Hi Claudiu,
A very brief and probably not satisfactory answer for anyone to judge what I do is that a lot of the posts here in this thread: Connection to pure intent without contact? - #11 by Miguel
…make complete sense to me now. And as I type, the mind is fully aware of two ways of experiencing this moment of being alive, one where it is all actual, no feeling me arising, no feeling being filter masking the pristine purity of the actual world with this body as a part of it …and the other, the feeling being filtering it all, hazy, sticky, so unsatisfactory with those instinctual passions and tendency to manifest as malice and sorrow. Yet, I’m able to remember the purity of the PCEs I’ve had (why I am here) and the feeling being gets thinner so to speak, more childlike and innocent, unassuming, less the sneaky sly deceptively thick and soupy feeling being, but lighter feeling being touched and infused by the memory of the purity of “me” not being there, of the PCE. Naïveté I think. A much more ideal way of exisiting as this feeling being than any other way I have experienced of it. Then PCE’s happen more frequently from this ongoing experience. Momentary, some longer seconds, minutes. I have had enough now to be fully convinced it is the way I wish to exist on this planet as as this mind and body. Tis my destiny.
I was following instructions long ago that were more to do with just having 100% motivation as a feeling being and that is it though my memory of it is a bit vague. It wasn’t triggering naïveté and allowing the purity of the PCE to inform the way forward. My sense of identity back then was a different beast.
I am dealing with a reluctance to try and put it into my own words. Which is why I haven’t posted much. But it is good I try as I feel it’s fertile territory to uproot some blocks, knots and feeling being trickery. In future I’ll give it a try.
I appreciate the question, Claudiu.
Thanks