Is it a sincere not seeing of it?
If so then what is the benefit that you can enumerate of why it might be better for you not to selfimmolate?
For me it is a different thing, I see it’s the best thing but am not willing to give myself up for it yet, it is a self-centric wanting to hold onto myself — which I am increasingly seeing is also just a feeling, ie a feeling (though very deep) of wanting to continue existing as myself, but as it’s a feeling it’s not intelligent or sensible lol