Just feel good, bro

[syd]

Hey!

@Kub933

re-discovering naivete as an ongoing way of being

Just to clarify, I meant being naive (and thus “experience a change in the way [I] feel, in [my] attitude and general outlook”) and not being naiveté (out-from-control virtual freedom) per se. I should have been more careful in my wording!

Also see last paragraph below.

@syd

The next day, the familiar “morning resentment” would arise (much less intense these days)

This “morning resentment” has been a near-daily habitual occurrence of that childhood (bullying) memory which I referenced in the posts above as “almost always brooding in their vicinity” (#4). I remember telling Richard about it back in 2024. You could say this is my ‘default’ way of feeling out other people, when the usual civil veneer is not fully functioning yet (usually the case when you wake up in the morning).

@syd

Eventually (after looking at boredom) I found my way back to that enjoyment & appreciation or feeling excellent.

This ‘boredom’ (another long-term habit) was to do with the addiction to desire I haven’t written about, because it is not yet time for it.

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Note that I’m not even thinking about the actualism process at this stage, as written here:

@syd

As of now, I see that it comes down to feeling good come what may … as well as, rememorating my PCEs (which I find to be vital when it comes to going past the addiction inherent in desire). I’m not too bothered about anything else right now. There’s a burning desire to make feeling good—enjoying and appreciating being here—the norm.

I’m sure it will happen when the time is right. Feeling good, and enjoying & appreciating is its own reward, anyway.