Also I have noticed since yesterday it seems like the way back to reality is getting further and further away. Actually it seems like I would have to actively try in order to get ‘back there’ not that I would want to of course 
It seems like ‘my’ days are becoming numbered, that unless a meteorite was to strike sometime soon it is inevitable that ‘my’ self immolation will happen. It’s fascinating that essentially ‘I’ left ‘myself’ no other choice but to arrive at this place, no matter how many detours or dead ends would happen en route.
For the majority of the time ‘I’ am open and receptive to the perfection and purity all around, that the core of ‘my’ being is somehow ‘open’, this brings about this delightful and magical ambience - it seems this is exactly a description of naivete.
Me and Sonya went to watch some ballet yesterday and it was a very outstanding experience, like I was solidly in that “in between” space of not yet actuality but certainly not reality either - again this seems to be naivete.
There was many very unusual experiences that I don’t think I can put into words very well but it was like slowly grasping the ramifications of where all this leads to, the destination being experienced as having always been right under my nose.
And then infrequently, the core of ‘my’ being will somehow ‘close up’, like ‘my’ hiding place is temporarily regained, but it seems it doesn’t take much to “set this right” again, attentiveness seems to be all that is required when this happens.
In general it is as if ‘I’ am - If not 100% yet then very close to that number - committed to going all the way, that the entirety of ‘my’ being is orienting itself towards the goal. Aaand there is plenty of reward on the way for such a commitment haha.
What is clear is that there is an unbelievable extent of delight ahead.
I remember last Christmas a very brief PCE when I was in New Zealand, when I wondered how what I was at the time experiencing could get even better, I glanced at Sonya and saw the actual flesh and blood body called Sonya, existing in a world of unbelievable perfection and purity - like blow the fuses level of it, I pulled back immediately as it seemed it was way to much haha.