ demise … ‘I’ do not make freedom happen … ‘I’ allow the universe to “disappear” the ‘me’ that I was … and perfection has become apparent. ‘I’ did not invoke perfection, for it already is here … and it is here now, not off into the future. It may have taken some time to eventuate, as ‘I’ got whittled away, yet when that time came, it was already here … because it is always now.
To sum up: ‘I’ do not make perfection happen because it is already always here. What ‘I’ do is to “stand still” and unreservedly allow ‘my’ eventual demise to occur. To do this, ‘I’ cease believing, hoping, trusting and having faith … without falling into disbelief, despair, distrust or doubt. ‘I’, having the courage of ‘my’ convictions – which is the confidence born out of the solid knowing as evidenced in the peak experience – thus developing a superb confidence and an over-weening optimism. Thus nothing can stand in ‘my’ way in this, the adventure of a life-time. [Emphases added]. (Richard, Private email, March 1999)
Perhaps this can give you the confidence to cease swinging back and forth, and instead lean into and stay as close as you can to this overwhelming palpable sweetness of pure intent, this sweet longing for your destiny (and ‘your’ destiny as well), when “the actually occurring wars, murders, rapes, suicides” will end forever for one other person on the planet, and with each additional actually free human being have a flow-on-effect for everyone.
Here is something for you to contemplate –
Richard: (…) the global spread of peace and harmony – as well as individual peace-on-earth – is not taking place via having to ‘convince the few left’ (to use your phrasing); as it is a matter of consciousness – consciousness, as in, a flesh-and-blood body being conscious, or sentient – it is spreading via common consciousness and, to utilise the words of the well-known correspondent, it has already ‘escaped into the wild’ and there is nothing, absolutely nothing, which can now halt its spread. (Richard, List D, No. 2, 15 Feb 2012). (see also Richard, Selected Correspondence, Common Consciousness).
Cheers Vineeto