Hahahaha, here I was thinking and wondering that I had finally figured out the last steps, the thing to do near the end of the journey to become free — sensuousness — that would only apply at this late stage but that I had finally gotten to that point … …
And it’s what Richard had been doing from the very start 
Certainly puts a dent in me thinking I am somehow ‘good’ at this
Funnily enough when I did have that rock solid PCE, I wondered if Richard’s 4-hour PCE, that started ‘his’ journey, was of that wondrous nature … as it would explain why ‘he’ went all the way, with that as his guiding light!
It’s not to say I didn’t have PCEs before but that one really stands out …
In any case it doesn’t make sense to beat myself up about it. Its not like I haven’t put a lot of energy into this in the past years! But the human condition is tricky, very wily. It’s more a testament to how tricky it is, when the way to become free is plainly spelled out and still takes so long to fully appreciate it!
Rather than feel bad about it I will use this energy to not waste the opportunity now!