Henry: I can see that my attention has been split into a few domains, perhaps the trend is simply not wanting to be ‘me’ as I am currently.
Some of this has been intentional as I felt a couple years ago that I had been spiritual bypassing in the sense that my life was a bit of a mess but I was avoiding my problems and feelings and living in a false ‘actualist identity.’ I have been spending some time re-engaging with my occupation and social life, which I don’t see as a contradiction to actualism but has meant engaging with things that I had long avoided, and as such have had a lot to learn. In this, I have necessarily become quite involved in many ‘real-world’ problems.
Perhaps it could be described as a period of ‘me’ consolidating.
Hi Henry,
Mmh, I can’t quite make sense of what you mean by “spiritual bypassing” – is that related to how you have been “avoiding my problems and feelings and living in a false ‘actualist identity’”? Perhaps it is time to simply clear the workbench and start afresh.
Henry: I am definitely still vitally interested in actualism and becoming free. I have found this period of consolidation productive in clearing the cobwebs out of some ‘dark corners’ of myself. I’ve also found the appearance of new problems informative.
You know there is a very simple way to start afresh – now that you found that “avoiding my problems and feelings” is segueing in “not wanting to be ‘me’” –
Richard to Claudiu: Pleased to read of you recollecting a childhood PCE, during a sunny carefree day in Romania, and the best way to maximise the benefit gained from this trip is, of course, none other than what has become known as the actualism method … to wit: enjoying and appreciating being alive, each moment again, come what may.
It really is that simple: all the rest – such as feeling as happy and as harmless as is humanly possible, each moment again, by minimising both those futile malicious/ sorrowful feelings plus their antidotal loving/ compassionate feelings (and, thereby, maximising the felicitous/ innocuous feelings via this sensible utilisation of the potency of affective energy), for instance, and by being as naïve as is humanly possible, in order to be naiveté (and, hence, be sensitive to and receptive of the overarching pure intent), via being sincere about achieving one’s goal (in order to, thus, be sincerity in action) of peace-on-earth in this lifetime, for example, concomitant to coming to one’s senses both literally and metaphorically – are the various ways and means of effecting that very enjoyment and appreciation of being alive, each moment again, regardless of the situation and the circumstances.
Put succinctly: the means to the end – enjoying and appreciating being alive – are, therefore, no different to that end (the very enjoyment and appreciation of being alive) other than the former is, of course, affective in its nature and the latter is, quite obviously, actual by its very disposition. (Claudiu’s Report, 30 Oct 2013)
Vineeto: It is rather a matter how interested you are in sincerely imitating the actual as experienced/ rememorated in a PCE. It is your sincerity of purpose which will inform you if you are closer to imitating the actual or just ‘getting by’.
Henry: I appreciate this message. I’m experiencing it as something of a wake-up call… a reminder of pure intent.
I remember in 2017 having a PCE and having the thought that ‘I’ would colonize the experience, co-opt it for my own ends… that is exactly what has happened over the years in many different forms. But the clean and clear qualities of the PCE are not something the identity can recreate completely.
An excellent admission. Now is a good time as any to actualise this realisation. (FAQ Realisation/Actualisation)
Henry: I am happier and more harmless than I was 1 or 2 years ago, and I’m pleased about that. Perhaps it’s time to step on the gas regarding attention to pure intent. (link)
I do find Geoffrey’s summary one of the best suggestions an actualist can adopt –
Geoffrey: As long as you find yourself looking for the door that is tiny (the recipe, the formula, the secret sauce, the psychic gun, the pill, the trick), you’re nowhere near and should instead walk the path.
As long as you find the path narrow, arduous, vanishing, confusing, instead of wide and wondrous as it is, you’re not walking it, you are merely lost in the woods nearby – and should instead find it in yourself to take a first clear step in the right direction, such as making a commitment to happiness and harmlessness. (link)
Ruthless honesty and utter sincerity will help you to succeed. Here is a quote you might take encouragement from –
Respondent: Does responsibility and seriousness come with being carefree?
Richard: No, the utter reliability of being always happy and harmless replaces the onerous burden of being responsible … and actuality’s blithe sincerity dispenses with the gloomy seriousness that epitomises adulthood.
It is funny – in a peculiar way – for I often gain the impression when I speak to others, that I am spoiling their game-plan. It seems as if they wish to search forever … they consider arriving to be boring. How can unconditional peace and happiness, twenty-four-hours-a-day, possibly be boring? Is a carefree life all that difficult to comprehend? Why persist in a sick game … and defend one’s right to do so? Why insist on suffering when blitheness is freely available here and now? Is a life of perennial gaiety something to be scorned? I have even had people say, accusingly, that I could not possibly be happy when there is so much suffering going on in the world. The logic of this defies credibility: Am I to wait until everybody else is happy before I am? If I was to wait, I would be waiting forever … for under this twisted rationale, no one would dare to be the first to be happy. Their peculiar reasoning allows only for a mass happiness to occur globally; overnight success, as it were. Someone has to be intrepid enough to be first, to show what is possible to a benighted humanity.
One has to face the opprobrium of one’s ill-informed peers. (Richard, List B, No. 20a, 10 Jul 1998)
Cheers Vineeto