Continuing with the above here :
So it appears that the issue at core is around this old dichotomy of free will vs determinism, this is the lens I have been viewing the situation through.
I can see that ‘I’ as a separative entity can only view life as either having dominion or being under dominion. Being forever separated from actuality ‘I’ can only view ‘myself’ as either some disembodied ‘prime mover’ or merely an object being deterministically acted upon.
‘My’ conceptions of what agency or autonomy are all about are wrapped up within these constructs. I can see that both ‘me’ as a psychic entity and ‘I’ as a psychological entity arrogate ‘myself’ over life as it actually happens. This has been made even clearer through the recent articles.
‘I’ am forever locked out of time and forever locked away from being here which means that whatever dramas ‘I’ have around free will or determinism are simply projections, it is a story of ‘my’ life which happens as it were parallel to life as it actually happens, except that not a shred of it is genuine.
I have seen this many times over the years, that all the various interactions and events that happened in ‘my’ life never actually took place. So it is ‘me’ worrying about what this body will do when ‘I’ am gone without realising that ‘I’ never had any genuine say in the first place. It is like a paradox, an illusory entity worrying about it’s illusory role in actuality, whilst keeping this actual flesh and blood body chained, ‘my’ worry about what things will be like in actuality (when ‘I’ am gone) is keeping this body chained.
So I can see @Vineeto’s recommendation was on point :
Yes, the actual world cannot be imagined and neither can ‘being’ conceive of ever not ‘being’ and this is truly “funny to consider that ‘I’ might even try” . It will save you a lot of head-ache to not even try.
What I can see is that ‘my’ conceptions of autonomy or agency and how these would look like in actual freedom can only ever be faulty, because ‘I’ will construct them from the only tools which exist in reality (such as free will / determinism), and the product will be a monster that ‘I’ will waste time wrestling with, this monster is ‘my’ construct and so it cannot be an accurate depiction of what life is like in actuality.
Indeed it is the confidence which comes from the experience of pure intent which paves the way forward. I can taste the flavour of what it is like, but ‘I’ cannot posses it, because ‘I’ can only translate it back in ‘my’ language and distort it.
All this talk about progressing into full actual freedom is making it seem to me like I am still stuck playing a kids game 
Especially the below seems to have kicked me back into gear :
Richard being the first only had his own experience to go by when he started writing about an actual freedom, until others became vitally interested, and then some succeeded in becoming free and one in becoming fully free. These events all added enormous information to the data pool but also may give the impression, and the expectation, that everyone can succeed as easily as Richard and Vineeto. Hence all the complaints that the method doesn’t work and isn’t as easy as depicted, and so on. This is cutting edge of human evolution in consciousness, something never seen or experienced before !!! And it needs true pioneers.